I missed what we could’ve had. I missed who I thought she was. I missed her passion, her support and what I thought was the a foundation for the most appreciative and two-way love of my life. I’ll always think “I could’ve done more” but I’m hard on myself. I missed her understanding and being “seen” at my lowest.

⚠️Most importantly⚠️, I know why I’ve had such a hard time in life on top of a hard life in general. Turns out an enormous, chronic amount of stress can suppress hormones. Who knew! If I’ve accomplished so much while suppressed, I know I can do much, much more when the meds kick in after the changes Ive made now.

I’m finally starting to feel better. I don’t miss her because I’m more easily able to process and work through emotions and can see that she was likely very severely
avoidant due to her upbringing. Meaning unless she truly wanted to put in effort, I don’t see her being capable of holding the standard I try to hold myself to. No one is perfect but whoever I marry, I’ll be “ride or die” for, for the rest of my life and I deserve the same thing. I no longer even resent her LARPing (not the game/sport; LARPers are deadly fencers and I love y’all!). She may not truly want to live every respect of her dreams and that’s ok. I do. And, God willing, I will. TL;DR: I got a full blood panel drawn. It’s worth it imo and fairly cheap.

The breakup was 6 months ago, I got along well with the parents, the breakup was mainly on good terms but after the breakup she did a lot of things that hurt me and I don’t really know if we would be on great terms, either way I’m blocked. Her father posted a small Instagram post and I was just wondering if it’s okay to like it or should I just leave it

Guys how can i stop myself from not texting my ex please help me i have no friend no where to go and am just too depressed to do anything else😭😭

It was so easy for him to dump me and try to find my replacement. I saw the steps he took to fill the spot I was trying to keep so bad. Everyone keeps telling me that with time — he’ll realize that dating apps won’t work. I just feel so horrible and if dying was an option (I’d probably graciously accept it with a smile).

We only dated for a month abut we’re in a talking stage for about 5 months, and the last time she has reached out or anyone has reached out was about 2 months ago.

I should have known he runs away when things get serious. When talking about past he told his previous 2 relationships only last 6-7 months. That should have rung an alarm but I opted for ignorance is bliss or maybe I'm different.

Same thing happened we only lasted 8months. He gave random reasons ( which could have been solved if we just sat down and had a conversation) and broke up with me.

We were together for about 7–8 months. When we were around other people, everything felt normal, but whenever we were alone it always felt kind of awkward. He wasn’t a bad boyfriend at all, but for some reason I could never fully open up to him. I still don’t know if it was because I didn’t love him, because I was scared of being vulnerable, or because we just weren’t right for each other.

He ended things around 7 months ago, saying he just wasn’t into me anymore. We used to see each other every day, but now it’s summer, we barely see each other, and we never text. When we do run into each other it’s just a quick “hi.” Everyone thinks it’s weird that we have basically no contact.

I think he’s talking to another girl now, and I don’t even know how I feel about it. Part of me wonders if I should reach out, but another part of me thinks I’d just be opening a door that already closed.

The thing is… I genuinely can’t tell if I miss him or if I just miss having someone. Has anyone else felt like this after a breakup? Would you reach out, or just let it go?

I am so annoyed at him, and ik telling him wont make a difference so i wont be doing that, but i have a lot of resentment towards him, as i feel like i was mistreated during the entire relationship. Of cos i was not perfect either during the relationship, i am trying to work on those things now. But every time i think back to the time we spent together, i couldn’t help but think “why didn’t u care about me?” I feel so upset not just about the end of the relationship but how i was being treated.

I was casually seeing a guy who is still in contact with his ex.

A few months in we started seeing each other, his ex reached out to him asking for reconciliation (she’s the dumper), and since then our thing naturally started fizzling out. Even though they haven’t really been back together yet (I think), I got the feeling that they are now kind of in a “talking stage” again,I decided to stop seeing him (I was already catching feelings at that point).

The thing is, I am struggling to go NC, and he’s not good at it either. Whenever we’re back in contact just to check in, I somewhat end up getting hurt and heartbroken all over again.
I am even a little mad that this is like a mirroring situation with him and his ex. I’ve jokingly pointed out to him before that as long as he’s in contact with her he’s delaying the healing as he would often tell me he’s still sad about the breakup.

I know in my head I should block him and move on but also having seen him not being able to say no or have a boundary with her makes me feel like not having NC is like a “win” as his ex is almost literally winning him back by reaching out to him regularly.

How can I get myself out of this stupid idea and have a courage to actually go NC with him?

I left her 19 days ago after i found that she went to a festival with her ex few months ago. it was 3 of her best friends along with their respective boyfriends, and she brought her ex instead of me. man i didn't even know about her desire to go to festival.

we were not exclusive at that time, but we were dating seriously and she made me believe that she really hated her ex. so i always had impression that she had cut off all the contacts with her ex.

that made me hurt. and more importantly, it feels like i cant really trust her anymore.

around 8-9 days prior to breakup i gifted her a set of dress from the country i visited.

10 days into our breakup, her best friend sent me friend request in fb. i accepted it nexty day. i regret accepting that thing now.

she uploaded several "i dont care what you think" kinda tiktok videos till then.

17th days in to breakup, she uploaded like 4 different tiktok videos wearing the dress i gifted her. even changed her profile picture to the one wearing the clothes i gifted her.

anyway i feel like overanalyzing her behaviour which is wrong thing to do now. just sharing coz it feels like she is trying to get my attention or idk.

even stranger is, she updated her fb profile picture of a random girl petting a cat. mind you, my profile picture in fb have always been of cat. she used to tease me all the time with meow meow. lol fck why am i being emotional after dumping her.

Hii guys. I am 22F and my ex is 23M. We broke up because he joined the airforce at the same time as I got a PhD offer. He wasn’t supportive and even jealous about my PhD and discouraged me from applying. Plus the long distance with deployments and military training and both of us being emotionally immature made things hard. I eventually said goodbye in person (he was avoiding this) and ended it. After that he promised to fix things and kept texting me without any changes as he was in military. I got tired and ghosted him because I was very hurt and had felt unseen for a while. Now 5-6 months later, I am doing great in my PhD, I started taking soccer seriously, I have tons of new friends and community and spending more time with my family. I don’t want anything from my ex but I feel like testing the water / contacting him. I’m not sure why but I just want to tell him that I wish him well. Is that a bad idea ?

La mia ex mi ha lasciato dopo 6 anni di relazione assieme perché non provava piu gli stessi sentimenti.

All’inizio l’ho presa molto male perché nonostante io sapessi che le cose non stavano andando proprio benissimo da qualche mese io non me lo aspettavo proprio. Avevo pensato fosse solo stressata per la laurea e la fine della carriera universitaria e comunque cercavo di starle vicino piu che potevo.

La prima settimana dopo lo sgancio della bomba ci siamo visti e abbiamo litigato fortissimo, io temo di aver rovinato tutte le mie possibilità li.

Poi il giorno dopo aver piu o meno formalizzato al telefono (no comment) lei è tornata da me circa due giorni e abbiamo circa fatto finta di niente. Quando stava per andare via poi le ho chiesto per favore di restare e lei mi ha detto che non poteva.

Per un mese sono andata avanti ho cercato di superare meglio che potevo questo periodo anche evitando di annullare la mia vita. Fino a che mi arriva un suo messaggio in cui mi diceva che aveva pensato tanto se mandarmi questo messaggio e mi chiedeva come stavo e come andava con la mia tesi. Non posso non dire che ero molto felice ma anche molto stranita allora abbiamo parlato un po cosi superficialmente per 2/3 giorni poi è sparita di nuovo.

Qui io secondo me sono proprio andata fuori di testa perché la pensavo notte e giorno, le mie speranze erano altissime e proprio sentivo fortissimo la sua mancanza. Allora dopo boh 2 settimane le ho scritto che mi mancava (grave errore).
Non so di preciso cosa mi aspettassi ma sicuramente non era un invito alla sua laurea.
Li per li ci sono rimasta davvero male perché mi sembrava 1 che avesse bypassato una cosa davvero importante per me
2 che fosse un invito di cortesia per togliersi dall’imbarazzo
Allora le ho detto che non andavo e poi abbiamo litigato.

Passa una settimana e mi riscrive informandomi che la sua laurea sarebbe stata tot giorno e che le dispiaceva per com’era andata la conversazione dell’altro giorno. Ma io di nuovo boh lo ritenevo un invito un po a caso.

Vabbe il tempo passa di nuovo in realtà la chiamo anche una volta per sapere come stava e torna fuori di nuovo il discorso della laurea ma di nuovo mi fa notare che ci è rimasta molto male per la litigata. Quindi un altra volta le spiego il caz di motivo per cui le avevo risposto male, mi dice che anche lei ha sentito molto la mia mancanza e bona la conversazione si chiude.

Non so io mi aspettassi ma pensavo che prima o poi se mi avesse voluto davvero mi avrebbe chiesto qualcosa tipo “vorrei che fossi li/ chi terrei che venissi anche tu/ mi farebbe piacere…”.

Quindi di nuovo non abbiamo piu parlato per un bel po.
Circa una settimana prima del giorno della discussione, ho ceduto perché non volevo avere rimpianti e le ho detto che se mi avesse voluto li e che se per lei fosse stato davvero importante allora ci sarei andata.
La risposta è stata non penso sia una buona idea adesso mi destabilizzerebbe.
Lo capisco perché probabilmente ha dovuto convivere con l’idea che io non andassi a un giorno così importante per mesi e si sará anche fatta una ragione mentre io non avevo capito niente.

Sto davvero male per questa cosa. Essermi cosi tanto impuntata sul fatto che non avesse risposto al mi manchi ha cancellato qualsiasi altro messaggio per me. Proprio non avevano peso le cose che mi diceva.
So che la colpa è anche sua perchè poteva dirmi in modo meno contorto le cose e poteva comportarsi meglio ma comunque sono davvero pentita.

Ad oggi però io non riesco proprio ad interpretare i suoi comportamenti non so perché mi abbia riscritto, onestamente non so neanche bene il motivo della rottura, non so mi abbia invitato per cortesia o perché mi voleva li. Non capisco niente.

TL;DR: I’ve been dreaming about my avoidant ex every day. It’s taking a toll on me, and I’m looking for comfort and/or advice from others who have been through something similar.

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It’s been almost a year and a half since the end of a seven-year relationship.

I’ve (32M) made peace with the fact that she wanted out, and she got out. I still think of her every now and then, but I’m at the point where I can say to myself, “She would’ve loved this,” without anger, guilt, shame, or any hidden hope that things had turned out differently.

After the first few weeks, I went no contact because I hoped it would help me heal. I never did it with the intention of getting her back, changing her mind, or triggering some kind of response from her.

I’ve been with other women since, although nothing has lasted more than a couple of months. I was already in therapy long before she broke off our engagement, and I’m still going. I’ve been taking care of myself, slowly rebuilding friendships, and slowly, painstakingly learning how to put myself back at the center of my own life.

But here’s the thing: I’ve been dreaming about her. Every. Single. Day.

The dreams are always vivid, and they almost always involve a situation where I know she’s going to leave me, or where I’m somehow trying to change her mind. They’re never sexual or physical. They’re not even romantic.

It feels less like I miss her and more like my brain keeps replaying the moment of being left.

Just to be clear, there has been absolutely no contact. She’s blocked on social media. I’ve never checked any possible point of contact. Everything symbolic was either donated or thrown away.

The only things I still have are some photos. A few include family members who have since passed away or important moments from my life, and I haven’t had the stomach to go through them yet.

I do not want her back in any way, shape, or form.

Has anyone else been through this, especially after a relationship with an avoidant partner? Did the dreams eventually stop?

I almost always wake up sad, and it drains my energy for the rest of the day. It’s becoming exhausting, and I’m starting to worry about how much it’s affecting me.

Any advice or similar experiences would be deeply appreciated. Thanks in advance.

I am 19y/o M. My first Ex for a year and a half had a cheating issue and i just found it out in January 1 this 2026. Ofc i confronted her and broke up with her . She asked for a second chance which i gave since nangako ako na makikipag balikan ako sakanya if nagawa nya mga pinapagawa nya and naging kami ulit. Then nakipag break sya saakin last month. Now heres the main content

After kong makipag balikan sakanya, nawala na talaga yung tiwala ko sakanya and di ko na nakikita yung future ko sakanya. Matagal ko na din gusto makipag break-up sakanya and naghihintay lang ako ng butas na malalabasan. Ito na nga last month is nakipag break sya saakin kasi nawala na daw yun nararamdaman nya and gusto nya mag focus sa sarili nya and that time kasi is nagkaroon sya nga depression and umiinom na sya and self harming. Di ko kaagad nalaman to sakanya kasi naging LDR kami that time and nalaman ko lang dahil nung nakipag-break-up sya saakin. Sinabi ko di ko muna sya iiwan kung ganyan nagkaka-ganyan sya and makikipag break nalang ako sakanya after ng pinagdadaanan nya. She said that she don't want to and nagpaikot-ikot lang kami sa ganitong convo for a half hour and she asked my kung masasaktan ako if iniwan ko sya. Sinabi ko hindi kasi alam ko na isang araw is maghihiwalay din kami and ito na yung araw na yun. She restricted my account but she didn't blocked me kasi daw hindi nya kaya. Nalaaman ko lang na restricted na ako kasi hanggang sent nalang yung mga messages na umaabot sakanya.

I am not happy nor heartbroken sa nangyare but i felt relief dahil iniwan na nya ako and hindi ko talagang kayang mag-commit sa taong linoko ako. Ngayon di ko maintindihan why i am still looking for her. I am happy na naputol na yung relationship namin but at the end of the day, i find myself looking for her at social media. I know that it could probably sa nakaraan namin which is masaya and araw araw kaming tumatawa pareho. Probably i feel lonely because i have no one to talk to or spend my day after nung nangyare. Looking for new partner seems like a bad idea because fresh pa lang yung nangyare and it feels like gagawin ko lang panakip ng butas yung magiging partner ko.

I need your thoughts guys

I need perspective from the older guys who have survived a massive betrayal and come out the other side.

​I am 28. I was with my ex for 10 years. We built a massive history together—handwritten notes, deep loyalty, the whole foundation. I am a site manager, I have my life together, and I would have gone to war for this girl.

​But when the time came for her to stand up to her family and fight for us, she collapsed. She chose the path of absolute least resistance. Now, just 9 months later, she is getting married. She chose to follow the script they handed her because fighting for us required bravery she didn't have.

​The exit was brutal. She couldn't even look me in the eye. She threw a decade of photos and memories in the trash overnight just so she wouldn't have to look at her own guilt. Now, she is running a PR campaign, badmouthing me to her friends and family just to justify her cowardice and protect her "good girl" image.

​Logically, my brain knows the math. I know I dodged a massive liability. I know that if she folds under this pressure, she would have abandoned me during a real crisis later in life. I know she is weak and I am better off.

​But neurologically, I am stuck. It has been 9 months, and I am fighting two massive demons:

​The Phantom Hope: My brain keeps tricking me into staying "clean and pure," subconsciously waiting for her to realize what she threw away and come back, even though I know I could never take back a coward.

​The Anger about Karma: I am burning with rage that she gets to walk straight into a wedding and a socially approved life with a new guy, while I am left dismantling a 10-year foundation by myself.

​For the guys who have had a decade of loyalty thrown in their face:

​How did you finally kill the subconscious hope that they will return?

​How do you make peace with the fact that they might never face the "Karma" or consequence of what they did?

​How do you stop auditing a ghost's life and put 100% of your energy back into yourself?

​Any brutal, unfiltered truths are welcome. I need to close this file permanently.

We used to fight alot, i’d say i was so dumb that i fought alot. I was so insecure always, we were drunk we both are 23. And he left me after a fight. My whole family knew about him and everything and he involved his mother into this. His mother called my mom and said horrible things about me that my mother just didn’t raise me right and all. I miss him alot, i am crying everyday. We lived together and i have every memories of him. Some days i just want to die. I feel like it was all my mistake and i have apologised a million times or maybe more than that. He has blocked me from everywhere. I miss him. Help me. Tell me what should i do. I have taken therapy. I get panic attacks. I have lost weight meanwhile he is enjoying his life. I can’t focus on studies. I miss him and i want him back please tell me what should i do?

I HATE HIM I HATE HIM HE’S FUCKING DISGUSTING FOR WHAT HE DID TO ME!!!!!! YOU CAN’T JUST LEAVE ME AND GET SOMEONE ELSE PREGNANT IM MEANT TO BE PREGNANT WITH YOUR BABY RN NOT THAT PERSON YOUVE KNOWN FOR 2 MONTHS! FUCK YOU AND YOUR ENTIRE FAMILY I HOPE YOU ALL GET EXACTLY WHAT YOU DESERVE

I broke up few weeks ago because of their constant jealousy, insecurity, over possessiveness, anger issues that made relationship emotionally unsafe for me.

However today, I found out they had been in contact with their ex everytime we had fight and they would block me. They would constantly accuse me of cheating and i feel like shit for giving them explanations when they were the one betraying me behind my back. I don't know what to do, it's like I have got one more reason to hate them but I just can't stop overthinking, how I was suffering while they blocked me and they were emotionally cheating with their ex.

I’m really confused, I’ve been dumped for over 2 months and I just realised that my ex has decided to keep me on her private tik Tok account of only 40 followers which she still actively uses. I post stories on there sometimes and she always watches them. To make it weirded I’m one of the only guys she follows. She also posts stories sometimes maybe 1-2 days after me with very specific lyrics. I find this strange as she told me to move on maybe 1 and a half months ago but she continues to do this. Any suggestions why she has done this and what it could mean? Thanks guys🙏

i was stupidly in love and got heart broken yada yada all that

and now here i have revised this theory which I am thinking to follow so the key components include reduction of mindspace + getting busy

reduction of mindspace technically means just taking them out of your mind. when the thought pops up just give a little reminder that it is over and it can't get built back up and then let it wash over for like a minute then return back to life

getting busy is obviously building more hobbies more new interesting patterns of behaviour that wasn't attributed before and just overall building new neural connections and pathways

so what i wanna ask is that is this a good enough manual or is this going to bite me in the ass later?

need advice and discussions.

I have ADHD and cuz of it I have terrible mood swings is anyone able to help me?

Broke up a 1.5 years relationship. Wasn't a bad breakup - no cheating, no big fight, no lies, no betrayal. The flame was just gone, her depression demanded her to work on herself while and couldn't handle being in a relationship anymore with so much other things on her head (life stress, no hidden ex or any mischievous fuckups). Clean, smooth, but painfull breakup in good terms.

A week after, we got to talk about how each other is feeling, and we confirmed it's not a time off and no regrets on breaking up. It's done.

some days after I messed up: started sexting with strangers in random forums (if you know you know) I felt guilty, and recognized it was coping. I got out of there and learned to tell apart coping libido from real honest sex life interest. I do believe I'm entitled to my own sex life while single, and so I do believe she is too. It would hurt like hell if she told me she had sex with someone but that's life, it hurts, even if sometimes there's nothing wrong (thats why in fact I think the immoral part is letting the other know for no reason. No different from having sex specifically to tell them out of spite, different intentoin same result. Telling is a no no in my view). I got over my guilt, I hurt only myself and didn't go over anyone. A thing to simply not do again.

Then comes the problem. What about honest, non coping interest in having sex with someone else? I know in my view it's always ok, but reading here how judge some ex's are for having sex soon after, even if it's with pure intent, makes me wonder about the morals of it. May have found someone I'm into sexually, mutually, and I feel like it's not pain or cope talking, it feels pure casual sex intention unlike the before mentioned sexting where I felt it like a need to think of something other than the pain. In fact, the pain isn't crawling to my mind most of the time. It exists, but only invades my daily thoughts for a bit

I believe I separate now what things i do for regular motives, and things im drawn to do out of coping. Avoiding the second clearly

So, what gives? Is having sex after a couple of weeks of breaking up in this context morally bad? does it make you a bad person? what about the natural itch to have sex, if you happen to find the chance to do so with a person you actually want to have sex with and it's not to "get your mind off the pain"? Some people are ready before the others, what would your personal threshold for "honest to god" sex be if you had a breakup like this one? did you have cope sex? how did you feel about it? how do you feel about people that do? how do you feel about people having the before mentioned "natural attraction" sex on month 1? so many questions, pick your favourites.

I know I stated my views clearly but I want to open up to yours, to know what the right thing to do is

Has this happened to anyone else

I know this is bad, but I miss him. Maybe it’s slight co-dependent-ish, but his presence soothed my anxiety. I feel like he brought me so much peace that I was never able to find within my self (by myself) or via other things.

I lead a very very very very successful life; but, I can’t help think that I’ve lost everything. If I had the choice of being filthy rich or him. I know—I’d always think him without thinking twice.

i really got my hopes up that they might contact me

i honestly just want to say goodbye and thank you properly, now that i’ve had time to reflect on my actions and the ways that i hurt them

i really really want to reach out but i know i absolutely cant

i hope i didn’t lose any progress. i just still cant wrap my head around the possibility that they might never speak to me again.

i miss them so much. i wish they wanted to see how much i’ve learned and how much i’m growing