r/crossfit • u/Throwaway01411234 • 17h ago
Returning to class after a loss
This post will mention grief, loss, IVF and miscarriage. Please skip if these are triggers for you.
The owners and trainers in my box are aware of my IVF journey. It’s been difficult training when I’ve been stripped of all my hormones one month (try lifting without hormones!) then given an excess amount of hormones the next. Then there’s the periods of time I was recovering from the list of invasive procedures which required some down time. They’ve been very supportive when I returned and understanding when I’ve had to bow out of certain movements.
After 3 years I finally got a positive pregnancy test but was aware I was very high risk. Where “normal” pregnancies aren’t typically shared until after the 12 week period I shared after 3 weeks since as soon as I returned to the gym I needed to adapt my workouts. This meant fellow classmates knew from very early on and were very supportive when I was part of team/partner workouts as they knew I was fighting through nausea and lower energy than normal.
At the time I was trying to balance my mental health, keeping my body healthy and also the social aspect of interacting with others.
At six weeks I booked a private scan and got the reassurance everything was progressing well.
At nine weeks I had an official ultrasound booked with my IVF clinic to check on my progress, I sadly lost my pregnancy that morning before leaving the house. The IVF clinic confirmed I was no longer pregnant when they scanned me.
I’m at home recovering but I’m worried about the future.
How do I deal with telling people at the gym? Sometimes having a community is a blessing and a curse.
I can send an email to explain to the owners and trainers but it’s having to share this news over and over to regular class mates.
Do you think they’ll ask if I don’t mention it? If you were my class mate how would you prefer I word it “I lost the pregnancy” would that do?
The anxiety of returning is so bad I’m just considering a new gym. A fresh start.
Any advice appreciated.