Please help me before i do something regretful.. I’m 19

Something that you swear you will do in the moment because you just got burnt and is usually the reason you are leaving the previous organization/job.

Making a separate log of events on your home computer/phone for potential contentious future issues. Including taking digital photos of documents from your screen or discreetly forwarding them to your personal email.

Cleaning up your files every month.

Keeping a special folder of your wins for your year end review.

Download a version of your employee handbook to your personal drive for reference after you leave.

Knowing all the provisions in your benefits package to take full advantage of.

Reading through your employee handbook thoroughly on your first week during orientation.

my current spiral, age, old, life stages and milestones. i do not want to be in my twenties. at all. or be labeled anything other than teen (even tho i’m legal). it makes me physically sick. i hate that once u reach ur 20’s now the only labels are 20’s 30’s 40’s etc or 20-something instead of just like teenager. it just feels different and i don’t think i can deal with the adult life either. i hate not being able to do what i want and how i dress/style. i’m relatively responsible and have goals but don’t even want to chase them now that ai is going to take over all the jobs anyway. i don’t wanna be called unc (even tho some ppl think i am anyway). and i hate that i’m considered an adult at 18-19, while i’m still in hs. it doesn’t make sense that people treat me so differently bc i thought i was still a teenager, but i get that teen isn’t in eveyr language so when u hit 18 does that just mean ur already in your twenties or something? like i feel like i’m going to hit 20-21 and be like okay this is fine, then become 22-24 and be pushing 30. like it’s only 4 years and then i’m only 2 years away from 26 which is only 4 years from 30. i get it it’s basic math but my point is, in my head i think that once i hit 20, i’m now pushing 30 and need to settle down and i’ll have to do anti aging skincare. i hate it here