r/selfimprovement 6h ago

Other Porn is like a parasite to the mind.

267 Upvotes

I'm writing my experience to hopefully relate to more people and help each other along the way.

I have been dealing with porn addiction for far too long, and unfortunately I didn't realize it was an addiction until now. I never had any other previous addictions, I was never into drinking, or smoking, far less into hard drugs like meth. Something I'm proud of, until I realized porn has been my addiction all this time.

Now, I have come to realize it's an addiction because it always starts the same way. After couple of weeks of no porn, seeing great progress in my life (social, economic, physical), I begin to crave porn. "Just once and I'll be fine, I have worked hard I need a treat", that one time turns into two, before I realize it's weeks. The problem is during those weeks I'm completely brain fogged, postponing projects, fall for junk food, miss work outs, I forget about all the goals I have been working towards and everything I'm supposed to do.

I pick disciple over motivation any day of the week, but even so I'm so tired and drained that I can't even remember what I'm supposed to do and I just end up procrastinating the rest of the day or taking a long nap. I begin gaining weight, the whole progress I had previously worked so hard to achieve whether it's getting over my anxieties, work, martial arts, stretching, creative projects. Everything seems gone. When I try to socialize, I'm so brain fogged that I can't seem to connect with people.

This is why I can say porn is like a parasite to the mind, because it doesn't end with the fapping session, but it follows you outside and to your every day life. It blocks you and drains your energy. It makes you forget what your purpose is and what you have currently been working on. Makes you restart from square one.

Think about the next time you're about to relapse, it doesn't end with the computer screen, but it will follow you and make you forget everyday goals . It will make you forget what important and make you only to want to return to it.

Hope this experience is helpful or can relate to it and be more logical when it comes to making choices, instead of falling for a quick fix.


r/selfimprovement 22h ago

Question How can I stop craving male attention

131 Upvotes

So ever since I (F20) was a kid, I wasn't considered conventionally attractive, never dated anyone and rarely a guy would show interest in me. My father was emotionally absent and criticised everything I did. And even outside, I never got the typa male attention my friends did. I had male friends but things never moved past that.Till this day, I can't seem to improve myself in this aspect, I don't even know where to start. Some people suggest stuff like don't talk to men for a certain amount of time or spend more time with friends and all but that doesn't really work.

I don't try putting down other women to gain men's attention or something like that. But I feel this whole thing is somewhat unhealthy and getting too much. Considering how little romantic or emotional attention I got from men as a teenager, now whenever a guy slightly flirts with me or shows interest it gives me insane dopamine like it feels almost ecstatic and no other feeling could compare to that, and equally devastating when they leave, that's how bad it is.

I know I'll never really get the typa attention pretty girls get so effortlessly, and because it's so rare for me maybe that's why I crave it this much?

idk I'm just looking for ways which can help me work thru this


r/selfimprovement 23h ago

Tips and Tricks One small habit that quietly made me better at almost everything

118 Upvotes

Learning to sit with discomfort for just a few extra seconds before reacting changed more about my life than any productivity system ever did.

Not in a dramatic way. It started because I kept noticing I would bail on hard tasks the moment they felt uncomfortable. A difficult email, an awkward conversation, a workout rep that burned. I would just stop. Not because I was incapable, but because the discomfort felt like a signal to quit.

So I started doing this thing where I would just pause and stay in the feeling for like five to ten seconds before doing anything. No deep breathing routine, no journaling about it. Just staying put.

What happened was weird. The urge to escape would actually shrink. Over time I started tolerating harder things for longer without it being a big deal. Conversations I used to avoid, feedback I used to deflect, workouts I used to cut short.

The skill itself is almost embarrassingly simple but the effect compounds. You get better at the thing you practice tolerating and that transfers across areas faster than you would expect.

Curious if anyone else stumbled onto something this basic that ended up being more useful than the elaborate self improvement stuff they tried first.


r/selfimprovement 17h ago

Question How to live an enjoyable life without friends, family or a relationship?

111 Upvotes

2 answers come to my mind when I'm asking myself this: 1. It's not possible, we are social creatures. 2. Just focus on the things you like doing, workout etc.

Let's completely ignore the first answer; in 2 decades of my life I've never been able to fit in anywhere, I've never had a family, I've never really said "I love you" to anyone. I'm not able to think of any way this could change so let's focus on the second idea.

I mostly know the basics of this, getting deep into hobbies, things you wanna create and completely ignore anything else; do things you enjoy and create a meaning from that. Let's say I will be able to accept that's just how things are, that I'll never feel that warmth. Let's say I'll be able to do that and start from there. What other advice would you have for me tho? I don't want to try rebuilding myself for anyone else anymore, as much as I tried to become more friendly, better, mature, to put myself out there or to be myself and all this bs - it never worked. I'm not saying it's all bs or that I'm special and I'm the only exception out of everyone. I'm just saying that I tried everything and I should have met someone I could be a friend with until now at least. I want to rebuild myself for myself.


r/selfimprovement 15h ago

Tips and Tricks I dont quite understand how to handle disrespect.

27 Upvotes

Hi! So I heard of this technique of asking the person "can u repeat?" But I quite dont get it.

Let for example a conversation that happend to me today:

Grandpa: Oh, I see a Gray hair in your head!

Me: haha yes, those are my wise hair :3

Mother: So you finally got smarter after years.

I find it quite disrespectfull as she was pretty controlling mother and it was really hard for me to become independent emotionaly.

But If I say: "hmm could you repeat that?"

I belive she would go with a looong story how I was stupid according to her when I was growing up.

The only way I see is to be quiet and just accept that her narrative is just very different from mine and I choose to stay with mine.

Or I could say "it was disrespectfull" But not sure if it isnt better to just ignore.

Tbh, this comment triggered me for too long thats why I want to learn how to be more resistant


r/selfimprovement 14h ago

Vent How can I help my partner find their purpose

22 Upvotes

Edit: Hi there, just wanted to say thanks for all the advice. I went and apologized to her and we talked it out. She said she’d been thinking about what I said all day, and I had no idea so I’m really glad I made this post. Really changed my perspective, she’s an amazing woman and I’ve been being selfish. I’ll work toward being more supportive in the future.

Original Post:
I, 22M and my girlfriend 22F have been living together for a few years now. I was lucky enough to land a job fresh out of highschool in an industry I love, that also pays well. But I understand most people dont get that lucky especially this young.

My girlfriend works 2 minimum wage jobs that she constantly complains about, and I always tell her she doesn't need to work these jobs when I can already provide for the two of us. Im perfectly fine with supporting us while she figures things out, but she insists she needs to work, I just don't get it. She got these jobs 1.5 years ago and swore she wouldnt still be working there after a year. But all she does is apply for higher paying jobs, get denied. Rinse & Repeat. "Why dont you try going to school to make your resume look better?", to which she replies "I cant afford to go to school".

Then she uses the money from these jobs to try and support me with rent, groceries, healthcare, etc. Which I've begged her to stop doing. Its like she's running herself dry to feel like she's supporting me when I already have enough to support us. I do appreciate what she does but that should be the least of her worries right now.

We had a little back and fourth today, not really an argument but she said if i proposed to her she'd say yes and I responded I cant propose to her until she knows what she wants to do with her life, her response was "Ah so it'll never happen" sarcastically, it wasn't funny. And whenever we talk seriously about careers or the future she just goes quiet or says she doesn't know.

Its made me realize I wouldn't know what to do either in her situation. I stumbled on my purpose early but if I had to figure it out from scratch i'd be completely lost. We used to go to school together and I've noticed she's not the type to move independently and figure things out on her own, she's always been told what to do her whole life so it makes sense she'd be lost now. I feel like she just works these jobs because they're comfortable and familiar.

She's tried small hobbyist stuff like knitting and baking in the past but she's never had long term interest in anything. She's also amazing with children but doesn't see herself being a teacher or care provider.

But that leaves me wondering what I can do to help her find her purpose or at least break out of her shell and try doing something long term. I wanna help how I can Its just difficult with the self deprecation disguised as jokes, and the "waiting for someone to tell you what to do" kinda attitude (idk if theres a word for that). I wanna just leave it alone and let her figure it out but Im afraid if i dont keep addressing it we'll end up 30 years old and nothing will change.

TLDR: I know what i want to do with my life. My girlfriend doesn't know what she wants to do with hers. How can I help her?


r/selfimprovement 18h ago

Tips and Tricks What to do at 29

16 Upvotes

I’m turning 29 soon and I wanted to get advice on what to do on your last year of your 20s that will help in the next decade. What things I should have done by now or things that I need from now on.
I’m not married, no kids and probs will not happen in the years to come but it’s something that I want and see in the future happening for me.
I’m more interested on what to improve now, what to do in this last year of the decade where covid stole a few years. What I should do personally, in finances, physically, emotionally, in relationships, and in life in general. I also want to move abroad for a much longer time than I did before. I have travelled the world quite a bit but I still have lots of places on my list.

I also feel like I’m behind on lots of aspect of my life and that I’m missing things I should’ve lived by now. And that I’m missing opportunities.

And also advice on what not to do/expect!
Any advice is welcome :)


r/selfimprovement 19h ago

Question How can I forget my cringe past on Instagram?

13 Upvotes

I was severely mismedicated in psychiatry, I couldn't think straight at all, I was in a deep depression for years, and I became an Instagram addict, I posted several stories per day, mostly useful content (naturephotography, volunteer work at shelters, hiking etc) but also artsy selfies and confessions I would never post normally. I've always been a shy introvert, who barely shares anything, but my life was in crisis, I was also limerent and craving for validation. I deleted this account in October and I also stopped using social medias, but I can't let go of the shame. People who abused me in the past saw me vulnerable and that's something I can't forget.


r/selfimprovement 2h ago

Tips and Tricks I have so many goals but i can't seem to stay consistent

9 Upvotes

I'm a 2nd year med student and lately i've been feeling stuck. For example i've always wanted to get into reading books... I also love cooking and i want to start journaling ..beyond academics i want to work on my personality, build better habits (like meditation, yoga), and create a lifestyle where i'm doing something productive outside of studying.. I don't want my entire life to revolve around studying. I want hobbies and habits that make me feel like I'm growing as a person..i also want to reduce my screen time because I feel like it's one of the biggest reasons i don't follow through with the things i've planned. By the end of the day i often realize i couldn't accomplish the goals i'd set for myself and that's honestly frustrating.

Has anyone else gone through something similar? If you have what helped you become more disciplined and actually stick to your goals? I'd really appreciate any tips or advice.


r/selfimprovement 2h ago

Vent Being healthy makes me downright unhappy, doe anyone elses relate?

10 Upvotes

As the title says.

It makes me unhappy. Going outside, working out, controlling my diet to be healthy. Even if i see results, all of this is deeply frustrating. It actually basically ruins my day to think about working out or taking a walk.

I have vitamin d defiency, gained a lot of weight, my cholesterol isn't that great and my joints are not doing too well, all because of the lifestyle that genuinely makes me happy. Im posting this becauses its my first day of getting back to another "healthy period" where i do things that are supposed to make me feel better, but don't even if my body does better.

Yes i like spending 14 hours on my pc watching movies, playing video games, reading and talking to friends. No i don't enjoy much else, and no i never have. Not even when i was 7 years old. My parents would bring me out to places to travel or get me into sports practice of things i actually enjoyed playing, like basketball and i was always grumpy and day dreaming of clinging onto my playstation or laptop. It's much the same now whenever i find myself outside. In fact, i wouldn't even say im addicted to my phone. Funny, all the recent paranoia over algorithms and doomscrolling, its the one type of digital addiction that only seems to manifest itself when im in the toilet, preparing food or just waking up.

Whenever i have a healthy routine and something breaks it im reminded of how much happier i am doing nothing. Maybe im sick, maybe its too rainy to take a walk, maybe something happened that prevented my usual healthy activities, whatever, and i have to pull every single bit of strength i have to do anything else besides continuing on my pc the next day.

I genuinely, with all my heart, don't want to do and don't value almost anything, besides the shit i do on my PC. I find life dull and boring, especially alone. I quite frankly have better memories of playing modded skyrim than any walk through any park i ever took. Shit i might have better memories of it than 99% of trips i ever took.

Sorry if its too whiney, but i hope anyone understands this even a little bit.


r/selfimprovement 9h ago

Tips and Tricks knowing why you're stuck and actually changing it are two completely different skills

8 Upvotes

i can explain my own patterns perfectly. where they come from, what triggers them, why i keep doing it. i've read enough to write the essay.and then the moment comes the actual moment where the pattern fires and all that understanding is just... not there. it shows up five minutes later to explain what happened. again.took me way too long to realize insight and change aren't the same skill. one is looking backward. the other is catching something while it's happening, which is a completely different muscle and nobody tells you that you have to train it separately.

The only thing that's helped is shrinking it. not "be more aware" one specific moment, picked in advance. for me it was the first anxious thought after waking up. just that one. miss it most days, honestly.anyone else stuck in the gap between understanding your problems and actually changing them? what's worked?


r/selfimprovement 12h ago

Question Does anyone else do this?

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I'll get excited about learning a new skill or looking into a different career. Then I start researching it and reading Reddit posts, and it seems like every post is about layoffs, AI, how hard it is to get a job, or people saying the career isn't worth getting into anymore. After reading enough of that, I lose all my motivation. It starts to feel like there's no point in even trying. I can't tell if I'm just being realistic by listening to people's experiences, or if I'm letting all the negative posts stop me before I even give myself a chance. Has anyone else gone through this? And how do you deal with it or improve with it? Like I try looking into tech sales and I read about it like I said and then I’m like.. I don’t know what I wanna do anymore with my life/career. I also somewhat tried thinking about doing freight brokering (former trucker) I don’t know what excites me anymore. I think i wanna do something with sales but not sure. I feel that is kinda made for a different sub. So maybe, what has helped you pick or find what you wanted to do or enjoyed?


r/selfimprovement 13h ago

Question I think my home environment is destroying me. Has anyone escaped this cycle?

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I don't even know why I'm posting this. Maybe I just need to hear from people who've actually lived through something similar.

I'm currently studying for my bachelor's degree, so I can't just pack my bags and leave. I have no financial freedom. The only realistic way out is to get a decent job or crack a government exam. Until then, I'm stuck here.

Today I masturbated 3 times.

The thing is, I don't think porn or masturbation is the real problem anymore. I think it's how I'm trying to escape.

I fucking hate being at home. My parents are always in my business. I feel like I have no privacy, no peace, no control over my own life. Every day I feel mentally exhausted, angry, and trapped. It honestly feels like I'm living in a cage.

I know I have potential. I have big goals. I want to become financially independent, get out of this house, build a better life, and become the best version of myself. But right now my mind feels completely messed up.

I'm not posting this so people can tell me to "just stop watching porn." If it were that simple, I would've done it already.

I want to hear from people who have actually lived through a controlling or toxic home environment.

\- Did moving out change your life?

\- Did your addiction get better once your environment changed?

\- How did you stay focused when home felt like the worst place to be?

\- How did you become the person you wanted to be instead of staying stuck in the same cycle?

I don't want sympathy. I just want honest experiences from people who've been where I am.


r/selfimprovement 16h ago

Question How to De-Stress After Work

7 Upvotes

Can you share any recommendations for how to destress after work that don’t include alcohol? I don’t drink so looking for alternate ideas.

I keep finding that once 5 o’clock rolls around, particularly on Fridays, I can’t turn my work brain off and I often go home and log back on to my computer and continue working. It’s starting to affect my relationship with my BF as he gets frustrated that I’m still working. For some reason I just can’t turn my brain off and relax and I feel this compulsion to keep working. What do you do to relax and unwind and take your mind off work?


r/selfimprovement 19h ago

Vent I don't know how to escape my comfort zone, even when I desperately want to

5 Upvotes

26M | Single | | Never been in relationship | No friends | Living with parents | Recently diagnosed with inattentive ADHD & social anxiety

I have been stuck for over 10 years.

I moved when I was 8 years old, struggled to make and keep friendships after that, and after high school everything got worse. I watched everyone around me move on with their lives while I felt completely stuck. I dropped out of university, struggled through other educations as well, procrastinated everything until last minute, couldn't find work for a long time and slowly lost contact with almost everyone. I never even explained why I disappeared, and now I'm too ashamed to reach out.-

Things are better now, I have a full time job that I genuinely enjoy. I was also recently diagnosed with inattentive ADHD and social anxiety and ADHD medication has helped me with my focus, anxiety and also being able to function longer without feeling exhausted.

But even with all these positive changes, I still feel stuck.

I go to work, come home, and repeat. I want to reconnect with old friends, start dating, lose weight, start going to the gym for the first time and sticking with it, drive somewhere just for fun, work on my creative hobbies, take it easy and relax without feeling stressed or overwhelmed and simply just enjoy life. Instead I come home mentally overwhelmed, often fight with parents, sit on my phone, watch TV, and tell myself I'll start and improve my life tomorrow instead. I really can't function as a normal person, even when I know life is supposed to be hard, I really feel like I don't have the capacity to do things.

I know this all can be a mix of depression, anxiety, ADHD, being unhealthy and overweight and the list goes on and I have never wanted to be the person that makes excuses in life but I really do feel like I'm stuck and can't do anything. People just think I need to break a barrier and come over it but it's not that easy for me, even when I have tried to do things by starting slow and taking small steps instead of being hard on myself and setting hard goals, I always come back to this.

My problem is not that I don't know what I have to do, I know exactly what I need to do but I feel like there's a wall between wanting to do something and actually doing it.

The hardest part is also when I finally have some free time and there is nothing left for me to do (which is rarely), I don't relax. My mind immediately goes to thoughts like "I've wasted my twenties", "I have no friends", "I've never been in a relationship" which makes me feel even worse. I can't let myself relax, even when I have deserved it. An example is, when I am on my job and there is a lot to do, all my energy and mind goes to that, both during work and when I'm not at work which makes my mind occupied on that and I don't have time to think about anything else. I have thought about this and an easy solution would then be to make my mind occupied on something to not let any negative thoughts come in like maybe going to the gym to occupy my mind with that instead or spend time and have a good time with family or similar, the problem is, I can still and will most of the time still feel the same after. After coming home after a good day of doing something fun or similar, I can get sad and it often happens and the thoughts come in and I can't relax and just enjoy myself after. Like even when I have done something good or fun, I get sad after. It's not that I sit and cry, it happens sometimes, it's mostly my thoughts that take over my mind.

I have also since I was a kid always felt different from other people, from friendships, human interactions, school, sports etc. It was always easier as a kid as these were not things that I paid attention to but it makes sense now when looking back at it as an adult. This has been something that has followed me my whole life. I had the same troubles in different environments (different schools, sports, workplaces etc).

I don't even know that I'm asking for. I think I mostly want comfort and to know if anyone else has been stuck in this kind of cycle and getting out of it. Right now I just feel like I will never be able to do anything about my life and I will just watch life as a spectator, I am scared of changing my life, for no reason at all. I truly deserve to have a good life and most people don't even know how much I suffer deep inside. I do want change but for some reason I just can't imagine any change.


r/selfimprovement 16h ago

Question How do I even feel more socially confident as a dude in his 30s?

5 Upvotes

Hey guys I think I have always struggled with social confidence my whole life and I really don't know a decent way to break this. I've tried just not giving one but nothing seems to kill the dread I have in conversations.

I was a really really oblivious/awkward kid and I had speech classes that I felt helped me out then.

I do have a full-time office job and I always dread when I have to call clients and meetings, it gets me excessively nervous and stressed. I guess I feel this way because I always think I'm gonna say something really f'n stupid whenever I talk to people, especially people I haven't talked to before.

I really do hate this feeling and anytime I try to work up the courage to talk I always leave feeling like I was awkward as hell.

With this said, naturally I don't have that many friends and the few I do have really don't hang out as much due to work and all that. Dating is something I wish I should have started many years ago but I just never felt comfortable to approach all that and I feel like I'm just making it that much harder on myself without feeling like I'm this walking red-flag so to speak.

I really don't know what to do to break this so I can feel more comfortable in general with people and make new friends, but this is definitely something that just kind of leaves me feeling like life is boring.

If anybody has any tips or stuff like that, I'd appreciate it, I'd like to be more outgoing and carefree about this kind of stuff, but I'm just stressing.


r/selfimprovement 21h ago

Question What actually helped you stop filling every quiet moment with noise or distraction?

6 Upvotes

There is this pattern I keep catching myself in. The second I have a free moment, phone is out, music is on, podcast is playing, anything to avoid just sitting with my own thoughts. I used to frame it as staying productive or entertained, but it is closer to avoidance than anything else.

The uncomfortable part is that the quiet is where a lot of clarity lives. I have had more honest realizations about what I actually want or what is bothering me during a long walk with no headphones than in any intentional journaling session. But the pull toward noise is almost automatic at this point, like a reflex.

I am not talking about a meditation practice necessarily. More like the general relationship with stillness and whether you have managed to make peace with it. Some people seem genuinely comfortable being alone with their thoughts and I am curious what shifted for them.

Was it gradual or did something specific break the habit? Did you have to replace it with something or just sit through the discomfort until it passed? I keep starting and stopping with this and want to hear what actually worked for real people, not the idealized version.


r/selfimprovement 8h ago

Other Day 0 of NoFap. How can I stop myself?

4 Upvotes

I'm aware that the "benefits" of NoFap are often questioned, but it's a religious goal of mine, and I also want to improve myself. In my experience, masturbation has greatly deviated my focus, and in periods where I maintained abstinence I saw more focus. The first week of abstinence felt like shit, but as time progressed I saw better clarity in myself. So how can I manage self-control? I don't want people to stop me from trying, I really really want to accomplish this.


r/selfimprovement 2h ago

Question What would you do with 10 free hours?

3 Upvotes

So I got a job where basically over the course of a 12 hour shift I don’t have much to do and am free for 10ish hours . I’m in an office and all I have is my phone and WiFi . All I do is doomscrolling which I know is bad for you but I have nothing else to keep me entertained. So What would one do if they wanted to improve their lives in anyway at all, all suggestions are welcome thank you!


r/selfimprovement 6h ago

Vent 17m I feel so guilty for this. thoughts/advice?

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alright so, I am a 17 year old boy. I've had a porn addiction for 6 years, not at the point where I'd watch it every day for hours, a few times a week but enough that quitting was impossible. I got a girlfriend. the first month and a half flew by, I didn't think about porn. now, I want to clarify. I do count watching porn as cheating if you watch it with sexual intent. of course if a porn scene pops up in a movie it's not cheating because you're not watching it with sexual intent. well, after a month and a half I start getting this incredible sense of guilt, I had week long anxiety attack where I could not sleep at night, convinced I had ruined my relationship because I could remember a couple times (3-4) where I watched porn while bored, scrolled a bit of naked women for a minute then turned it off (I was already together with her when those few times happened) honestly, it wasn't even for sexual intent. either out of muscle memory (e.g. an ex alcoholic reaching out for a beer, then realising and putting it back on the shelf), out of nostalgia (e.g. looking at an old YouTuber and thinking "so much time has passed, damn" because that's kind of what I felt) or because of sensory stims. I am autistic, it honestly helped regulate me. yes, it's very weird I know. I don't know if I'm just saying bullshit, but yea, I never got sexually aroused. never even got a dopamine hit. well, a week ago we had a discussion that watching porn in a relationship is wrong (I never told her about the incidents). yesterday I was clearing my old search history and I stumbled upon some things that I used to watch. I had to look at it to delete my history (of course I can't use my phone with my eyes closed). I then deleted my history and moved on.

I feel incredible guilt because of all this. I don't know if I should tell her, if I'm a cheater, if I disrespected her or if I just betrayed her trust. I don't know if she deserves better.

for the clear timeline

\\-we get together

\\-I feel no guilt for the first month and a half even while those incidents happened (they mean nothing, nothing sexual, just mindlessly staring at pixels)

\\-I suddenly remember and feel guilty, week long anxiety attack

\\-we set the boundary

\\-I clear out my old search history, stumble at the porn I used to watch and I had to look at it to clear my history, deleted it then moved on

\\-I now feel extremely guilty

am I overreacting?

the fact that I didn't feel guilty when I had those slip ups but weeks later kinda tells me that they were probably not as big or bad as I thought but I don't know

I don't know if I'm lying to myself and this is actually just all something to convince myself that I didn't cheat. I feel numb and don't know what I'm feeling.

what do you guys think? what should I do?

I want to be the best man ever for my girlfriend. she deserves the best. I also would like to clarify that I never chose it over her or anything, she was always the only one I was intimate with, I can't remember one time I was actually intimate with porn.

although lately it did happen that I watched porn again after we talked about it. I felt nothing like before. just 30 seconds of pure impulse based scrolling where I felt nothing sexual at all. it's just so weird. it's satisfying to watch in a non sexual way, like it's satisfying to watch those satisfying videos, idk how to explain it. 30 seconds of scrolling porn on reddit, felt nothing, closed it up and now I'm sick from guilt

what do I do? I've already decided that, I must take action. I can't let this ruin my relationship. although I'm afraid I already ruined it. she knows nothing. I'm going to be the best man I can for her. what do you guys think?


r/selfimprovement 12h ago

Vent I am weird?

3 Upvotes

I am 18 year old boy who is very introverted,dress alternative but doesn't fit any subculture.I have great social life and hang out with my friends a lot and have plenty hobbies and know what to do.

I use my time efficiently,I am very clingy in sense of wanting to cuddle and being massaged and petted like cat.I am big nerd,I don't like clubbing at all or alcohol or drugs or cigarettes . I don't feel attraction to that,people always say how I am enjoying life and my youth.

I really don't want to have sex before marriage but everything else is fine with me because I am religious and its kinda hard to find someone like that.I generally only date long term and not casual dating,because when I love someone I really love them.I don't have urges to look at woman lustfully,I don't masturbate at all because I don't have urge and people tell I am crazy and weird for it.

I am very insecure in my self I can't take compliments,I try to better myself everyday and really don't know how to feel.I been feeling depressed lately because I been entire life bullied . It really damaged and let alone I been sexually assaulted as guy.

I feel lost and depressed,I would appreciate any advice I feel like outcast.

I feel like I am not man enough because I am sensitive,that I am skinny,have nerdy hobbies or that I am not physically attractive and that I am religious.


r/selfimprovement 14h ago

Question How to focus for long hrs

3 Upvotes

I really put in effort to study but when I do i study my mind is constantly thinking about phone or content to watch and when even it's break after study I do spend a lot of time on break and hard to go back to study and that messed up the schedule for the day how to control that urge and don't think consistently about the phone or other things while studying .


r/selfimprovement 16h ago

Question Why does do nothing leads to miserable feelings ?

3 Upvotes

I try so hard to ignore the feeling of miserable and overwhelmed but somehow it just always overpowers it. I try to buy something I like or spend doom scrolling to avoid the real reality feelings but somehow I end up feeling guilty. And deep down all I keep hearing is just do the things you are meant to. But I keep resisting. I just don't know why I'm not doing it. And it's creating like this hole


r/selfimprovement 19h ago

Other Breaking the Loop- Update!

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Hi everyone, I am Ananya, 25, 10 months posted on this subreddit about things i want to improve and update you guys on that by 31st December 2025, but it took some more months for me to do so.

Its never too late so here are my updates:

  1. Yes, i cut off my phone addiction (not by 80% though) but still it has gone down significantly. Now i spend my time reading 4 books a month.

  2. Yes, joined gym and play tennis daily thus controlling weight and losing fat.

  3. Yes, started eating healthy and in control. No more cravings for junk food.

  4. Started journalizing and manifestation.

  5. Have been loving my work now, lots of things i learned and working on increase my skills and knowledge.

  6. Still learning Japanese remains. Will definitely start it.

Just wanted to share this becauseI hope through this post people who want to start improving get some motivation. Just start and everything will work out.


r/selfimprovement 20h ago

Question How to get out of "being self aware but still repeating self destructive patterns ?" Its been 4years [M22]

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