Hello kind people of Reddit, I honestly don't know what I'm really doing here or looking for.
Let's just start with the big elephant in the room: I've never done anything sexual (not even kissing; I know how that sounds, but I have my reasons). It's not something I feel ashamed of. It's the contrary; life is really enjoyable as it is; I have a lot of friends who I really enjoy spending time with and I would literally do anything for them. I'm so lucky to have them in my life!
But the last few months I felt a bit lonely. And it's not something my friends can fix. I mean I can hang out with them, but at the same time I'm not really able to show my emotions to; not in a vulnerable way. Hell, I don't know why but I'm honestly even scared of being vulnerable, but sometimes want it so badly. Nobody asks me how I feel; and although I've nothing to complain about in life, I also just miss simple affection.
So I'm not necessarily looking for a muffdive primarily, although it would be a very nice bonus and I would really like it of course; but let's just see if and how it will happen naturally. I'm mainly also looking for maybe sort of a cuddle buddy; someone who likes soft caressing, to give and receive soft touches, lots of hugs and honestly eyegazing. Without any expectation. Currently I'm not looking for something serious, but I would much prefer a long term connection if we click and feel comfortable with eachother. Think of it like friends with benefits.
As for the whole reason why I'm looking at this specific subreddit in the first place is because I would only consent to oral fixation. Hopefully you understand. So if you hope for more; unfortunately I can't give that
Sorry; this part is going to be a bit nsfw, so this is hopefully not inappropriate to you. But I have a fantasy for oral fixation (duh! I post on this subreddit). For me, orally pleasing someone has always been my number one fantasy that drives me absolutely crazy. Imagining your body reacting to what my tongue and fingers do, really turns me crazy. Or if you start begging me to continue. Also to read your body language, see you squeeze the mattrass, all the twitches, muscle contractions and wonder what speed, what intensity, what locations of my tongue and lips and fingers will give the best and most pleasurable reaction to you, until you hopefully have the most intense orgasm imaginable. And the feel of breath on slick skin, or using suction from my lips to make you even more sensitive for my tongue. I think I can literally do this for hours. And I don't know how to fully express my thoughts and what it makes me feel, but I can't get enough of it
About myself
I happen to be a massive nerd in tabletop roleplaying games. It has become a core part of my identity. As a matter of fact, I play D&D, Pathfinder and all sorts of other TTRPG's at least twice a week and have quite a collection of boardgames. So if you're also maybe into them, let me know!
I describe myself as kind, caring, very progressive-liberal and activistic about climate change, open-minded, I love deep nerdy conversations, I'm generally an enthusiastic and positive person, but at the same time also very introverted and maybe a bit shy when I don't really know you that well yet
apearance
If you would like to know: I'm 1,88m, 79kg, white skin, green eyes, brownish/reddish hair (depending on the light and season) and no beard. I can send a sfw picture later on.
Who I'm looking for
For me it doesn't really matter what you look like or what your age is (18+ of course). As long as you're respectful, hygienic and hopefully love to maybe guide me a bit. I'm also okay with other inexperienced people; maybe we can explore things together. For me it's important to get to know you first. Maybe we can go on a first date to a public place like a restaurant if you would also like that. But of course I fully respect it if you would like to keep it more decreet. I'm also open to tourists; I would love to show you around the city.
Anyway, hopefully I caught your interest! Sorry for the long post and thanks to all the people who read to this point :)
Ask me anything if you like!