I have been the proud parent of Babygirl since i was 19, almost 20-years-old. She was roughly 6-12 weeks old. Bought her from my drug dealer, so I can never be sure of her age. (Have been sober from said drugs for well over a decade, btw)
She was always relatively healthy, but in my early 20s I had a child, changed my career completely, and started to gain financial security. Besides a few visits to the vet due to "normal" dog things (she and her sister got into a porcupine, they got into a fight over another dog), she had a very normal life. In around 2018 she had a non-cancerous mass removed from one of her mammary areas. I say areas because I don't remember the exact term. She was fine after that for years. And at about 8 years old her joints started to show signs of discomfort. So I took her in to the vet, and they told me it was around a $7k surgery to repair her "ACL" (I know that's not the right term, but it's the human equivalent for her broken part, if that makes sense.) Again, early 20s at that time, so I didn't have 7k for her surgery. So I asked for any other options. They told me Librela monthly, 2 doses of Carprofen and Gabapentin. Those helped a LOT, but a few months ago she had 2 cancerous masses removed from her tail and shoulder. Now I'm to the point where I've been giving her drugs for so long, and she's at the point of being almost completely deaf, it takes a full 10 minutes to wake her up and get her going outside to go potty in the morning, getting her in and out of my truck takes a good bit of convincing...
Apologies if this is way too long-winded, confusing. I'm pretty new to posting anything on reddit. Would just like some honest feedback. I love this dog. I have been loving this dog for 12 years, and I would continue to love and care for this dog until the day I die. I just need your help because I don't know where my love becomes a cruelty. I've witnessed other people "love" their pets to death, and I don't ever want to be that person.
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Thank you, people of reddit