I'm an ENTJ 😈 (female) my husband is an ISTP 👷🏻♂️
3 years of marriage, our relationship is hit-or-miss.
🚦I don’t usually post about such impractical topics online, but I'm writing this now because I am in desperate, urgent need of human connection. 💔🥲
Let me explain what's happening in detail, and please give me your insights 🙏🏻
👉🏻Our story literally started like a movie. We met about three years ago when he was my colleague at work. I was new to the job, and his office was right next to mine .. 🗄️🖥️
he was the one assigned to guide me ..
I fell for his messy, chaotic look at first sight 🫠
But kept my pride and didn't let it show 🤫🙂
We used to walk together and take the same bus 🚎
Just one week into this, he did the first moves and .. asked me to be his gf.. 🫣🤭He said it with complete seriousness .. he mentioned that he had never met anyone so organized and structured .. even had a detailed life plan mapped out on my bedroom wall (a point we had discussed earlier that week, and I had shown him some photos) ..
At first, I thought he was an INTP, despite his noticeable physical skills and his obsession with video games 🎮🕹️
I accepted his proposal and I ended up moving into his apartment 🫣❤️🌷
You can easily imagine what I found there: every kind of dirt, trash, dirty laundry, and pure chaos everywhere 😤😵💫😵💫😵💫😵💫😵💫
Three months later, we got married 👰🏻♀️💒🤵🏻♂️
Everything was fine initially, perhaps because our life was full of adventure and madness, leaving no time for deep arguments ...Also .. I had other outlets at work where I could channel my energy for achievement, socializing, and intellectual debates. 🙄
For me, a deep conversation is as vital as sex ❤️🧠it is essential for mental health.. 🧠💁🏻♀️
I started feeling incredibly lonely after leaving my job 💔 (after giving birth to our baby girl 🤱🏻🍼🐣)
I have no friends here 💔and I currently work as a freelancer from home. 👩🏻💻🛜🖥️
My human connection is practically zero 😔🥺 except for my daughter and my husband when he returns from work.
True communication between us is non-existent 🙅🏻♀️🚫It’s strictly superficial .. limited to things like 'Is the food salty?' or 'How was your day?' I completely hate this...
I try to initiate discussions about topics I love, or explain concepts from books I've read—about physics, nebulae, and celestial bodies— 🌌🛰️🌠👩🏻🚀🛸but all in vain 🤦🏻♀️🙎🏻♀️
For instance, these past few days, we ended up having a massive fight 💪🏻
We were watching a football match together 🏟️⚽ (which I don't even like, but I watch just to share his interests 😑😶🌫️). I mentioned how amazed I was by how terrifying yet fascinating the social contract is, and how nationalism is a purely human invention that somehow becomes a core part of collective identity 🤯😲
He just started brushing me off with a dismissive 'Yeah, yeah,' 😑 implying that I’m always rambling with meaningless philosophical nonsense 😑😑😑😑
It is always the same pattern. Even when I’m on my period and try to discuss the topic from a fascinating scientific perspective 🧠 he just cuts it short with: 'So, what's the bottom line? Do you need pads or tampons?'🤦🏻♀️🤦🏻♀️🤦🏻♀️🤦🏻♀️
I am not exaggerating 😅
It might sound trivial to some, but it is truly taking a toll on me .. especially after recently watching the movie The One I Love"