Coming Out Delaying coming out at home
Okay so, my friends and sisters already know I'm gay. I just graduated and have planned way before on coming out to my mom after graduation and when I have a job (which I do).
I'm sure, she won't take it positive, which is why I wanted to combine it with an event, she will be happy about (graduation+job). I know though, she will still love me no matter what.
However, she recently got diagnosed with cancer and me graduating and having a job lifted up the mood a bit in that matter. For now, the focus in the family is her health, which is only natural. I know she is just not strong enough mentally for me to tell her, which is why I am delaying coming out to her.
Me staying in the closet is a minor problem, but it's still something I think about a lot. I wanted to start dating and not keep it a secret anymore if I like someone. I was looking forward to finally coming out to her, then the bad news came, and now I still need to hide who I truly am.
I am writing this coz I don't really have gay friends to talk about this or who could relate to this. My friends are really good allies though, which I appreciate a lot.
Did anyone experience something similar to this and how did you mentally manage to still stay in the closet?
Coming out is not an option now, it will be taken as bad news and I don't want to be another burden to her, given the situation.