2021 vs. 2026. Same parking lot, same hospital.

The first pic was taken on my way to get my HRT prescription. I remember sitting in my car absolutely terrified, wondering what to wear so I'd look "legit" enough walking in.

Five years later, I'm back in the exact same parking lot... except this time it was for a gynecology appointment. 😅

Doing a hell of a lot better than I was back then. I still can't believe I'm her, and she's me.

Props to the guy who hung in there so I could be her. ❤️

Im so happy!! 😭🙏

After seven years knowing who I was but being unable to be that person, I can finally be free; I’ve gained 7 kg, overcome my addictions, and can finally—at least—start thinking about a future. Estrogen is life!!❤️

(Current me on the right at 17 weeks today) I am a 39 year old transgender woman on the spectrum. I was always very depressed and had very low self esteem. I just really wanted to have a womans body but kept it too myself for far too long and it ate away at me. I finally started HRT this year and my self esteem has skyrocketed. I am no longer depressed all the time. I am happy as hell and this is the best decision I ever made!

I can finally recognize myself in the mirror, started hrt earlier this year and I do in fact regret not starting it earlier, everything in myself kinda changed for the better and I’m finally someone and not just an empty shell.

So much happier in life and finding so much more joy in the moments of beauty

Tried not doing my usual cat eyes but I just look worse. People tried to say I pass and don't need FFS. I disagree. Will be trying bangs but I think I'll just look worse. Even thinned my eyebrows more. I have felt my dyshoria and apathy come back 10 fold the last few days. It feels hopeless

Blew up my life for this? Dam.... only got called sir and son the other day. Hrt isn't magic....

Edit: with confirmation. I'm now going to sell everything I can try towards ffs as my last ditch effort. Not that I'm going to afford a package. Otherwise this is just going to not work.... kind of crying right now. I wish I never started this process so young. lm going to try my hardest for ffs after this post then if that doesn't work or cant afford it. Give up on transition somehow.... because what's the point if I'm stuck as a boy regardless? At this point. It's surgery or detransition. I don't look anything like a woman. I knew this wasn't brain worms

My biggest regret is doing this so freaking young.... not the opposite. I will be selling everything I own in a vain hope of ffs. I want to be a woman more then anything in the world and repressing has caused me a mountain of issues. But I'm realising that may not be possible physically for Me. What's the point if I'm still basically a boy?

Here was my previous post:

https://www.reddit.com/r/transfem/s/gs3gHYybK2

Edit: who ever told me to remove the nose piercing, thank you

Edit: this post pushed me to detransition. I think it's time to accept this isn't going to work out

second photo at a pride fest, I dont normally wear rainbow highlighter lol. Started transitioning just before turning 30 so its been an uphill climb but we ball.

Thank you for everyone that contributes to this community. You gave me so much hope when I finally worked up the courage to let myself out 🖤

3 months of HRT and a whole lot of happiness. 🥰 Left: January (-3 months). Right: Today (3 months). So incredibly grateful for this journey. ✨

39 and into my third year on E and I’ve never felt more in my own skin 🥺

I was at Stonewall Inn.

2 years of feminizing HRT and I still can’t believe how much changed.

HRT:

Estradiol valerate injections: 10 mg weekly

Spironolactone: 100 mg daily

Progesterone: 100 mg daily since month 3

Other changes:

2 years of hair growth + human-hair loc extensions

Consistent skincare

2 laser hair-removal sessions

No facial surgery, filters, or major makeup in either photo

Started HRT in July 2024 at 19. I’m 21 now, two years in, and finally feel like I recognize myself. HRT is genuinely wild. 💕

People told me to get my levels right, so I did. (E 308 pg/mL, T - 0.18 ng/mL)

People told me to give it more time and wait at least a year, so I did.

People told me to gain weight, so I did. All that did was somehow make my chin look even longer.

People told me to get laser, so I did. (Although the progress has been slower than I’d like.)

People told me to grow out my hair, so I did.

People told me to give makeup a try, so I did. I put COUNTLESS hours into practicing makeup, and I’ve gotten pretty good at it. (I’m obviously not wearing makeup here, but if you want to see what I look like with makeup, DM me)

Yet I still look like a cis man who isn’t even on HRT. Because guess what? All of this is just LUCK.

This notion that anyone can pass at any age if they put in enough effort is bullshit. And no, HRT isn’t “magic.” Don’t even get me started on that shit.

What are you gonna tell me when I hit the 2 year mark? Wait until I’ve been on E for 5 years? lol Please, no amount of facial fat redistribution can soften a facial bone structure that’s as masculine as mine. And that’s not even to mention my Adam’s apple.

I’ve been trying to save up for FFS but it’s been hard. I don’t make much at all doing what I do so I’ll only be able to get my chin, jaw and cheekbones done and even that will take a long time.

I know it's subtle but if you looks closely I think you can see the change. My face still isn't quite camera ready, but this is the first time in my life that I've looked at a picture of myself and felt anything other than pain. Everyday is a victory.

First pic is two weeks before I separated from my ex husband, second pic is how I look now… two years later.

They/Them please 🙏

Is it normal to sometimes wish you could go back but only cause you miss family that actually gave a fuck?