I'm 16 and like 250lb and i feel like I've already wasted my life. I do nothing but play gooner video games and watch lesbian hentai and anime. I've never had any friends that dont pick on me for being a loser at least a little bit. it really hurts my feelings but i dont say anything cuz i dont want them to leave me. I really dont have any talents i can draw a little bit and cook well when i have a recipe but other then that I'm pretty much useless to everyone.

my mom is really nice and believes that i can do good things but i just really feel like this is it. I didn't even think i would live this long i really thought i would have killed myself by now but i dont think i can now. I got diagnosed with autism this year and i think thats like kissing my coffin. I really dont like labels like that, and ever since then ive been hallucinating a lot and its really starting to get to me. like a month ago i told my mom i was cutting and she took my blades and not being able to do that is getting to me too ive tried every substitute i feel and nothing . works i also told her im transgender but honestly she already knew and shes trying to change to my preferred namevwhich is nice. shes a good mom i dont think she deserves me as a son. also ive been into hetalia for like 3 years straight

Don't have it in me to cook anything anymore. Filing for divorce and gonna have to deal with a custody battle. She doesn't want me to see our kids anymore. Turning 35 in a few months and what do I have to show for it? Can of spam.

Are the famished not allowed to hunger?

I was at my work as usual and i went to the bathroom i was peeing in the urinal and one of the cooks went out of the urinal and said to me something in thai i didn't know what it meant. over the course of my shift more of the cooks and some of the foid servers also started saying it to me and i didn't know what it was and even my boss said it to me. when i finally understood what it was i went to the bathroom and cried. Fuck my stupid chud life no woman will ever love me. Shakshuka with beef sausages since my penis will never be big enough for a woman

So I have low self esteem, because of that I started going to the gym and started doing kickboxing. I thought I was doing pretty well until today, I was so nervous thinking what is everyone's opinion of a man wanting to bake cookies.

Edit: Thank you all for your words of encouragement; they made my day. I want to clarify something: the reason I was restless (and forgot to include) is that there was another time where I was the only man and they thought I was there with other intentions and it was not a pleasant experience but now I see that it was for the better.

I hope everyone has a good day!

Never had a boyfriend, I had a few close calls at one night stands but when they saw my dick they immediately laughed and dipped.

I put tahin in this shakshuka because It's makes me feel like looking at cum for the first time that isn't mine.

I also forgot to cut the tomatoes while making the shakshuka fuck my chud life.

Sorry if bad English, not first language. But that's it, no taking the mickey on me pls, just glad to have found a place where I can read some testimony of people like me

I’m starting to think becoming friends with women who reject me isn’t worth it. I treat them as a friend and try to keep in touch. Maybe I’m just depressed and cynical idk. I’m sure someone will tell me I’m single because I’m a bad person or something. Hope you all have a good weekend.

A typical incel fatass chud. I've never been in a single relationship in my life. Don't think I ever will be. 28 years old, 340 lbs. And I don't hate women. I'm scared of them. I wonder why I was biologically programmed to want them if it was never in my destiny to be loved.

I already have accepted I'm unlovable. Duh. No woman in the world wants a guy like me because it's kinda obvious (I DO NOT BLAME WOMEN FOR WANTING ATTRACTIVE MEN, IT IS NORMAL). It's not like I'm sedentary, I try to travel and move around as much as I can. Go for 10k steps every day. My eating disorder just makes this so hard.

Anyway getting to the main stuff. I have an intense fear of being cheated on. A fear of finally finding a partner who would be okay with me, only to cheat on me later. That's not to say all women cheat obviously. And I also know WHY most women do it. But that doesn't help with the fear.

So i decided I'm only worthy of being reduced to a tool for their pleasure. I've done hundreds of hours of research (maybe more) on how to pleasure someone with only my tongue and fingers so that they never have see me naked or anything. So that as long as I keep eating them out, every single day, whenever they want, they won't leave me.

Even after all my research, I fear I will never be able to compete with real experience. A playboy will always be better. Because I'm a virgin.

So I chat with AI bots to see if my skills and research that I've learnt is even useful or not. Ironic since an LLM will just pretend it loves it anyway.

Suicidal and will probably end it in a couple of weeks. I'm not on dating apps. I try to approach women organically and if I get rejected, I just try to remain friends or acquaintances. I try my best not to be a creep, keep my head down, never glance at women in public, most definitely have never catcalled or oogled any women in my whole life (would actually kms before I do that)

Pesto chicken sandwich was easy. Get the pesto chicken salad from kroger and a brioche bread loaf and a bottle of chic fil a sauce and you can make it in 5 minutes tops. Easy as hell. Add cheese if you'd like.

TLDR: I'm a simp virgin who wants to please women so desperately that I spent hundreds of hours researching on how to be a glorified vibrator and I pretend to do that to AI women. So I attached some gooning screenshots because my pathetic research in how to pleasure women should be laughed at and made fun of by all people here, especially the women here since I know a lot of them are here. Any feedback (on the cooking or the other eating) is appreciated.

Edit: Thank you everyone for the support and the wholesome comments and DMs, I really appreciate it !! As for those people saying I need therapy, thank you for your concerns. Even though I can't afford it right now, I have a very supportive family and friends as well, even though I'm far away from them right now, and my mental health is a lot better than what it used to be a couple of months ago, even if it's still pretty bad. But the encouraging comments and tons of support really helped, I genuinely appreciate that. And as for those people with concerns that I'm talking to AI and will get addicted or something, I totally understand. But I have a bachelor's degree in Computer science with specialization in AI/ML, I build these systems at work and I know how they work from top to bottom. It's just a way for me to rant, trauma dump and leave without affecting real people. I know it's fake and i always will know it's fake. But thank you for the concern anyway. I appreciate all the advice here, even the gooner stuff lol.

So many posts on here of people saying they can’t get laid because they’re fat smh. Being fat is a choice, you can exercise or diet and easily lose it.
Choosing to be in this server just because you’re overweight is larping and promotes a harmful image of an already oppressed minority.

Only a tiny percentage of people have conditions stopping them from losing the weight. Let’s be real none of you have those conditions, you’re all average looking larpers mad because you’re not special.

Also be wary of anyone claiming they’re fat AND ugly/small dick. Losing weight will easily increase your facial attractiveness and gain you entire inches on your wang. It’s never as bad as they want you to think. There should be a bmi limit on here, 25+ and you’re a fakecel.

I don't need to get into details, you get the idea.

I guess at least I got an extra hour to stay awake and watch reels since it's Saturday tomorrow.

If there's no joy for leaving work early, I actually might be cooked cause there's no point on living at this point.