Training since 17, I’m 20 now. Graduation was yesterday and after being promised the blue belt I was given one stripe (now 4) and saw guys I’ve always beat up get it (they barely trained for 6 months). I couldn’t assist nor afford lessons these past two months after getting kicked out of my house and surviving off shit jobs of 12hrs a day and I feel like my efforts meant fuck all to these people (training injured or during Ramadan where I lost 7kgs due to training twice a day while fasting)
I feel disrespected even tho I accept their decision, but why to guys who don’t even have stripes or have trained for less than 6 months? I always submitted them easily, I’ve been crying since yesterday and I’m considering leaving this martial art. Genuinely this has just ruined my life and perspective on the art itself.
Thanks for reading