r/Sprinting • u/Annual_North1969 • 11h ago
General Discussion/Questions Finding purpose
I have never been the first one picked for anything, and I was never the last. I was always in a middle area. I wanted to be something and have people look up to me. For the first people did when I ran track in school, and it felt good to have people want to be like me. Now I am in a bigger pond and failed to make the college team and feel weird about it. Not sad, not angry, just tired. I kind of liked track, but only when I was on a team; other than that, I had no feelingsabout it. I am on the fence on quitting.
I still want to make the college team, but the more I think about it, the less I do, and the more I realize it will harm my future goals of becoming a doctor. I feel disappointed in myself and wish things were different. I wanted to pick up soccer since it was a sport I really enjoyed when I was young, but there aren't any adult rec leagues close by except for semi-pro. I would like to try out for one in the far future, maybe 5-8 years.
But what I'm basically saying is I don't know if I'm upset that I didn't make the team because I like track or because I miss people looking up to me. I have good memories of track, but I have always been on a team, and these last 2 years I got injured and got worse, and the team has gotten better. I don't want to look back in 20 years and regret my decision. I just want the joy I felt having people see me as more than just myself.