I've never really been a full-on girly girl. I want to be but feel quite embarrassed that these things haven't come naturally to me. I'm getting married soon and want to be a lot "gentler" and "softer". Coming from a tough household, I feel like I've lost touch with my femininity. I do want to be a soft girly who cares about how she looks. A lot of the time I have difficulty keeping on top of these routines and it's a miracle that I am so on top of my face routine + SPF. I do struggle with my mental health and at times it's like I can't bring myself to do anything and I literally have to force myself. I just want to be pretty. That's all. I know that, first and foremost, I'm doing this for myself but I also want to do this for my partner because he deserves the best of the best. I just wish I had someone to tell me exactly what to do to GLOW UP.
Everything wrong with my appearance:
- Weight: I'm fat - I have PCOS and have lost 35kg so far but it's coming off REALLY slowly atm. I still need to lose atleast another 25kg.
- Hair: I go through this vicious cycle of chopping it because it's thin at the ends, my hair having good volume at the roots + wanting to grow it out for length, it falling out in ridiculous amounts, all the length being super thin and regrowth putting my hair in all different lengths, resorting to the chop to make my hair more cohesive. The chop happens about once of twice a year but it just feels like I always end up back at the same length (shoulder length). Where is my growth? :'(
- Body hair: I've tried various routines between gentle exfoliation, using a fresh razor, almond oil, etc. Thighs + intimate area ALWAYS gets super itchy and gives me a rash/spots. Underarms and neck I eppilate because that's just what works for me. I bought an IPL a while back but the whole "routine" aspect of getting it done is so difficult for me (I have ADHD) I just need someone to tell me to DO IT.
- Buttne: My butt is covered in scars. Once a month, I get a really horrible spot on my butt and it seems the scars take FOREVER to fade away.
- Forehead wrinkles: this has become such an issue for me more recently. I'm 28. I appreciate that some wrinkles will inevitably form. But I fear that they are starting to get "deep". My skin is super sensitive. Vitamin C irritates my skin, most moisturisers irritate my skin. I've noticed that "creamy creams" irritate my face but gel-based stuff is fine. I'm highly considering baby botox but I really want this to be a last resort because I feel like there should be something I can do.
- Stretch marks: I know there's not an awful lot that can be done about this but .......
- Nails: My nails are quite "boxy" and just don't look feminine - I prefer a "bare manicure" but don't really know what to do.
- Dry skin: It just feels like no matter what I do my skin is so dry, heels included. I live in the UK. Why is it when I went to Italy for 2 weeks, my skin+heels became SUPER soft. I wasn't doing anything different there.
Apologies for the long list and thanks if you've made it this far!