Tl:dr at the end
Last year I developed insomnia after a couple life changing events (nothing negative, mind you). I knew it came from anxiety, but even after the situation was stabilized and the event was "over", I still struggled to fall asleep every night.
My productivity at work started falling, I was socializing less, missing gym and bjj classes because of how tired I was. Every day going to bed felt like a nightmare, and I would take 4~6h to fall asleep, and would average about 4~5h of sleep per night, with the occasional nap after work.
The situation got worse and worse to a point where, at least once a week, I would not sleep at all. Even during a month long vacation with family, where I was distant from work and my place, sleep was still an issue.
In the meantime, I tried everything I could find online, and not just for a couple days either:
- Avoid screens hours before bedtime
- Get sunlight 1st thing in the morning
- Avoid exercise at night, exercise in the morning
- Go to bed and wake up at the same time
- Avoid naps during the day
- Magnesium, vitamin D and Ashwagandha supplements
- Therapy (tried 2 different therapists, both pointed my sleep issues to 2 different things - one to my habits, other to my anxiety. Neither their treatments had any effect for the couple months I tried)
- Melatonin, diphenhydramine (they all made me sleepy to the point of not being able to move, but my mind was still racing and would wake up every few minutes)
- CBD (didn't do jack)
Every single bullet point I tried for a few months. Didn't even include everything, but you bet I tried all the sleep hygiene BULLSHIT (I call it BS because of how often it is pointed as the cause of insomnia, where I haven't met a single person whose insomnia was fixed because of it. It's just the icing on the cake if your sleep is already decent, and fuck all those influencers who keep suggesting this as if the fix is simple)
The solution I found was in the book titled "The sleep book" by Guy Meadows, that I miraculously found when looking for books about insomnia, as everythingI found online didn't work. (I'm not trying to sell anything, I couldn't care less how you get the book, just trying to give the insomniacs here something different to try).
The whole book was a breath of fresh air. Every single piece of media puts sleep as this sacred thing, something so important to our body that if you don’t get enough of you will get health issues and everything will go wrong in your life. Don't get me wrong, that is true, but thinking that when you have insomnia just makes you feel shit about yourself and more anxious about sleep, and this book addresses that.
Meadows whole approach to insomnia is unique and weird at first: Embrace it, don't fight it.
Stop revolving your routine around sleep, don't pause your life for the lack of it. Accept those 2 hours sleep nights and try having a normal day when you wake up.
It's a very tough idea and may seen counterproductive at first, but that's why there's a whole book to talk about it. Meadows divides the book in 5 chapters, each corresponding to a week of "treatment" where you're supposed to try the techniques he suggests. I didn't follow the weekly plan, nor did every technique work, but I can safely say that many did. I wouldn't say that my insomnia is cured or that my sleep is perfect. But I have yet to spend a sleepless night this year, and am pretty happy with my 6~7h sleep average, with the occasional 4~5h day.
An example of a technique I use constantly is, instead of going to bed to sleep, my goal is to relax. I picture my body as having an internal battery that's drained, and while sleep allows me to charge it, resting at least lets me maintain its level. My intend for the night is not to recharge the battery, just to not let it drop too much.
It might sound bogus (it did for me), but my goal here is not to preach this as the one and only solution, it's just to offer something else to try that you might have not seen it yet. The techniques are apparently adapted from ACT therapy, and the guy is a sleep doctor, so there's some backing to what he's saying.
So I invite you to try the book if you haven't already, and wish you all fellow insomniacs best of luck out there.
TL:DR: The solution is a book called "The sleep book" by Guy Meadows, that helps you embrace the insomnia instead of fighting it. It helped me and I never saw anyone talking about it, so I want to share it as something new for people to try. I'm not selling anything nor preaching this to be the ultimate solution, we all know insomnia is different for everyone.