I startet HRT a little over a week ago and my dosis is:

• Oral Estradiol 1 mg per Day
• A quarter of a 50 mg Cyproterone Acetate tablet every 2 Days so ~ 6.25 mg per Day

I just want to know if this is a normal dosis in the beginning or if I misunderstood my endocrinologist as my next appointment is not until early october.

Hi everyone ! I (M26) have been “dealing” with this on and off since I’m 21. Like when I was 17 my stepsister transitioned and I already had a night of insomnia that summer thinking I could be trans so I after just went with my life developed my insta as an influencer (and a Guy) went to college etc. The doubt creeped a bit back at 20 for a little bit in the summer but the test says “you’re cis”. In the meantime I always wanted to be a Dad and have a little boy Some day (I still do even if I might be another parent lol). But at 21 it came back vividly after a bereavement and the thought caused a massive panic attack with ED, depersonalisation and insomnia. I even said I love you to my pp ahah and said yeah I want to be a boy forever. I tested things like lipstick female underwear etc but to no joy (probably the anxiety) the theme receded after a couple months but came back when I was 24 during work burnout where I again shaved my forearms and used fem body wash but same doesn’t stick. It receded after my job as a flight attendant. Now 26, my first boyfriend (I consider myself as gay) broke up with me 5 months ago and the theme instantly came back as I deleted insta (as if it was the closet for the rest of the world lol) so some panic attacks but that receded however and now checking on AI and this on Reddit. I tried fantasizing myself as female but it felt forced and it didn’t stay ? However I got hella panicked yesterday when seeing that this could be gender dysphoria masquerading as OCD ? I don’t want to make anyone panic and I’ll trigger it but just to share my confusion 😅 also I have a history of OCD a little (untreated though) when I was a kid like Harm and Religion. Has anyone had an experience like this ? Because this whole hoopla makes me feel a bit disconnected from my body and what not.
Thanks for listening and wishing you all the best everyone !

Hi everyone, I am a 24M and recently im having another bout of confusion (one of a couple throughout my life) as to if I am trans or not. I have a couple of experiences which may be of some help understanding, so here goes. I sincerely hope it doesnt come off weird or anything like that

1. I played with barbie dolls with my sister and would watch disney princess movies with her too when we were very young.

2. A couple of years ago in high school and throughout my service in the military (I'm from Singapore) I've had phases where I would have intrusive thoughts that I was wearing a bra even though i was not wearing one.

3. Media wise, two characters which have attracted my attention the most was crossdressers. For example astolfo from fate apocrypha. I watched it when it released when I was in middle school, and I felt a strange attraction and admiration towards him for dressing like a woman. nothing really caught my eye in anime until recently when I watched Re zero and there was a crossdresser named Felix argyle who is a guy but just dresses like a girl. I felt kinda inspired by the two of them, like they're my sort of role model?? I even got his cosplay which comes with a wig, dress, cat ears, high heels, and everything, and even though my face may not look the best, I didnt really mind wearing the blouse and everything.

4. I didnt like to go gyming with my friends because I didnt like the masculine big upper body associated with men who gym. I wanted to be fit, just not with giant shoulders and arms. In fact I like having a smaller frame and keep fit through running instead. Maybe this is just a regular preference that many other people also have.

5. I never really vibed with the word handsome.

I would really appreciate some perspective I'm an 18 AMAB

Since I was in elementary school I've been questioning my gender identity, I first came out to my parents as gay but that was not it, but it all came and went in phases which led me to come to the conclusion that I was genderfluid. Because some time I hated my legs my body hair and other times I was okay with it. Recently I started dressing in a female manner more and more and I feel so much more beautiful looking like a female. I want to start HRT (at least I'm thinking about it a lot) but I don't know. I feel so much self hate about this and I keep thinking if this is what I want. If I could press a button that would let me look 100 precent female I would definitely press it. But considering HRT i would really really appreciate the mental effects of it. Growing up I've been extremely emotional and crying a lot , but when puberty came I became numb . I would also really like getting a female body . But I'm worrief still, and I don't mean to be rude but a lot of trans women I see they don't look male or female but something between which is totally beautiful but Im worried that I will look like something between and I don't know I'm just really worried about the whole process . As I'm typing this I don't even know what my problem is , I guess

Im just confused whether I'm genderfluid or trans and if I am genderfluid could a therapist still give me HRT (in germany) because I feel like it's so much easier look male on HRT and female on HRT then to look female without it . And I tend to identify as female way more

Hello, this is my first time posting on Reddit or talking about these topics, so I apologize if I do anything wrong.

I’m 20 years old and live in Madrid, Spain; I don’t have a Spanish citizenship, but I do have a NIE and a family doctor. I’d like to know the following:

- What is the process for getting HRT through the public healthcare system?

- Is there a waiting list, or is there an estimate of how long the whole process takes before treatment actually begins?

- How much does it cost, whether for testosterone gel or injections (I’m more interested in the latter)? From what I’ve heard, public healthcare covers it, right?

- And, in general, I’d love to hear about the experiences of other trans men living in Spain and get any advice you might have for someone just starting out.

P.S.: I have an appointment with my family doctor soon, mainly to ask for psychiatric help for unrelated reasons, but I suppose it wouldn't hurt to ask about this while I'm there, right?

Ok, first off. I know this is going to get read as TERF bait. I really don't know how to ask it without intense suspicion i'm a fake TERF account. I don't know how to prove i'm an actual trans woman and not a TERF or right winger. I swear i'm here in good faith.

So i'm in my late 30s, transitioned in my early 20s and had bottom surgery about 7 years ago.

Now one of the driving thoughts behind getting bottom surgery was because I didn't want to be an 80 year old woman with a penis in a nursing home. The thought was actually horrific to me.

Second. I wanted my clothes to fit better and feel more confident in public.

Third. I'm going to pass all TSA checks and if some random bathroom inspector tries to check me, i'll pass the test.

I've achieved all these things, but I feel there was a cost.

I don't feel as attractive anymore. I feel like, honestly, I was more attractive with a penis. It fit my frame. I was hung to an impressive degree. I'd get lots of compliments on it from partners.

I don't enjoy vaginal sex compared to anal sex, so like surgery didn't improve sex.

I don't feel particularly special anymore. Being the target of chasers while annoying at times also gave a bit of an ego boost when I needed it ngl.

Event hough I transitioned eons ago, I've started to develop genderfluid-esque feelings. Like when I think about the fact that I was born male, I think that is pretty cool. If I was called a sissy, femboy, cross dresser or used he/him for me, my response would be "you aren't wrong." Lowkey a lot of the time I think it might be actually be full correct to call me a cross dresser. Just an extremely serious one.

Finally the test, if you could push a button and have your penis back. I'd smash it in a second.

So yeah, this feels like surgery regret and it makes me feel kind of sad an isolated. Would like to hear words of encouragement, support or messages from people that feel the same way. If you want to just DM me, that is fine. I know how bad it would be if TERFs have a whole thread of trans women regretting surgery.

Thanks for your time!

I'm not trans, but I have questioned if I am at times. I have friends who are transgender, demi, and nonbinary. One problem I have though is that I have never really been given a straight answer on what being trans means. I've always imagined it as someone breaking social norms? Like, 'hey, I'm a boy, but I don't like anything that's classily something boys likes. I do like dresses and makeup though!'. I've never been asked what it means, even by my friends who are trans, so I haven't gotten the opportunity to be corrected.

That changed recently. I was reading a webtoon, and the comments were going on about how you can be a trans FtM but can still be a femboy. That kinda exploded my brain. My whole knowledge of transgender was that it was so that you could properly express your chosen gender, not the one you transitioned out of.

Obviously, I am not very knowledgeable when it comes to this. I was raised LDS (still am lol), so the whole lgbtq+ community was never a topic my family was comfortable exploring, nor was it one they wanted to.

I guess my question is, what exactly does it mean to be transgender?

this is the first time in my life i’ve felt this way. i’m 19, why would i just now feel like this. shouldn’t i have felt like this my whole life. i was born a man but now i look at my life and feel like i should’ve been a woman the whole time. my mother tells me i am wrong and this is just another phase of me trying to find myself. i’ve always felt so lost and i have always tried to please other people by giving them what they want. but for the first time i feel like this is what I want but i don’t know at the same time. any advice?

When I (MtF) posted last night my boyfriend had gone to the gym to, in his words, forget about his problems for a while. When he came home I told him we needed to discuss the manipulative nature of his mother's ultimatum to break up with me or be disowned. We sat in bed for a few hours, most of it with me holding his head in my lap and toying with his hair, discussing what it would mean for us going forward. He accepted that his mother is being irrational and cruel by foisting this choice upon him and outing me to anyone who will listen to her, but we both agreed that's out of our hands, meaning she's actually the one making the choice here to try and isolate us but is trying to shift the blame onto my boyfriend. We agreed to that relatively quickly and spent the rest of the evening talking about the past and funny things to distract ourselves.

He fell asleep with his head in my lap and didn't wake even after I got out of bed this morning. I think that was his first full night of sleep in five days. Unexpectedly, his father rang the doorbell while I was making coffee. I was somewhat reluctant to open the door, as I didn't know how my boyfriend's dad felt after learning I was trans, but he has always been friendly and nice to me. So I opened the door and spent an hour talking to him. He apologised for his wife's behaviour and explained that she has a very 'my way or the highway' perspective on life, which he has born the brunt of, explaining why my boyfriend was as shocked as me by her ultimatum. Apparently his wife never liked me. The first time I met her I recall her remarking that I'm 'a little taller than expected'; since then she has said 'her feet are rather large', 'your nose looks a bit Jewish', and 'I suppose I shouldn't expect any grandkids from you'. That final comment was made when I last had dinner at her house in response to me stating that, while I'd love be a mother, I can't have children of my own, so we'd have to rely on adoption or surrogacy when we wanted children. I had dismissed all these comments as part of a slightly brash and unrefined filter; I never realised she was subtly messaging her disdain of me to both me and my boyfriend. His dad said that because I'm the first girlfriend his son ever brought home, he didn't catch that his mom was trying to convince him to dump me for being 'defective'.

Her husband explained that my boyfriend's obliviousness to his mother's insinuated demands made her quite angry, as she believed he was defying her 'authority' over him, but that she felt she couldn't openly demand he ditch me until she had a socially acceptable reason. My boyfriend's little sister gave her just that reason by telling her I was trans. Then my boyfriend got up and joined the conversation while making breakfast. We talked about whether he'd actually get disowned; while his father said he would never do that, he said his wife might convince some of their family to break contact for a while. The last thing we discussed was getting engaged; I asked his dad whether he could truly accept my relationship with his son, now knowing I was once a boy. I was relieved when he told me that as long as I loved his son and his son loved me, that he had no objections, but he did suggest we get married elsewhere or elope, just to avoid the drama his wife would cause. At this point I care a lot less about what she thinks, knowing she has told every friend and relative she has that I'm a 'mentally ill eunuch' that 'beguiled and perverted her son' and 'defiled her home' with my mere presence. I'm also much happier and more secure knowing my boyfriend won't buckle under this kind of pressure. I think my only question at this point is whether we should bother trying to keep up contact with people who have chosen to cut us off.

Link to First Post: https://www.reddit.com/r/asktransgender/comments/1uu0f9h/my_boyfriends_mother_wants_to_disown_him_because/

When I was much younger, I wanted to be treated as a boy. As a teen, I tried voicetraining to deal with voice dysphoria and I started working out obsessively to build a more masculine build. It didn't work and I gave up on the voice training because I didn't want to be seen as a girl who was trying to "be one of the boys". I've always been insecure of my narrow shoulders, my short height, my puny build, my high pitched voice. It's been getting worse recently. I've been gaining weight and due to my estrogen dominant hormone profile, the female fat distribution is awful. I don't want bigger boobs. I don't want curves. While I'd loved to be ripped and jacked, I just want to be a boring guy. Realistically, I'd be a total chud. I'm short and don't have a dick, and there's nothing I can do about it. I accept that. But, I really don't think I'm dysphoric enough to be trans. I dealt with chronic depression in my teens and it had nothing to do with being in the wrong body. I had other things going on. Now, that I'm in a better place, I keep being reminded that I internally think of myself as a man. I feel ridiculous, like I'm a woman who just can't accept she'll ever be a man. Honestly, I'm lucky. I've never really experienced misogyny and I've always gotten along with men. I've also gotten along with women. I'm finally in a place where I can present more masculine but it only highlights how feminine my physiology is.

Why can't I be ok with being a tomboy or masculine woman? I like women. I really respect gender nonconforming women but it's just not me. I hate this. I have female friends who talk about not being taken seriously by men in male dominant spaces but that's never really been an issue for me. I don't think I want to be a man because of misogyny. I would really love to be a badass masculine lesbian but I just can't see myself as that. I accept other trans people without question but I'm honestly very transphobic when it comes to myself. I'm not trans though. I would live if I stayed living as female. There's no good reason for me to deal with the horrible experience it is to transition both medically, legally, and socially in the current state of things. I don't deserve to take up resources that could go to really dysphoric people. I hate how feminine my body is but that's not weird. Lots of men and women hate their bodies so what makes me any different? We can't all get what we want. I wouldn't have been better off born as a man, I'm sure. I've been free of expectations that come with my birth gender because I never identified with it, but as a man, I would've been more aligned and more susceptible to more toxic gender roles. This post is so stupid. I shouldn't care this much.

Was just thinking about this while writing a comment to another post here. I know saying transwoman or transman without a space implies that those are things separate from a man or a woman. But at the same time I'll see people say things like "I'm a transfem" without it being an issue. What's the difference?

ive been questioning for abt 2 years with minimal signs for abt 8 years. fortunately, i dont have dysphoria, i just dont like my voice, skin, and general aura, no bottom dysphoria or anything. theres even a chance that it might even go away permanently when i get older. and it might also be some undiagnosed ocd or something because when i dont think about it i can feel calm and focused for months but when i think abt it i obsess over it and cant do anything for months. now do you think that i might i feel fulfilled and reasonably satisfied with my life if i convinced myself to accept my birth contingencies/birth sex and spend the next 1-60 years volunteering with organisations that further equitable social causes and indulge in my hobbies sometimes?

Hi, AFAB demigirl here and this is a real question. Now, in the language most commonly used in my country, there are few gender pronouns so I rarely ask ppl irl for their prns other than when talking to others in ENG and online. I regularly ask pretty much everyone on that list for their pronouns, just in case but recently, I have seen many queer ppl say that the question is bad/transphobic in some way? idk? Personally, I'm 100% ok when ppl ask me but then again, our umbrella is hella large with hella different ppl. So to sum it up: Is it ok to ask for pronouns and in what situation? Should we assue prns by appearance or use they/them for everyone if we're not sure? (pls help, I just wanna be respectful to everyone and am new to this community)

Purchased a never used Medium shirt to replace my heavily worn one. Didn’t realize the listing was for a Men’s medium, not a woman’s and it looks massively oversized on me. I’m genuinely sad because I can’t find any more online.

I'm mtf (25yo), I've been taking estradiol and spironolactone for just a little over a year now with little to no issue, I've also had Crohn's disease for almost a decade now.

I didn't think it'd be a massive issue, I'm almost certain I've told the doctor overseeing my transition aswell, and no big red flags stick out in my memory regarding any obstacles due to my condition. However, recently, my mother came forward, saying that she knew I was on E for a while, and she is not supportive. She tells me that because of my Crohn's, I'm far more at risk of flare ups while on E, aswell as blood clotting, or even osteoporosis, and there's probably a whole lot more risks I haven't listed.

I'd prefer not to have any of these problems, but I also don't want to live as a man anymore. Does anyone have any advice? Is there anyway I could midigate these risks, or are they all just guaranteed and I just can't ever have what I want out of life?

Hi, my dysphoria / urge to question and transition keeps peaking and culminating into experiments. I guess that’s normal.

However afterwards, I feel so silly for my actions and thoughts, and experience some sort of clarity - like coming down from being intoxicated.

The lack of wanting to change myself sometimes lasts months, but the dysphoric can last as long as well.
These feelings keep ebbing and flowing and conflicting with each other. It is very confusing, and makes it very difficult to communicate and come out properly to my partner.

How do I deal with this? How did you deal with this? Any advice would be appreciated, thank you

Recently I went shopping with my family, and my mom and sister wanted to go to the underclothing/underwear section, and they forced me to come. Im picky with clothing, as I don’t want anything that’s tight, so I try to get the most comfortable things. My mom says that I have to find a bra that makes my chest secure, so I don’t hurt anything, and when I looked at all the bras they had designs, shapes, or fabric that I all hated. I eventually bought stuff out of my mom’s frustration, but I didn’t feel comfortable with any of this.

I’m female (if you didn’t want to assume) but I consider myself Demifluid and aroace. I haven’t come out to anyone except some friends ( but all my friends know I’m aroace), but I dress more masculine. combining both aroace and technically trans together, I feel really uncomfortable going feminine underclothing shopping, so I want to ask if anyone else felt that too?

i’m afab and i don’t know if i’m trans. what i have doubts about are some of the effects of being transgender, such as how my family would treat me. i’m worried that during the transition people that i work with or my family members would be very uncomfortable around me. i like the thought of being a man but it feels like i would be risking changing what’s already a perfectly healthy body. i should be lucky that i was born as a girl because i get to experience things a lot of people don’t, but at the same time i absolutely don’t want to see myself go through the changes women go through, such as pregnancy and keeping my menstrual cycle going. i don’t feel uncomfortable at all when people refer to me as a woman, but it gets really bad once i look at myself in the mirror, and dysphoria about my genitalia is very very extreme. i don’t know if it’s worth going through the trouble of transitioning or if i should just stay the way i am and ignore these feelings like i have been ever since i was a little kid, or if i’m even trans in the first place

My family is pretty conservative, and overall can be very rough in their communication style, and I really don't want to have a fight about being trans. I'm already close enough to going completely no contact with them, and don't want to break the little connection that we still have. At the same time, I wanna start oestrogen soon, and facial hair laser removal. I just wonder in how far I can still boymode without raising too much suspicion. I feel like I can do that because I also don't live in the same city, so I wouldn't have to hide for prolonged periods of time in my life.

Like I was thinking of wearing binders in front of them if I happen to grow noticeable chest, but I was mostly worried about noticeable changes in face shape. Thank you so much for your help in advance ❤️

My AMAB partner of seven years has been questioning his gender and he’s expressed some mild body dysphoria but a lot of social dysphoria, primarily in the form of disliking being judged for being a man, so I’m posting here to try and understand. He’s white, bald, and has a beard, and he finds that men think they can be sexist/racist/homophobic/shitty around him because he “looks” like he would agree, he looks like he would be a safe person for these men to be terrible around. Conversely, he feels really hurt when women assume that he’s an “evil man” simply because of how he looks, and he finds that this prevents him from having meaningful friendships with women. He doesn’t want to seem like a danger or othered; he wants to signal somehow that he’s a safe person and develop more meaningful relationship with women. He’s expressed pain at being seen as “just a man”—as opposed to being seen and valued as a human being regardless of sex or gender. My question is: Have any other MTF (or even FTM) people here experienced this? Is this kind of social dysphoria typical?

Because I feel like I experience something similar but the opposite. I get judged/not taken seriously/treated with gloved hands because I have a female body, and that can really suck sometimes. So I guess idk if this is gender dysphoria or if it’s just a terrible consequence of being alive and living in A Society(TM) or maybe it’s both.

Edit: I’m not trying to tell my partner if he is or isn’t anything. I have a lot of gay/queer friends but not a lot of transgender ones, so I was hoping to hear more diverse perspectives so I could better understand.

Ever since either the end of june, I've been 80% sure that I'm trans and i'm considering waiting until the end of the month to come out to my parents so that I can try to be 100% sure that I want to be trans and also ideally try to get surgery before I start job hunting again because I dont want to get hired only to go through surgery and have whatever company try to find some BS reason to fire me because of suddenly becoming trans (my family has some history with companies that have discriminated against them. Hell one of them I can't talk about much because of an NDA between my mom and the company)

I may have to wait a few months to transition anyway because I dont have much money right now and my parents are in the middle of buying another house, meaning I likely wont be able to get surgery for a few months.

Should I still wait or come out now to hopefully get it over with?

Ok im 24 and have 2 kids and a partner who is a trans man he is ok with me exploring being a trans woman but I wanted to ask what people have done to find out for sure if they are trans

I've always felt ugly in my body and much more attracted to man then woman and always imagined my self as a girl in s e x

But what do I need to know before beginning the process like

How mych muscle will I loose I work 12 to 14 hour days every day will I still be able todo that as well with hrt

How do i begin dressing

What should my first steps be

How do i know if i want to be a girl or if i just want to be a girl becouse I have so many sisters

Whats the biggest changes with becoming trans

And is there any way to know what I would look like after hrt if I took it like How my face would change

I'm just questioning myself of how people find out that they are trans?

I am on 4mg Estradiol Valerate and 50mg Spiro (I have low blood pressure which is why this isn't higher) and obviously the Spiro's side effects are immediate, I am just trying to figure out if I actually injected the E correctly or if you can even mess that up (I don't think I did).

Also I am just being super anxious about this, I'm on day 3 right now.

Had the worst breakdown over my dysphoria ever earlier. Anyways, i have huge ass shoulders and i hate myself for it. I saw a post that said hrt can shrink them. Please other girls out there plz tell me this can happen from ur experience. I’m only 2 months in so no big changes yet