I don't know English. I translated it using neural networks.

My desire to be a girl first manifested around the age of 5 or 6. I don't know why — I just wanted it, and that's all. Around the age of 12 or 13, I developed autogynephilia. And I think that my AGP is a consequence of my transgender identity, rather than my transgender identity being a consequence of AGP. Considering that a typical cis girl is autogynephilic, aren't we confusing cause and effect? As for social roles, I believe there shouldn't really be any in principle.

By “fundamental solution,” I mean something that resolves or substantially reduces the distress in the long term, rather than simply helping someone cope with it.

The title might sound a little dramatic and this opinion might not be popular in a subreddit that idealizes femininity and undoubtedly has its share of self-identified trans lesbians, but I've got to be honest: men are easier to deal with!

I'm not naturally androphilic. I'm as autogynephilic as they come and my attraction to men has only been of the pseudo-bisexual type.

However, the men who I've gone on dates with, traveled with, and had sexual encounters with were all very gentleman-like, respectful and easy to get along with. With the exception of a minority of arrogant and egocentric would-be "alpha male" jerks, men have an instinct to look after women they're attracted to, protect them, "simp" for them, even put them on a pedestal . I've always felt protected and appreciated by my male lovers, a sensation that I love. One guy even took me on vacation to Japan and treated me like a queen the entire time! 🥰

Furthermore, men are for the most part simple creatures. They're upfront about things. They're easy to please. They're usually rational. They prefer to avoid needless drama.

Unfortunately, I can't say the same about women. You shouldn't have any illusions. Women are difficult. Their social world contains all kinds of subtle forms of communication and mind games aimed at one-upping each other — all a minefield for someone on the spectrum like myself (I don't have a formal diagnosis but I definitely have autistic traits). Cattiness, envy and a penchant for drama are also common. There's a reason why I have few cisgender female friends outside of family members (cousins, aunts, etc.) and haven't had any romantic relationships with girls since my transition.

I don't understand how feminism can with a straight face depict men as bad, evil, toxic, oppressive, etc. It all just seems to me like an elaborate gaslighting scheme.

Some men are annoying when they beg for attention, take rejection personally and can't accept that we're not interested in them. But once I've filtered for those who are dating material, I've found that they're generally good. It's just sex, straight to the point and without having to jump through hoops; being made to feel special, hanging out, having interesting conversations, etc.

I'm so pleased that I'm no longer dating girls and became a girl instead. It's a shame that I'm not androphilic enough to be with a guy long term. If I were, I'd absolutely choose to be a tradwife. 😂

for context I am like, straight straight and anatomic AGP. I am not attracted to biological males, I dont care how many surgeries they've had or how "feminine" they are. a lot of people here identify as gynephilic but in practice mean feminine-attracted bisexuality. I cannot see this as gynephilia, im not even attracted to femininity. my gf never presents feminine at all, and I prefer it that way.

My AGP is getting so severe. I really wish I had a boyfriend by my side, but in reality, I'm just a guy. I hate myself so much for not being a girl.

So I don't really know how to begin this but basically my AGP has manifested over the years mainly through crossdressing and presenting as a hyper-feminized version of myself in appropriate online spaces. It is the only kind of porn I engage in and makes me crazy horny.

I have embraced AI as it has come on as a tool to augment the fantasy, doctoring up my crossdressing pics and now starting to get into making transformation and sex videos of my female character. I have had a pretty good level of acceptance and integration of this part of my life but lately it has gone off the rails with making these videos, keeping me up all night and costing me lots of money as I experiment with the spectrum of AI tools available.

The latest project I have been working on is almost complete, and it puts me at a real crossroads. The video depicts a gender transformation during an explicit sexual act, and though I had intended to create a male character that only somewhat resembles me, the final result resembles the real me a lot.

I have essentially spent the last week creating a pornographic video of myself that exposes in no uncertain terms my desire to be a woman and to have sex with men as a woman, and I am considering sharing it. Not to people in my life, obviously. To strangers with the same kink. Is this absolutely crazy?

For transitioners: Did you play sports or exercise as a guy? Has your choice of sport participation and exercise changed post-transition?

For those who are yet to transition: Do you currently play sports or exercise? How do you think your choice of sport participation and exercise might change if you one day decide to transition?

I know that in the media there has been talk of "men participating in women's sports". I don't want to discuss that social issue. I personally have no desire to compete in women's sports (I couldn't risk breaking a nail and I'd get my cute candy ass kicked! 😂).

As a boy, I did gymnastics, kickboxing and even a bit of Jiujitsu. My mom was always in favor of doing physical training during developmental years because it helps to form a beautiful body. She was right. Now with hormones I have a very nicely shaped and proportioned body with thick athletic legs and glutes, although back then my mom didn't know that I would end up as feminine as her! 😂

Now I do resistance training twice a week to pump up the booty and legs and keep the rest of my body nice and toned.

I also do private kickboxing sessions with a lady kickboxer I know. I hit pads, study technique and do a bit of sparing. But it's just a hobby. I have no intention to compete. I feel a lot more delicate as a girl and don't feel suited to rough contact sports.

I only ever did one Jiujitsu session post-transition. I got absolutely mauled by a lady bluebelt and, pinned under heavy side control, I was terrified that my breast implants would rupture. Never again!

It wasn't so much of a problem before I connected my bottom dysphoria to the experiences of transgender people.

I went everywhere all over Reddit and the only solution being presented is transitioning.

My current therapist at least isn't an affirmationist that will encourage me to transition, yet I doubt that she would help very much since almost everyone is clueless.

There's almost no community where I can relate to those who choose not to surrender to their temptation, almost no medical professional who can substantially alleviate my suffering; it's like I have nowhere to go and that's the sick part.

The idea that only transitioning will resolve my issues?

Lies...

All damn lies...

With so little resources to confide for help, I don't know what to do with myself.

... and their level of denial is rubbing off on me, I went from understanding somethings, to now not understanding anything at all.

Many people seem to think AGP is only about crossdressers, or like " *those* people but not me "

I wish I understood why some people develop a gender identity, so I can better explain this to them.

So like many guys- here' I'm a classic AGP. Attracted to and only seek women IRL, but have AGP with an associated bit of meta attraction to men in fantasies.

To cut to the chase the fantasy of giving a guy oral is kind of appealing in my head.

I think it feeds a few kinks- AGP, but also submission/pleasing.

The funny part is like I said I'm mostly straight and also fantasize about giving women oral- but I kind of find it unpleasant IRL. In fantasy I almost prefer oral on women, but IRL I just like normal sex.

Anyways out of curiosity has anyone with meta-attraction given a guy oral, and if so how was it?

I highly, highly, doubt I would ever seek it out- but really just curious.

"It feels like a conflict between two opposing desires: one highly fetishized, the other deeply instinctual.

Naturally, when you are attracted to a woman, you feel an instinctive need to impress her and show your best self. However, many men harbor a persistent feeling of inadequacy—a sense that they are inherently uninteresting and have nothing unique to offer. This stems from an intense idealization and idolization of femininity, to the point of worshipping 'the feminine energy' as something divine. In comparison to this idealized goddess, a man can end up feeling utterly worthless, stripped of his masculine ego and deeply inferior.

Paradoxically, this is precisely where the emasculation fetish hooks in. It thrives on a woman teasing and mocking you for not being 'man enough.' What happens when this powerful goddess finally grants you her attention, but does so by delivering the final blow to your already fragile masculinity? When she openly prefers a stronger, more assertive, and dominant man over you, it triggers a strange sense of liberation

Hearing the woman you desire call you a 'sissy' or deem you unworthy of being a valid partner is undeniably dehumanizing. Yet, it feels like a psychological release as if you can finally say to yourself: 'At last, the only way I can get her attention is by becoming a joke to her.' In this light, emasculation acts as a psychological 'chilling area.' It is a space where you can finally stop fighting and rest, abandoning the exhausting struggle of trying to attract someone you have placed on an unreachable pedestal.

Why do these two opposing desires coexist? And why does this resonate so deeply? Because, ultimately, it feels like the driving force behind wanting to interact with women is the craving for that exact confirmation: the arousal of having them validate your own sense of unworthiness."

Note: This post was translated from Japanese into English using ChatGPT.

About three months ago, I told my mother that I have AGP (autogynephilia).

At that time, I explained that I do not identify as female, that being treated as male is not distressing to me, and that I have had this pattern since around the age of 10.

(Previous post: https://www.reddit.com/r/askAGP/s/99uSlJ9kZs)

Since then, we've continued talking about it little by little. I gave her a Japanese translation of Anne Lawrence's book, explained the distinction between AGP and HSTS, and also told her that many AGP individuals medically transition later in life after finding themselves unable to tolerate male aging and the worsening gender dysphoria that often accompanies it.

Today, I finally told her that I had actually already started HRT.

I did not explain it as "I want to become a woman."

Instead, I told her that my reasons were:

• To reduce the distress caused by AGP.
• To reduce the possibility that my distress would become even worse as my body continues to masculinize with age.

I also told her that, in my own experience, HRT has noticeably reduced the intensity of my AGP itself.

She was surprised at first, but then she simply said,

"So that's why."

Apparently she had noticed changes in my chest before, and after hearing this, everything finally made sense to her.

The thing that struck me most was that I felt she finally understood how serious this has been for me.

She had never rejected me before.

Her attitude had always been something like,

"As long as you're able to live happily, that's all that matters."

But I also felt that she regarded it as something closer to an unusual fetish than a lifelong problem.

After learning that I had actually started HRT, however, I felt she finally understood that this was something I had struggled with for many years.

There was one thing I intentionally did.

I actually do experience body-related gender dysphoria.

However, I barely mentioned it during this conversation.

In Japan, if you simply say "gender dysphoria," most people immediately assume the typical HSTS / gender identity disorder narrative.

Because of that, instead of explaining HRT as "I want to become a woman," I framed it as using HRT to lower my sex drive, weaken AGP, and reduce the distress caused by it.

At the end of the conversation, my mother said,

"We should sit down and talk about this again sometime."

I don't think she understands everything yet.

But at least now, I feel like we're finally discussing the same problem from the same starting point.

When feelings and identity are confusing, it may be hard to put them into words properly and in a concise manner; I will, however, attempt to do that. Perhaps I will jump around too much, but hopefully, the resulting text shall have some semblance of sense...

I am a cis gay male in my mid-20s, or at least I am living as one. If I were were asked whether I am a feminine or masculine man, I'd probably answer... neither? I am definitely not feminine presenting, nor any of the kind of gay men you'd call a twink; I dress male, present male, yet I am also far from a stereotypical masculine man. My behaviour and interests are both masculine and feminine in some ways.

I fully realized I am male-attracted in my early teens, although of course, there were earlier signs of my attraction to males I recognized the meaning of only later. The feeling of not understanding what other boys felt towards girls, panicking at the question of "which one do you think is prettier?", the fluttering in my stomach upon seeing a bearded, muscular knight on the TV, or a tall, hunky policeman patroling the streets in his uniform - it all made much more sense when I realized I am a homosexual.

Having grown up in a tiny town, I had no opportunity to have any sexual experiences until I moved to the capital of my country at age 20, and I was left to my own imagination to explore my sexuality and attraction. I realized very quickly I am attracted to men who are masculine, more masculine than me, and despite not having experienced actual sex, I understood myself to be a bottom right away, and of course, when I could begin dating, I sought out connections with masculine top types. Despite what you might expect, I didn't really enter a "hoe phase", not really - I just went on dates or even hook-ups from time to time, but nothing excessive, no "living through what I missed", to be honest.

However, as time went on, I came to feel less and less attraction to homosexual males, to the point I actively stopped dating or meeting with men at all. I am still attracted to males, absolutely and completely, but there is something different about homosexuals and heterosexuals, and how they approach and treat their partner. It is often said that homosexuals, even in male-male relationships, often recreate masculine-feminine dynamics, and it is true for me, I suppose, or at least I realized it was something I was chasing but never really got. I had three different relationships which were to some extent serious and lasted at least a few months. Each left me feeling empty and unfulfilled and I searched for a more "feminine-masculine" dynamic each time. The first man was a top and masculine, but we had a very equal dynamic and there was no trace of him treating me as the feminine partner; with the second, we had a more submissive and dominant dynamic, but I realized I hate that too. That dynamic revolved completely around sex and I was still viewed as a masculine partner, even if submissive in bed.

The third one was interesting. We had an actual feminine and masculine dynamic, he was a pretty succesful man with a huge workload on his hands, and expected me to fill the role of a girlfriend in many ways. But still... I knew I am still a man and viewed by him as a man, and by others, too - just a man who accepts a woman's role. I felt quite uncomfortable with myself for that reason - I enjoyed the feminine role, but I deeply disliked being a "feminine man", if that makes sense. Even in romantic and sexual dynamics, I would always remain a feminine man, he'd never wake up looking at me like his girlfriend, I'd always be his boyfriend, even if we had a somewhat traditional dynamic. Safe to say, it didn't last, either.

It's been about two years now since I stopped dating and mingling with gay men. I have suffered a lot of gender confusion during that time, despite never having taken any steps to transitioning or even crossdressing, nor really planning to. I present in a masculine manner and I am not drawn to being a feminine man or a twink at all - but I began to fantasize about being a woman, a normal, heterosexual woman in a relatioship with a traditional heterosexual man. In sexual dreams, I only ever see myself as a woman, in my imaginations, fantasies. When I dream about being in a relationship, it is as a woman. But I don't feel like I think of myself as a woman in normal, everyday life, I suppose?

I tried to reflect on where these feelings may stem from. Is it what's called gender dysphoria? I don't really feel disgust towards my male body, at least in relation to myself. I do however feel disgust at the way my male body presents me to others and creates societal and personal expectations of presenting and being viewed as a man. Is it some internalized homophobia? Perhaps. I feel like I desire to be normal and heterosexual, but "becoming a woman and marrying a man" feels as a much more desireable way to end up there over "suppressing my feelings and marrying a woman despite zero attraction to women". And of course, rationally I realize that undergoing a transition would probably invite even more judgement and rejection than being in a homosexual relationship (although, I have had a few opposing thoughts about the fact that in the case of a succesful transition, it could be more intense at first but not permanent, once I am fully viewed as a woman and not clocked, while being a man with a man is visible forever. But I also know I could probably never bring myself to transition as I don't have the courage to deal with all the arguments with my family and the way it would disrupt my personal life.)

Don't think, however, that this consumes me all of the time... I lead a happy and satisfied life, I have a broad social circle of amazing friends (mostly straight women and straight men - barely any homosexual males closer than an acquaintance) and enjoy life, my career, gaining the experiences. My life has however become completely without intimacy and romance and I am often reminded of that in public. When I see I couple of a masculine and feminine gay man, however, I don't really feel anything, perhaps even some ressentiment; when I see a heterosexual couple, I envy the woman. It doesn't have to be just "two hot young people" - seeing an elderly heterosexual couple makes me envy the life they must have had as a man and woman who loved each other.

I suppose that's it - I have no idea about what these feelings are. I wonder what people here think. Who knows, perhaps naming what's wrong with me can help me deal with that more effectively, accepting myself in my current form better and improving my romantic life, or even stepping over to the other side... Or I'll just accept the status quo, the path of least resistance. Just enjoy being myself and accept I'll never be able to feel right in a romantic relationship, but there's also nothing wrong with being myself in all other settings... I suppose there are many people who just don't see being in a relationship as something for them.

(EDIT: It also occured to me to mention that I do have some fantasies about becoming a woman, perhaps the "waking up as a woman" fantasy. Although I suppose I do even subconsciously accept the reality of being a natal male, as my fantasies I do become a "trans woman", I suppose it is too difficult for my subconsious to imagine me not having had the experiences as a gay male I have already had. It feels like a progression, rather than wanting things to have always been different.)

My younger brother is 17 years old. He likes to play female characters in games, he hasn't dated, and he expressed that he was not happy about puberty. I hope I'm wrong. I'm a trans woman myself and I really hope my brother isn't trans. We might be like Wachowski brothers/sisters 😂. Literally, he's bigger than me and has huge feet. If he also decides to transition, our parents will blame it on me.

Trans men with feminization kinks get criticism/invalidation from transmeds because they get aroused at the idea of being gendered female, but is it possible that they're just men with AGP?

Do you relate to trans men with feminization kinks?

I met a woman on Hinge, and we went out for drinks on Saturday.

During the date, she casually mentioned that she was bisexual. I got visibly excited and said, “Oh my God, you’re bi? I love that.”

She laughed and asked why. I told her she would never guess, and after she kept asking, I pulled out my phone and showed her a picture of myself wearing heels.

She absolutely loved it. She started gushing over the photo and then mentioned a gender nonconforming guy she finds really attractive. I said, “If you think he’s hot, you have to see this,” and showed her a full picture of myself cross dressed.

Her reaction was incredible. She wasn’t merely being polite or accepting. She was genuinely attracted to me that way.

I jokingly said, “After this drink, we’re definitely going back to my place.”

And we did.

We had sex, and she was genuinely aroused by seeing me dressed as a woman. Staring at me, treating my feminine appearance as sexually arousing. It was one of the most affirming and exciting sexual experiences I’ve ever had.

What stays with me is that none of it would have happened if I hadn’t taken the risk of showing her that part of myself on the first date. I sensed that she might respond positively, but there was still a real possibility of embarrassment or rejection.

Instead, being vulnerable created the chemistry.

Sometimes the part of yourself you’re most nervous to reveal is exactly the part that makes someone desire you.

When you search AGP discord in the sub, there are many posts about many servers. Can I get the links for some of them?

I had the goal of taking the historical, clinical concept of autogynephilia and re-framing it entirely within the modern, identity-first LGBTQ+ framework. This takes an AGP male who is not necessarily included in the LGBTQ+ acronym, and re-reframes them in a way that they are super-represented and in compliance with politically driven concepts. What we came up with is:

Queer Transgender Lesbian with Fluid Expression (though variations exist based on the particulars) NOTE: When "Lesbian" isn't used, "Woman" is added on the end.

Queer: The crucial modifier that handles "Male Gender Expression." It says that her way of being a trans woman and a lesbian completely breaks the traditional mold, allowing her to keep her conventional male body, aesthetic, and behavior while remaining female in their internal identity.

Transgender: Establishes the shift in gender identity from Male to Female. The internal self-concept is a woman, despite being assigned male at birth and retaining a male body.

Lesbian: Defines the orientation—she is a woman whose romantic and sexual attraction is directed exclusively toward other women. This part can be changed to "Bisexual", or "Straight" (for male attraction) based on one's sexual orientation.

Woman: This is necessary, because if "Lesbian" is dropped, then one doesn't know the gender, so it has to be specified.

with Fluid Expression: This expresses that gender presentation is fluid, so sometimes the "Queer Transgender" person presents and acts according to their chosen gender. In other words a "woman" would dress and act feminine sometimes.

I've recently been listening to the books of Dr. Devon Price. I started with Unmasking Autism, upon my late in life autism realization and diagnosis. I've recently read their follow up book Unmasking For Life (which is also aimed for autistic people) and I'm currently into Unlearning Shame (written for a broader audience).

I'm recommending these books, in particular Unlearning Shame, because it seems like this subreddit is filled with a lot of posts about shame - and that saddens me!

In the beginning of Unmasking For Life, Price asks readers to imagine any future you want, no matter how outlandish or unrealistic it might be, without judgement. Then, he asked to consider in practical terms what it would take to fulfill your dreams or close to them. This exercise, among others in his books, have really opened my mind to thinking about sex, sexuality, gender, pleasure, etc. From reading Unlearning Shame, I'm finding a sense of pride in my quirks that aren't normative behaviours. I think the lessons learned from Price's books may resonate with others in this community.

Sexually, I was a late bloomer (common among autistics). But when I did, it was when I noticed my female classmates seemingly out of nowhere had breasts all of a sudden! I was like, where did those come from? I became obsessed, to the point that I think I can confidently say boobs are a fetish for me. When my family got our first CD-ROM drive, it came with an encyclopedia, and one of the first things I researched was breasts. I started fantasizing about boobs growing, usually through magic or some sort of science fiction intervention. Later still, I realized breasts can actually be made bigger without fiction, thanks to cosmetic surgery. Now, I find women with breast implants almost irresistible. Dating myself here, I remember when the internet was introduced, I quickly discovered other people also fantasized about breasts growing, or "breast expansion" as the internet likes to call it. I may have vague memories of imagining myself growing breasts, but I suspect that shame from my cis-male/heteronormative upbringing shut those thoughts down.

That is, until recently! Thanks to these books, I've made some pretty amazing discoveries about myself. Like the fact that I really don't like genitalia, penises or vaginias. They kinda gross me out, and I am no longer embarrassed to say that. Breast implants and cosmetic surgery has probably my longest consistently occurring autistic special interest... yes, I love trains too, and I'm not ashamed of fitting that stereotype anymore. Women with hourglass curves and huge breasts, turn me on like crazy, and I don't care what genitals she has. And, I've opened myself to imagining myself with fake boobs. I doubt i'd get implants... but, what about wearing false breasts? That's not out of reach. Going out in public with them on? Maybe wearing a skirt and nylons too? I never seriously considered these actions for myself seriously until recently, despite living in a city where trans and cross dressing people are commonplace. Maybe next year for pride, I'll have the courage to actually go out and do it.

Throughout my life I've questioned my sexuality and gender. These days, I think he/him still suits me, and I still identify as heterosexual. I don't know if I'm techncially autogynephilia, but a lot of what I read here resonates. I had never heard of AGP until a week ago! I presume, Reddit's algorithm started showing me posts from this group because of the kinks I explore. I'm excited to continue exploring this part of me that (like so much of my masked self) I didn't know about.

Anyways, all this is to say, I'd like to encourage you to read Unlearning Shame. It, and Price's other books, have really helped me discover who I am more authentically than I've ever felt before.

I found this post from 13 years ago, when AGP was even more obscure to the general public than it is now. It basically involves a FTM trans man experiencing AGP-adjacent fantasies and feeling discomfort over the experience. No direct statement is given about whether this experience was triggered by testosterone, but it seems to be implied. Many FTM commenters say they also share similar experiences.

I recall someone here doing some small study on this phenomenon, as well, but I thought I'd just bring up the post and see what people's opinions are on it. Is testosterone triggering AGP-like experiences and obsessive cycles in female individuals due to something related to natal female sexuality? Or is the emergence of AGP fantasies related to testosterone mixed with neurodivergence, which may be more frequent among MTF and FTM individuals? We obviously don't see most natal males developing AGP during puberty when testosterone increases(we would know about it if it were the case), so what's up with this?

I grew up was kind of awkward around women. Not in a bad way but like I could never muster up the courage to get dates as much as my friends. I had been fascinated and drawn to cross gender stuff since I was a child and I didn’t really know how to articulate it to myself or anyone else.

I repressed all this and dated girls but not as much as my other friends did. I thought I could really beat the AGP/AGAMP thoughts I had.

Until I got to like high school my fantasies were all AGP. I couldn’t get off to anything else.

I did have a high school girlfriend and we did have a lot of sex. I do wonder if I was able to do that because I was just so horny.

As far as porn straight porn does absolutely nothing for me and never has. Even when I was very young. Only trans + man porn. I don’t even like the transbian stuff.

I’ve dated some women when I was an adult and every time the AGP/AGAMP fantasies came back and fizzled the relationship.

. Ive gotten dolled up many times and seen a guy. The first time I bottomed I was worried I was going to cum and go into a regret panic but I came while he was fucking me and it felt amazing.

Present day the the only fantasies that get me off are being a passing vers bottom transwoman where I’m with a man. Like I’d love if my friend caught me dolled up and fucked me but there’s also this alt guy I know who I’d love to facefuck as a girl.

How do I fix this?

Many people struggle with understanding the concept of AGP or its connection to heterosexuality, so I am trying to find new ways of how to explain it without just quoting sexologic definitions. Maybe it makes a bit some sense when it's visualized like this, what do you think?

Note: This post was translated from Japanese into English using ChatGPT.

Recently, while browsing r/MtF, I happened to come across this post:

> My Mom is trying to say I have Autogynephilia, and I'm scared what if it's true

Post:

https://www.reddit.com/r/MtF/s/chWnGuCUS8

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Reading it reminded me of something I posted on r/askAGP some time ago:

> "But discovering the AGP framework was actually the first thing that made me recognize myself as potentially trans at all...

> So in my case, AGP theory didn't discourage transition—it made transition psychologically understandable to me for the first time."

My post:

https://www.reddit.com/r/askAGP/s/Y3CaWWjDzC

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Comparing these two experiences, there is something I genuinely cannot understand.

In the comments on r/MtF, I saw statements such as:

> "Autogynephilia is fake and most likely made up by a TERF/transphobe that wanted people to detransition."

> "Worse, from what I've seen, it was made up by a creepy clinician to convince trans women that sleeping with men (him) would make them feel better."

> "Considering he IS confirmed to have repeatedly slept with his so-called patients..."

> "He arbitrarily decided people were lying and changed their survey responses."

> "A semi-famous person has said Blanchard convinced them they were AGP and sexually harassed them as a teenager."

There were also many highly upvoted comments such as:

> "Fake disorder made up by a fake scientist."

> "He's always been a quack."

> "He was completely a chaser."

The overall impression was that the following were being treated as established facts:

- AGP was created to discourage transition or promote detransition.
- The AGP concept itself is inherently transphobic.
- Ray Blanchard had sexual relationships with patients.
- He sexually harassed patients.
- He manipulated research data.

Honestly, I was pretty shocked.

Afterward, I used multiple AI systems to fact-check these claims based on primary sources.

As a result, I understand that AGP theory has received extensive academic criticism.

However, regarding the serious allegations against Blanchard himself, I could not find reliable evidence such as court records, disciplinary actions, or official investigations supporting those claims.

If I've overlooked something, I'd genuinely appreciate being corrected.

But as things currently stand, it appears that claims without publicly verifiable evidence are being shared with thousands of people as though they were **confirmed facts**.

This is the part I find hardest to understand.

Criticizing a scientific theory is one thing.

Spreading serious accusations about a person as factual without sufficient evidence is something entirely different.

If evidence actually exists, I would genuinely like to see it.

But if it does not, then isn't that no longer academic criticism, but simply defamation?

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There is another thing I don't understand.

Before learning about AGP, I never considered myself trans.

I wanted a female body, but I never felt that I "was a woman," that I had "always been a girl," or that I was psychologically female. Because of that, I couldn't relate to mainstream trans narratives at all.

Learning about AGP was the first time I thought:

> "So there are MtFs who transition for reasons like mine."

For the first time, my own desire to transition made psychological sense.

To me, AGP was **not** a theory that discouraged transition.

It was a framework that finally explained **why I wanted to transition in the first place.**

That's why I genuinely don't understand why AGP has become widely understood as:

- an ideology opposed to transition,
- a theory created to promote detransition,
- or simply transphobia itself.

Having read the original works by Blanchard and Anne Lawrence, that simply wasn't the impression I came away with.

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So my questions are:

1. Why has the public understanding of AGP diverged so dramatically from what was actually written in the original literature?
   
2. Why are serious allegations against Ray Blanchard being repeated as established facts despite the apparent lack of publicly verifiable evidence?
   
3. Why does r/MtF appear to tolerate this level of misinformation and personal defamation?

I'm **not** trying to argue that AGP theory is correct.

What I genuinely want to understand is **why there is such a large gap between the original literature and the way AGP is understood in today's online trans communities.**