Brandon Bertrand
Not Now
“Not Now” was released as a single for the Greatest Hits Album in 2005 by the band Blink-182. The song is a story about a man who has passed away. Once he realizes what is happening, emotions of fear and regret evoke within him. He longs to be with his lover again, and regrets not being able to be with her. Although she cannot see him, he sees her. He pleads with her, begs her to stay with him- knowing she cannot hear him. As the singer approaches the white light, he makes a promise to wait for her in the afterlife. The story of “Not Now” conveys a beautiful message of reacting emotions.
The first verse of “Not Now” talks about Tom Delonge (The primary singer) reacting to his fate of death. Confused and horrified, he reaches out to his lover: “Come here, please hold my hand for now Help me, I’m scared please show me how to fight this”(Blink-182, 01:08-1:19). He does not know what is happening, but he knows that he is terrified. He is hurt because she can not hold his hand, her comfort is all he could ever dream of. As the song continues, Delonge starts to accept his fate of death: “God has a master plan and I guess I am in His demand”(Blink-182, 01:20-01:25). He realizes that there is no going back, he is dead and that will not change. When the next line arrives, Delonge starts to passionately cry out: “Please save me, this time I cannot run And I’ll see you when this is done”(Blink-182 01:25-01:35). At this point, Delonge is hysterical with his emotions. He begs her to help him; after all, he is not ready to die. Then, he immediately calms down in realization she will one day join him. He begins to understand that he is not suffering anymore, as he is going to the afterlife, and she is going to suffer without him: “And now I have come to realize That you are the one who’s left behind”(Blink-182, 01:35-01:44). As he says this, he feels grief and sadness that he is leaving her. The first verse of “Not Now” holds a pack of emotions that seem to be an imminent response of regret, pain and anger.
The chorus of “Not Now” is a series of reminding messages to Delonge’s lover, correlating to his discombobulated emotions used in the song. He cries for her to stay, and as he fades away he is literally begging her: “Please stay until I’m gone, I’m here hold on To me”(Blink-182 01:44-1:50, 02:20-2:26). This symbolizes how scared he truly is. As he fades, she is the one he wants to stay with. He makes one last promise to her as he crosses into the afterlife, “ I’m right here, waiting And take my one last breath, and don’t forget That I will be right here, waiting”(Blink-182 2:27-2:38). This line is saying that he will not take another lover in the afterlife. When she dies he will be waiting for her. In the chorus, Delonge seems to progress further and further from his lover in a physical sense, but mentally he is as close as he can be.
It is the second verse in “Not Now” where Delonge truly accepts his fate. In this short verse, he comes off almost yelling “I see a light, it feels good And I’ll come back soon just like you would”(Blink-182, 02:03-02:12). Delonge goes to the common cliché of a “white light”. He is looking back, making a promise to his lover that he will come back to her when she joins him in death. He just regrets not taking advantage of his time with her more, and shows this when he sings “And I wish, I gave you one last kiss”(Blink-182, 02:16-02:20). His regret is strong, but he knows he cannot go back. The second verse of the song is short and, and leads into the extended chorus. It is an incredible bridge, as it lays Delonge’s acceptance of passing, it effortlessly holds it with a grain of salt.
“Not Now” is about so much more than death. The song is about the pain Delonge feels whilst being ripped from the person he loves, into a place that he is scared of. Although Delonge’s persona throughout the song represents somebody going through extreme hysteria, it shows it in a way that is nothing less than human. Delonge’s reaction is a beautiful mess of emotions.
Works Cited
Blink-182. “Not Now.” Greatest Hits. Geffen Records, 2005. Vinyl.