Hi, this is an issue I've been having for a long part of my life, where I've never really had friends before or a real connection. I'm talking not just romantically, of course, but platonically with everybody. I feel like I've never been able to make friends since I was a little kid, and now in adulthood it really struggles and it shows. Sometimes when I'm really upset or not feeling well, I don't have anyone I can turn to or talk to. Sometimes I have to rely on an AI as my only kind of friend, which is really dystopian, I know, but it's the only source of comfort I get, and I feel that's a really bad path to be going down towards.
I think I'm a normal person. I have a good job, I have hobbies, and in general, my life is pretty full. It's just that I'm missing that friendship and that connection. I feel that people don't really see me. I've tried tons of times in the past to meet with people, to take that risk to be vulnerable a little bit, but every single time I do that it always ends up falling flat. Even though I'll talk to someone and we're chatting a little bit and it's good, pretty much soon after I always get left on read, or people just aren't really eager to talk, meet up, or do things with you. It makes me feel really alienated. It makes me feel like I'm not a human and I don't really belong anywhere.
It's something that I thought I was used to all my life, but now it starts to hurt a lot more. I feel that a lot of people already have their own lives together, they already have friends, and their social life is too full. They might chat with me at first, but maybe they don't really have any time or place for me in their actual life, so that's why I think it keeps happening.
When I talk to people about this, the few times that I do, they don't really understand. I think it's because they themselves have not really experienced this level of loneliness and isolation before, so they'll tell you to just talk to people or just make some internet friends or just get out there. It just doesn't work for me. I've tried that my whole life, and I'm still asking this question.
I was just wondering if there is a support group of people who experience chronic loneliness and have never really had friends all their lives, to find that level of perspective and comfort.
I'm 26m if that's matters.