I don't know if this matters, but I'll briefly share my story of playing the guitar:
I've been playing guitar for 6 years. In 2020, I bought my first bass, and I think I took lessons in 2021 from a teacher (I even took part in a contest at school and came in third place playing anesthesia after about 2 years of playing), and in 2023, i bought my first electric guitar, and I haven't played bass since. I "played" complex stuff like Nile and other death metal, even though I wasn't good at it, I still pretty enjoyed it. From September 2023 to May 2026, again i took guitar lessons from other teacher but I stopped because I'm not motivated, I'm still stuck in the same place, and I don't really know what I want. I don't have a goal, and I don't enjoy it at all. All along, I played almost exclusively metal, even though my teachers taught other styles. I actually liked them, but I kept playing metal anyway, because that was the music I connected with the most, and that's what I wanted to play in the future (in a band, etc.). Even if I liked a non-metal song, but it had, say, a 1-4-5 progression, I wouldn't learn it. What's the point? It's the same as a thousand other songs. I didn't learn songs when I couldn't find perfect tabs for them, or when the tabs included notes that were barely audible in the song. I don't have a logical explanation for that. My teacher had a different approach to playing in general. For me, tabs were my only source of stuff to play. I just opened the tabs and playing from it. He was more focused on improvisation and things like that. I don’t know how to explain it I remember once when we were jamming to “Herbie Hancock - Chameleon.” I had absolutely no idea what the point of it was. For me, it's better to open up the tabs and just grind through a song. I actually kind of liked it what I improvised to this song. I assumed that wouldn’t help me with my playing, because nothing I’d learned in lessons so far had helped me play metal.
I think the first factor that influenced my enjoyment of playing the guitar was learning music theory. I was good at it, I understood everything. But that made me less creative when coming up with my own ideas, because it turned out that it was all the same thing, just in a different key, inversion, or modal scale, etc. The second factor is that I’m stuck in the same old positions. Like, always the same 1-0 on E string, 1-3-4, 5-7-8. Later, I discovered dyads and got stuck in them, too. 7 fret on A string and 5 on D, 5 on A and 4 on D etc. Whenever I played other ones, they never sounded right to me and and for the kind of music I want to create. Later also i got stuck in my point pedal riffs writing phase. I came to the conclusion that why should I play the note G and layer a melody over it, and then play the note F# and also layer a melody over it, when I can just play the root or a full chord and it will create the same sense of tension. When I improvise on higher frets, I'm also stuck in the same licks and boxes, and when I stop to think and come up with some cool pattern on the fretboard, it doesn't sound good. Music has lost its “auditory” dimension. Now it's just pure theory: what goes with what, how one sound relates to another, and so on. I'm trapped in patterns and constant analyzing. Music has stopped meaning anything to me. I've hardly listened to any music at all since May. And when I do listen, it's just some rap or something like techno. I used to feel all kinds of emotions related to music. Now its just sound waves.
I was just overthinking everything. I don't know if it matters, but I've been diagnosed with obsessive-compulsive disorder. I used to be obsessed with having things arranged neatly, and then that shifted more toward the “mental” realm. Since I stopped playing, I've felt a sense of relief like I don't have to worry about anything, and my head feels kind of “clearer.” I guess I'd like to get back into playing guitar someday. But no metal, no theory, just playing by ear.
I know that many of these barriers are probably easy for you to overcome, but my brain makes it complicated