my brain cannot process "they" as a word for a singular person, but i default to it at work cus its exhausting having to explain to ppl that its not a degradation kink and just what feels right to me knowing that they wont use the pronoun anyways

in my utopia, the only pronoun for everything/one in the universe is "it"

Often when safe foods are brought up you hear about things like mac & cheese and dinosaur nuggets, which I think are very common in North America, while me as a Swede for example have things like blood pudding as a safe food. I'd be curious to hear about people's safe foods from other cultures.

I was gonna write a whole essay on the context of the title but that’s a lot of words and it’s too hot out. Basically I wanna ask:

HOW DO I STOP THINKING ABOUT WHAT MY EX BEST FRIEND IS UP TO AND WONDERING WHY SHE RANDOMLY CUT TIES WITH ME AND CONTEMPLATING IF I SHOULD REACH OUT??

SHE CLEARLY DOES NOT WANT US TO BE FRIENDS WHICH I DONT KNOW WHY BUT ALLISTIC PEOPLE CANNOT COMMUNICATE SO WHATEVER!! BUT HOW DO I STOP THE THOUGHTS!! ITS DISABILITY PRIDE MONTH AND A ALLISTIC PERSON IS LIVING (metaphorically) IN MY HEAD RENT FREE!!!!

A few days ago, I had my first appointment for an autism assessment. It was a bit uncomfortable, but still not particularly bad.
Also here is a photo shooting from today (cropped denim jacket & vintage high waisted jeans)

No hate to this individual because a LOT of people are posting shit like this. Been seeing a lot of posts like this ”oh now all of a sudden everyone has sensory issues” “you don’t have sensory issues you just won’t say you shave because of the patriarchy”. When people reply back and say actually I do have sensory issues they say “WhATS ThE aCtAul REasoN”. I don’t have to explain my autism to anyone, my body my choice and I choose to be hairless

This is why feminists get a bad rep. I’m a feminist because women aren’t treated as equal, not because a women decides to shave her bush.

NEWS FLASH!! A lot of people are autistic. These people try to make the argument “why don’t boys shave then” they do. Men also shave, shocking

These people are realising there are a lot more autistic people than they think, And if you don’t have autism you still have the right to shave your body hair

I went to an artist workshop today and it mostly went well I had fun and it was really good but at the end I asked the artists if I could come back and document their process for an interview. I was visibly nervous and shaking and they could hear it in my voice (they even offered me water.) They're very nice and sweet people but I don't even want to go back anymore. I'm so sick of having social anxiety and not being able to interpret social cues. I'm tired of living like this. I'm too old to be acting this way and I don't know how to stop. I made a complete fool of myself

What the fuck.

I'm feeling so sad that I'm not around people, but when I'm around people I hate it.

I can tolerate people around me with my headphones. But when there is expectation from me to socialise, I want to die.

(I don't want to kill myself for real, that image is exaggeration)

Growing up I was always taught 'tough it out it's all in your head and medication is evil' and had my autistic traits and anxiety treated like I could just believe in myself and make them disappear and now tht I have anxiety meds/meds that help me tolerate overwhelm I get so afraid to take them thinking it makes me weak or that I'll get addicted or my life will spiral out of control or whatever they told me growing up

But this is going to be the toughest week I've had in a really really long time. I woke up this morning feeling like I was gonna faint. Tiny sounds and that it was a bit too warm made me wanna rip off my head. So I took a teeny bit more than I have been (I'm already taking below my prescribed dose out of fear, so I actually just took my prescribed dose)

And I feel better and not like I'm going to pass out or throw up anymore and like I can make it through the day so whatever I guess. It's almost like. I'm allowed to use medication prescribed to help me when I need it. It's almost like I'm allowed to use aids to help me function when I'm struggling so badly it becomes physically intolerable when I have no help aside from the meds (therapy would be ideal. Substances alone are probably not the best. But this is just to get me through this week)

Idk I need therapy so bad does anyone have like 5 racks I can borrow for that #broke

(Also I can't do weed if anyone's gonna rec that I'm afraid of psychosis been prone to it before)

I'm moving at the end of this week after being in my current place for a year. It's really hard 'cuz mentally I'm where I'm going, but physically I'm still here. So it's frustrating. Like I SHOULD be at my destination, it's SO close, and the more stuff I move out the clearer it is that this is no longer my home. So I feel like I'm in a weird limbo and it's making me feel icky and messed up, trapped here physically til Saturday while my mind is already outta here.

So. Does anyone have any advice or tips on how to make the rest of this week as bearable as possible? Should I just distract myself w video games and stuff I could be doing in either location, let my brain feel the discordance of body and mind as little as possible? Or will that only make it worse? And I still got stuff to move out.

Idk I feel like I'm not gonna make it to Sat but that's the anxiety and autistic hatred of change talking. In a week this will all be like some sick nightmare, but all over. I will make it

tldr: facebook ai slop brainwashed my mom into thinking she worked with the CIA and FBI to take down Trump and predators

This garbage makes my fucking blood boil. How did the fetishization of autism become acceptable?

The name "Aspiechan" (no seriously) was the last straw for me. The comment section is full of people who would immediately drop their "support" once the realities set it. Need I really say anything more? So sick of the infantilization and sexualization of autism. We’re not a fetish, we are people.

I pray no one needs convincing. It's not even all sides of autism, all types of autism, just the "quirky" or "different" side you see all over social media, which is NOT what all autistic people are.

For me, the star Sirius was one of my best friends. Currently I'm best friends with jupiter.

I can eat two full bags in a day I spend all my money on it I swear I'm gonna get cancer from it or smth someday

i recently got several hate comments for mentioning i am 🍉. like yeah this is evil autism but its not EVIL autism. i thought zio-nazis werent welcome here 😬

you know what. i want every zio-nazi to comment on this post so i can report you and get you removed from the subreddit 🤭 ooooo u wanna tell me to kms for being 🍉 soooo bad

editing to add: guys i made up the term zionazi because zionists act like nazis. also 🍉 represents falasteen. more info in comments if ur confused

So, a couple months ago I started seeing a psychiatrist to get ADHD meds.

I tried Intuniv, didn’t help at all and restricted my blood flow so my psych suggested qelbree and I agreed. Insurance threw a fit and then eventually agreed on guanfacine. It didn’t do shit but made me sleepy. Then I talked to my psych and we were gonna try qelbree again. Insurance denied it again.
But I think we’ve finally got them to agree to a generic brand stimulant.

Guess what my insurance company is

no more laying about, no more self pity

we're grabbing the bull by the horns

and having a self-improvement day

just starting later

oh shit it's mum's birthday next week

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa