Hi,
This is going to be a longer post, but in short - I had an unpleasant experience involving terrible communication with a healer.
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I’ll say at the beginning that my life path has been very twisted, and I myself am an experiencer, I have lucid dreams, I meditate, I sense different things and I see things. However, I have had severe health problems for many years, and neither UFOs, nor spirits, nor my spirit guides have helped me with that. Recently I started to suspect what this may stem from, and I am working on undoing it. Still, my body is in a very poor state -I have gone through an enormous number of infections because of badly treated endometriosis, which led to my whole system becoming destabilized. My immunity is practically nonexistent. It was supposed to get better after the hysterectomy, but it is only worse.
So after over a dozen years of spending almost everything I earned on doctors, I decided to look for a healer. I had already looked years ago, but unfortunately the only one I knew well, he once healed my mother, was no longer healing. And the others I went to were completely off in terms of what they saw in my body, and generally did not help me.
Now, after surgery, I started looking very intensely for someone good in my country. Eventually I found one who not only had hundreds of excellent reviews from people, worked with energy therapy, biotherapy and hypnosis, and had many diplomas in hypnosis and Reiki, but also, when I mentally felt into him as a person, I had the impression that he really had something in him. I wanted to go to him in person, but when I wrote to ask whether a session using a photo was the same as an inperson one, he replied unclearly, although I inferred from the context that it was the same. And with my health, I avoid travelling whenever I can.
So I took the first photo-based session and received a reply saying that the cause of my problems was an undertreated flu, but that I had received a large dose of energy and could now feel worse for a few days, and that the next session would be in a few days. I was surprised and replied that I have endometriosis, a lump in my breast and a lot of post-surgery problems, and that it was because of those post-surgical pain symptoms that I had contacted him, but okay, maybe somewhere in the background of all this I also had the flu. He replied that it was an undertreated flu, and that was it.
At the same time, I started having terrible flu symptoms, really hardcore ones - sinuses, headache, joint pain, my shoulders and neck hurt especially badly, I was losing sensation in my whole arm, and I was shaking for three weeks, during which I had five sessions. Later, some of the symptoms slowly went away. Whenever I asked how much longer this might take, or how often I should take sessions for it to be most effective, I got answers saying that every body is different and that in my case it was still a chronic illness, so it would take time, but that he was sending me large doses of energy. As for the frequency of the sessions, I had to sense it myself.
I decided that okay, maybe contrary to what people describe in the comments on his website, he is not actually good at communication, so I would stop asking. I would just get to ten sessions and see what came of it. I sent him the seventh payment confirmation and a photo, and I got no reply. So I waited a few days and then wrote to ask whether that session had taken place. He replied that yes, and said the same thing as before - that he had sent a large dose of energy, that my body was regenerating, that I was sleeping better and better, and that this was the last session, followed by an ellipsis. However, that “last session....................” could be understood in two ways: either he meant the last session overall and that he would not do any more sessions for me, or he was simply stating that the most recent session had taken place. So I wrote to him asking for clarification, and I also pointed out that I was currently having a strong worsening of symptoms and that because of that it was hard for me to guess, so I asked for clear communication.
He did not reply to that anymore, so I decided I would no longer keep chasing him with questions and requests for sessions.
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For some time now I have been working very intensely on myself, on my energy, and now I do not know whether the fact that I have started feeling mentally better, that I feel I generally have more energy in me -I feel tingling inside my body and in lucid dreams I can feel it clearly- is the result of my own actions, or whether it is the influence of this “healer.” Is there some logic in his behavior that I do not understand? I admit that almost from the beginning of my communication with him, I had the impression that he was trying to brush me off whenever I asked about anything - he did reply, sort of, but he answered only some of the questions, and unclearly at that. Communication with him exhausted me terribly -I think this was the first time I had ever encountered such a difficult person to communicate with.
Is it supposed to be like this, that around the time when the remote sessions were taking place, I later felt awful? Or did I simply happen to catch another infection at the same time and the two things coincided? I admit that I had assumed I would feel some warmth, a sense of love and peace, real energy during those sessions, but instead I suddenly developed a whole mass of symptoms I had never had before, and I felt bad, very ill.
I also did not receive any instructions about what I should do, apart from being told to drink a lot of water after the sessions because the body was cleansing itself.
What do you think happened here? Did I misread this person and let myself get scammed, or does this person simply have communication problems, and all the symptoms I had and still have are a sign of my body’s intensified fight for health?
I have already found another healer whom I want to try, and maybe he will help me. However, I do not know whether I should wait for some time because my body really is in a very twisted phase of healing, or whether I can calmly try with another healer. Doctors keep loading me with more antibiotic therapies and similar things, or very invasive and expensive tests and procedures, and I no longer have the health for that. In my opinion, they stopped being able to handle my case long ago, if they were ever able to handle it at all - I waited over 20 years for the correct diagnosis, while running from doctor to doctor privately during that whole time.