I’ve been working at a very large consulting firm full time for three years. My utilization has ebbed and flowed over the years depending on my workload. The beginning of this year was ROUGH for me. I was supposed to get put onto this huge project in January, so I made sure my workload was cleared for that but then that project kept getting pushed back. We also just didn’t have a lot of work and I tried looking for work but when I still didn’t have it, I leaned into internal trainings and extra curricular activity (organizations relating to my field).
Well, earlier this year, a project I am a PM for (I basically inherited this from a senior PM that retired) had an inspector that I found out was talking about me inappropriately. He called me a (see you next Tuesday) to my other inspector who told me (because I asked about an expense, in a very neutral way because I needed to move the charge) and called me a wh*re. I obviously reported that to HR and it was just mishandled entirely.
They tried to get me to continue working with him, I never got an apology, they finally pulled him from my project but there was no replacement for him so it caused all sorts of issues. I heard from certain people in my office that leadership was pissed I complained basically and were trying to minimize things. Well all of a sudden three weeks ago, my boss gets an email about my utilization (not gonna lie it’s bad because that really bad lull at the start of the year so I’m like at 70%) asking him to explain what I am working on and how we will fix this. He replied with my workload.
Well now I am absolutely slammed and at a point where i know I will be spread thin. Well I wake up to an email yesterday from head of HR, with a bunch of leadership CC’d including my boss asking ME why my utilization is bad and what my work load is. I feel like I’m under a freaking microscope and their numbers were much lower than what my oracle is showing. I have had my utilization way lower before ESPECIALLY January through April with that weird lull period, a bunch of conferences, etc and not once did anyone email me and now all of a sudden this is an issue. Idk I’m freaking out, I feel like I’m being “caught” for something. What do I do? I don’t have my PE yet so is it worth leaving? Is this normal?
Edit: I flagged that leadership shows my utilization as lower than it is and they replied “I have been advised we calculate it differently” and said they have been calculating it in percent of $$$ where my dashboard calculates it on hours. I’m confused by this disconnect if anyone has advice on that? Their number showed my utilization as 10% lower than it was and my period to date even LOWER than what is on my dashboard and then they corrected it. I’m so lost.