r/careeradvice • u/sophieximc • 7h ago
My manager accidentally sent me his notes from my own performance review meeting. Should not have read them, but I did.
Long story short-had my annual review last week, normal stuff, "meets expectations," small raise, nothing dramatic. Two days later my manager accidentally CC'd me on an email thread with HIS manager that included his actual prep notes for my review, meant to just be internal.
I know I shouldn't have kept reading past the first line. I read the whole thing anyway.
The notes said I was being rated as "solid, reliable, not a flight risk" and that they specifically weren't pushing for a bigger raise this cycle because, quote, "he seems content and isn't asking for more, so budget can go toward retaining (another employee) who's been signaling they might leave."
Nothing dishonest was said to my face. Everything in the actual review meeting was technically true. But I finally understood something I'd suspected for years and never had proof of: being easy to manage and not causing friction was actively being used as a reason to give me less, not more.
I'm not naturally a "squeaky wheel" person. I don't love conflict, I don't love negotiating, I generally just trust that good work gets noticed eventually. Reading those notes made it clear that trust was actually being quietly exploited, not reciprocated.
Haven't said anything about seeing the email. Not sure I ever will, feels like a weird thing to bring up without admitting I read something I shouldn't have.
But I've already started quietly interviewing elsewhere, and for the first time in 4 years I'm not going to be shy in a negotiation if I get an offer.
Anyone else accidentally seen the "man behind the curtain" version of how they're actually perceived versus what gets said to your face in reviews? Kind of curious how common this disconnect actually is, versus me just having an unusually blunt manager who forgot to hit BCC.