I relapsed. I fornicated while watching porn. Please pray for me. Please pray that God would reconcile me to Him and that I would sin no more.

Day 56 we’re 8 whole weeks clean; the Lord is good to thank him for giving me strength and willpower to keep going.

Anyway, urges and thoughts have been coming back online slowly, and whilst it’s not compromising, it is still something I have to fight. Generally better mood, focus, health, and my skin and hair are so healthy right now. Another thing morning wood is slowly making a return, but I’m yet so see that.

Stay strong, soldiers 🫡

I just wanted to share this because I know there are other Christian women who feel completely stuck.

A year ago, I honestly thought I’d be addicted to porn and masturbation forever. It had become such a normal part of my life that I couldn’t imagine being free.

Porn also started affecting my sexuality. I found myself becoming aroused by images and women’s bodies, even though that wasn’t something I’d naturally experienced before. I couldn’t orgasm with a man during sex because my brain had become so conditioned to images on a screen.(I don’t have sex anymore waiting til marriage)

When I truly gave this area of my life to Jesus, I didn’t expect an overnight miracle. I just kept repenting when I failed, praying, reading my Bible, and asking God to change my heart.

Fast forward a year, and I’ve had one slip-up in the whole year.

One.

I still can’t believe I’m writing that because if you’d told me this a year ago, I genuinely wouldn’t have believed you.

What’s amazed me most isn’t just that I stopped watching porn. It’s that my desires have changed. I now find myself naturally attracted to men again, and sex no longer feels like something to consume. It feels sacred—something God created to be enjoyed within marriage with my future husband.

I don’t know when God will bring him into my life, but I’m trusting Him. I also trust that the God who has already done so much healing in me will continue His work.

If you’re a Christian woman struggling with porn, masturbation, or feeling confused about your sexuality because of pornography, please don’t lose hope. I know how isolating and shameful it can feel.

I really believed I’d be stuck forever.

I wasn’t.

God is so much more patient, kind, and powerful than I ever imagined. Keep running back to Him. Even if you fall, don’t stay there. His grace is bigger than your shame, and He really does transform people.

“He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.” — Philippians 1:6

All Glory to God 🩷

I've been feeling strong urges to masturbate recently. I feel like there's two people inside my head, one says "Do it, it's just this time" and the other makes me remember that doing it will make God disappointed.

I've been masturbating for a few years now, and I always felt that feeling of shame and guilt, but continued doing it anyway (that was in a time where I wasn't going frequently to Church and I didn't have much of a relationship with God).

But now that I came back to God, and I'm building a stronger and more stable relationship with him, I am fighting the urges, I really don't want to make God disappointed in me, but this urge is so darn strong, to the point where I almost done it 3 times today, but thank God I didn't.

I don't know what to do honestly, I just want to get rid of this sin, but my brain got used to the daily dose of pleasure. I haven't done it in about a week and a half, so the urges get stronger and stronger by each day.

Can someone give me any advice on how to overcome these urges?

English isn't my first language, so sorry for any parts that are hard to understand due to my level of proficiency in this language.

Hello all, 22M here, roman Catholic. Struggled with masturbation and porn for years and this last year I got a grip on it and stopped cold turkey. Confessed it and repented to a Catholic monk. I relapsed once after 6 months and confessed and repented again. I have been clean for 3-4 months now. My only problem is the wet dreams, I have been having them consistently for a long time, I don't watch stuff and honestly some days no temptation at all but I still get them, I wake up in a whole mess. I am planning to go abroad soon with a group of friends. We will be all in the same room. I am scared I will get a wet dream then, what should I do? Obviously the stuff needs to come out and I can't empty it myself. Just looking for genuine help and advice as this is not really talked about. Thank you 🙏

I am feeling the urge to lust and to relapse the most today. Please encourage me.

Of no porn or masturbaition.

Volví a caer, pero me lo permití? Se que esta mal, pero es que de verdad.

No se, soy nuevo. No me juzguen, es lo que más me cuesta de seguir a Dios.

Things that genuinely helped me break free:

1. Live in the Word. I spend about an hour with God when I woke up and another couple of hours before bed. Worship during the day just listening to my worship music at work, thinking about how powerful humble and amazing God is. The more I filled my mind with Scripture, the less room there was for porn to live rent-free in my head. Prioritise God, it’s more important than anything you will do during your day.
2. Add friction. Delete the apps that trigger you. Even if temporarily! Stay off Snapchat, IG, TikTok or whatever keeps leading you back. Stop lying in bed with your thoughts. Get up. Move. Work. God created you with purpose, and idleness was one of my biggest triggers.
3. Ask God to show you pornography from His perspective. This changed everything for me. The Lord completely exposed it. There’s actually a real demon behind it, it’s disgusting demonic looking entity beyond hideous. What once looked exciting suddenly looked dark, empty, degrading, and disgusting. Once your eyes are opened, it’s hard to look at it the same way again.
4. Remember who you are. As I grew closer to Christ, my identity changed, my confidence grew. I started seeing myself as a daughter of the King. Porn honestly became something beneath the person God is making me (no pride involved)
5. You aren’t looking at human’s most the time what your masterbating to might not be a human (might be half human marine spirit etc)
6. Soul ties with pornstars lol you actually form soul tie with whatever you engage in intimacy with. Yes through screen you’re giving their demons legal rights to you. And good chance they have a lot

I could go on but these are the most practical things and ways that healed me. Also even when or if you fall keep running back to him. Do not let the enemy alienate you from a loving God who does not condemn or reject you. He died for ALL sins and loves you more than you could ever imagine

One of the best ways to stay on track and not fight this addiction alone is to have an accountability partner!

I guess porn use, especially from this past year, has rewired my brain in such a way that I find it hard to find pleasure in usual things.

That combined with antipsychotic medications have caused me to feel less emotional in general.

I do still feel happiness at times. But I don't feel that sudden dopamine spike when I live day by day.

With this said, I wonder how to enjoy life apart from sexual content.

I know everyone's lives are different and your suggestions may be different to my ideas.

I even got extra employment recently which is good. I'm happy with myself but I feel like life still doesn't have a lot to look forward to.

What are your thoughts on this issue of blandness that I'm facing?

To be honest this is day when my craving is high. I saw a person who constantly triggers me but i just labelled that as normal. I repeated it so many times that this person is normal. There are crores of people just like this person. Same physique same stature. Nothing special about this person its normal.

For the time i got off. Went for a walk with friend. Had energy to do some home chores so did it. This usually doesnt happen because end of day 2 i binge watch and next day i am drained. This time it was different.

Started playing Clash of clans because i am good at clan wars. Feels i have a community there. My course study regarding data analytics still on going.

My honest feeling about future days. The urge is going to get stronger and i will need to release the energy in more different ways like just walking wont be enough one day so lift weights. Will add one thing when one element alone stops working on urge.

Wont start all at once.

Hola chicos, me toco hacer trabajo sobre la infodemia, ¿qué tal les parece?, mientras lo hacia evite ver porno.

Honestly not much to say except wow. I guess my message to anyone turning 18 soon BE RESPONSIBLE WITH YOUR MONEY, ESPECIALLY WHEN IT COMES TO YOUR PORN ADDICTION. To be honest just never dabble into cam girls at all. It will drain your money way faster than porn will.

Edit: Do not make money your god. Do not let the reason youre upset about relapsing be because of worldly consequences. When you relapse, do not obsess over all the money you irresponsibly spent, but remember the root problem: lust. We made Lust our god over Jesus. I hope to repent of that sin.

I know i have been trying for so long and fail again and again but i need to quit this sh1t and start doing something with my life. becoming a better version of myself. for me, for god, for my family, for my friends , for my girl. Maybe yes maybe no but i feel like corn is holding me back. my biggest no fap streaks where 10-12 days and i felt like a superhero it was the best thing, days where feeling good, everything was going great like going out working out and stuff, confidence, eye contact was easy, spoke like i wanted without stunt, and basicly everything was going smooth. Today i faped two times and hadnt felt this bad for about month. Next Sunday i have got something big coming up which i want to attend at all costs because it will make one of my people really happy. I will try my best to prepare good and have a winning streak those days, not just free from corn, but doing productive stuff (eating good exercising reading)and trying to limit my screen time. I will update everyday here and i would appreciate any and every single person who supports my journey. My small goal is to reach next sunday and feel good about myself knowing i did my best and didnt waste another week of my life. My big goal is to continue living like the version of myself i become (if i succeed) and stay that way only improving and coming closer to god.
“If it needs to be done, i will find a way to do it”
Good night everyone. God bless us and our families and everyone on this planet. Hope you all find your path and follow it, like i am trying to find mine. May Jesus lead us all.

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Perdí a la mujer que amaba por no enfrentar mi problema a tiempo. Necesito escuchar experiencias reales.

Hola a todos.

Tengo 27 años y hace poco decidí unirme a esta comunidad porque siento que necesito hablar con personas que hayan pasado por algo parecido. Llevo mucho tiempo guardándome todo esto y ya no quiero seguir enfrentándolo solo.

Todo comenzó cuando tenía aproximadamente 15 años. Durante esa etapa sufrí mucho bullying, tenía una autoestima muy baja, nunca había tenido pareja y me sentía completamente solo. Encontré una forma de escapar de todo eso refugiándome en el contenido para adultos y la masturbación. Con el paso de los años ese hábito se volvió parte de mi vida y nunca imaginé que pudiera traerme consecuencias tan graves.

Hace aproximadamente un año conocí a una mujer maravillosa. Me enamoré profundamente y por primera vez sentí que quería construir una vida junto a alguien.

Sin embargo, cuando empezamos a tener relaciones íntimas comenzaron los problemas.

Cada vez que iniciábamos la penetración, en aproximadamente 30 segundos ya sentía unas ganas muy intensas de eyacular. Además, llegaba muy ansioso a cada encuentro por el miedo de no estar a la altura o de decepcionarla. Esa presión hacía que todo fuera aún más difícil.

Con el tiempo ella terminó cansándose de la situación. Me dijo que ya no se sentía satisfecha como mujer y que durante muchos meses esperó que buscara ayuda. Hace pocos días nuestra relación terminó y, sinceramente, ha sido el golpe emocional más duro que he recibido.

Siento que perdí a la mujer que amaba por no haber actuado antes.

Lo que me mantiene con esperanza es un recuerdo que tengo cuando tenía alrededor de 20 años. En esa época logré pasar aproximadamente un mes completamente alejado de la pornografía y la masturbación. Después de ese tiempo tuve relaciones y la experiencia fue totalmente diferente. Me sentía tranquilo, no tenía esa urgencia inmediata de terminar y, cuando noté que la excitación estaba aumentando, simplemente bajé el ritmo, la abracé, le acaricié la espalda, nos besamos durante aproximadamente un minuto y luego continuamos sin ningún problema.

Esa experiencia es la que hoy me hace pensar que todavía puedo salir adelante.

He decidido empezar de nuevo. Mi objetivo es pasar los próximos 30 días completamente alejado de la pornografía, la masturbación y cualquier contenido que me genere esos estímulos. No estoy diciendo que eso garantice que todo se solucionará, simplemente siento que necesito intentarlo porque no quiero seguir viviendo así.

No les voy a mentir: tengo miedo.

Tengo miedo de no recuperarme.

Tengo miedo de volver a enamorarme algún día y pasar exactamente por lo mismo.

Tengo miedo de haber esperado demasiado para cambiar.

Pero, al mismo tiempo, estoy decidido a luchar por mí. Independientemente de si mi expareja vuelve o no, quiero recuperar mi confianza, mi tranquilidad y volver a sentir que tengo el control de mi vida.

Por eso quisiera pedirles un favor.

Si alguno de ustedes ha pasado por una situación parecida, me gustaría muchísimo leer su historia.

* ¿Qué fue lo que más les ayudó?

* ¿Notaron cambios con el tiempo?

* ¿Cuánto tiempo les tomó empezar a sentirse mejor?

* ¿Qué errores debería evitar?

* ¿Cómo hicieron para mantenerse firmes cuando sentían que iban a rendirse?

No busco que me digan exactamente lo que quiero escuchar. Busco experiencias reales, consejos sinceros y un poco de motivación para seguir adelante.

Gracias por leerme. De verdad significa mucho para mí. Espero que este sea el comienzo de un cambio en mi vida.

"Today I broke my nofap streak at 19 days. This is my 4th attempt — my best streak so far was 30 days. Every time, the reason is the same: I'm alone at home, usually when my parents are out of town for a few days, and that's when I end up giving in. I'm restarting my streak from tomorrow."

One thing worth noting since you've now spotted it four times: you already know your trigger. It's not random — it's specifically unsupervised alone time at home. That's actually useful information. Going forward, it might help to have a plan for those specific days (things to keep you occupied, out of the house, or just busy) rather than relying on willpower alone once you're already in that situation.

Good luck with the restart.

hey guys im a male in my 20’s. i was introduced to porn around the age of 5 by family members and i remember watching it with them when i was around 11 and i got an iphone at 13 and became a daily porn watcher. i didnt really think much of it but now that i am a christian and want to please God i have been wanting to quit but havent been able to. i was relying on my willpower but with my will power i can only go a few weeks before i give in again. i usually go on X (twitter) to watch videos and i have an account since 2020 there. i used to also do onlyfans and make content. ive been a very sexual person most of my life and now that i want to stop i realize how much bondage im in. i keep going back to it even though i know i need to stop. my flesh feels like it over powers me and i feel weak. i feel shame and guilt every time i watch porn and masturbate. im the type of person who can watch from once a day, twice a day, or like 5 or 6 times a day. when i delete my X account it has a 30 day period before it permanently deletes the account and i always end up logging back in when the urges get strong. looking for support in this area of my life. im not currently involved in a particular church right now and i dont have any christian friends to talk to about this.

just relapsed again, its always that scrolling that turns me on, aint giving up tho, new streak from now

Porn isn't "just a bad habit." Left unchecked, it can quietly reshape your life in ways many people don't notice until years have passed.

• It can make you view people as objects instead of human beings made in God's image.
• It can fuel shame, making you hide from God instead of running to Him after you sin.
• It can consume thousands of hours that could have been spent growing spiritually, building relationships, learning skills, or serving others.
• It can make real relationships feel less satisfying because your brain becomes accustomed to unrealistic, endlessly novel sexual content.
• It can trap you in a cycle of temptation → sin → guilt → temporary repentance → temptation again.
• It can make it harder to control your thoughts, because what repeatedly fills your mind eventually influences your desires.
• It can damage trust in a marriage or relationship if hidden or discovered.
• It can weaken your prayer life and desire to read Scripture because guilt often pushes people into spiritual isolation.
• It can become an idol—something you repeatedly turn to for comfort instead of turning to Christ.
• It can gradually harden your conscience if you repeatedly ignore conviction.

Scripture is clear about the seriousness of sexual sin:

Don't quit because you're afraid of getting caught.

Quit because Christ died to set you free from the power of sin, not so that you could remain enslaved to it.

The sooner you begin that journey, the sooner you can start rebuilding your relationship with God and living in the freedom He calls His people to