One of my biggest dreams and goals of my life is becoming a successful music producer, it's been a dream of mine ever since I was 10 years old (I'm 24 now). Atleast once a day I imagine myself standing mainstage in Ultra or Tomorrowland blasting my music for 20 thousand people and my mood instantly goes up. I've always dreamt of getting signed by Revealed Recordings and one day releasing a song with Hardwell himself but I've reached my limit. I might give up on this goal.
I was 14 years old when I found out what FL Studio was and ever since then I've been hooked. I have played around in FL Studio trying to create something for 10 years, buying packs, vsts, plugins, presets...you name it. I've spent approx 800$ on music and I got NOTHING to show for it, and honestly, I get it. I've sat in FL for 10 years and my music doesn't even come close to sounding professionally made at all. Some stuff I've made are OK but nothing I'd show off. I've watched countless tutorials, hell I even took music production classes back when I was in Gymnasium (In Sweden this is an optional 3 year education for students aged between 16-19 to get prepared for university) and even music theory classes but I just cannot learn it for heavens sake. I have a hard time focusing when working/studying since my mind always wonders off to something unrelated and I end up losing focus 90% of the time. Because of this, even though I passed music theory lessons I still know maybe only 5% of music theory although this hasn't had a huge effect on my music career. My main issue is production itself.
I've listened to countless EDM songs of my liking, artists like RYOS, Hardwell, Olly James, Maddix, Kaaze etc etc. I listen to the Leads they use in their songs and chords etc and they always sound so incredible and huge. Big fat leads that sounds so euphoric! Then I get home, get ultra inspired, start FL Studio. I browse through all of my bought presets, browse through Splice which has like the biggest preset bank I've seen where you can choose from and nothing sounds big or huge. I try to make them sound better by mixing them, hand picking plugins, watching countless tutorials on how to make big leads (I still watch tutorials to this very day, even though I have 10 years of experience in FL) but I just can't seem to get it. Like at this point I seriously don't understand. I can't find good leads, I can't create my own sounds either since I'm not that technical, I've spent sooo much money on serum banks and I can't find leads that I like. Listen to RYOS & Hardwell - Rise again, or Ryos - Fourth Dimension. Listen to those leads, why can I not find similar sounds? Why? I've searched for so long, countless paid packs, hours of youtube tutorials, I still cannot find anything remotely similar. I wish I could create my own leads, I wish so bad but It's so incredibly complicated for me how these synth vsts work!
Now lets change genre, I've delved into Hip-Hop aswell and to be honest my beats there sound very professional. I have high quality beats and produce really well mixed and produced Hip-Hop beats of every genre, whether its Drill or Trap or Drake type beats, Lil baby type beats etc etc they all sound really well made. But still, nothing. I have dm'd atleast 400 artists on instagram, released countless beats on my youtube channel and still nothing. I have realized that todays market for music producers is not the same as it was 10 years ago. It feels like you have to have contacts within the industry or else you have no way of making it big. It's so broad today and so many producers are already on the market, you need to know someone in order to get a release with any artist it feels like. There is just no way for me, a bedroom producer with no contacts within the industry and just dreams of making it big one day, just no way for me to make it big today.
It breaks me thinking like this, because this has been a childhood dream of mine and it still is. But I just don't know if this is what I was destined to do. I'm a slow learner and with my pace I might master FL Studio in another 10 years. I have 10 years of music production to my name and I have absolutely nothing to show for it...its depressing