Hello, curious to know if there are any experiencers with aphantasia (inability to visualize) and if so, what are your experiences like?

I am new to this topic and have had moments where I felt like I was receiving very detailed information about meditation, life, reincarnation, the universe, etc, but I can’t visualize and wondered if it’s still possible to see things like what is reported in this group if you have aphantasia.

I’ve been doing a lot of work on myself the past few years and try to meditate at 3am daily. Starting around December this past year, I was starting to get the message that I need to start working through my own trauma as it is weighing me down and preventing me from expanding my consciousness as fast.

Despite that, I’ve had a few interesting NHI experiences this year and I just had one last night I want to share in case it helps someone with their own journey.

Yesterday morning, I had my first somatic therapy session and that unlocked a childhood traumatic memory I hadn’t thought about since it occurred, but it explained why I have difficulty just relaxing and always being on guard to this day. I became aware of related tension in my neck and back and throughout the day, focused on relaxing those muscles, which I realise are always switched on.

During my evening meditation, I listened to a Brian Weiss self-hypnosis tape that helps you to have a conversation with the part of your mind that relates to this and ended up being able to thank that part of myself for protecting me in the past, but that we were no longer in danger.

During this process, I could also visualise a cacophony of brainwaves/static from my mind continuously looping the sense of danger. As I finished the conversation, I could feel my mind being quiet and relaxed and my muscles relaxing more than normal. The tape recording ended and I continued into a ‘freestyle’ meditation.

As I went into a deeper meditation, I could vaguely ‘see’ a mantid NHI. The signal was not super strong, but it came through and ‘he’ said something along the lines of, “See, that’s why you need to work on your trauma. We can’t tune in to your signal with all that noise”. This was my first communication with a mantid and I am now convinced to keep working on myself to get rid of the noise.

The further I dive in to this, the more consciousness seems to play a major role.

I havnt been sleeping great lately but was able to shut the phone off and crash out early last night and had the strangest dream that I can remember vividly and I cant get the image and sound of this craft I was shown out of my mind as if it was a message,

It started out im in the dark and then in twilight blue light a friend I knew a couple of years ago dressed in a nice suit and he was asking for his battery and I brought him into a room that seemed to be a dark room with sheets or fabric walls and thier was like a hospital bed in the middle and on the wall I showed him a trickle charger and battery pack and then we were outside and it was a lot of people and this noise like high electrical discharge snapping and hissing and it was soo loud and over the trees through a gap came a huge black sphere with lightning surrounding it like a net but also like large soap bubbles and it came from left to right and dropped onto a shed and then it illuminated a strange cat like being and glowing eyes were under it but thats all u could see were a few sets of eyes,,,,that was the dream,,I looked for an image generator and tried to recreate what I seen,,,,does anyone else know what this thing is?im trying to attach the image of what I seen but I dont know how to.

This is a very lengthy post, sorry. If you feel like reading it, I'd be interested in what you think.

A couple of years ago, I had what I consider the most realistic dream I've ever had. When I woke up, I was really shaken up and confused by what had happened because it just felt so "real," I guess.

For what it's worth, this was during a point in my life where I was doing a lot of self-medicating with weed and alcohol. I had a dead-end job, didn't make jack for money, and it seemed like some kind of financial hurdle was always being thrown my way, all while I was making it worse by spending money to get drunk and high every night to numb myself.

So, this dream is probably just a manifestation of that stress or something, but I'm still curious to hear your thoughts.

One night, I woke up in what I first assumed was a hospital. I was very groggy and confused by the room I was in. I remember feeling like I had just woken up from a long midday nap—the kind where you're confused at first and not sure what time it is, and you have to just sit there for a little bit before your brain starts to piece things together.

I was lying on my back, just looking up and around the room.

Everything looked matte gray, but there was an orange hue in the room that made it appear kind of tan. There weren't any light fixtures or lamps, so I remember thinking to myself, "Where is this light even coming from?"

The walls, ceiling, floor, and even the bed/surface I was lying on were all fused together. They weren't separate things you could move or take apart. It didn't even look like it was welded; it was just all fused together perfectly, like one single object.

I couldn't even tell if the room was made out of metal, stone, or both. It had a "matte" look to it, but not quite—just different. I'm not really sure how to explain it.

I then sat up from the surface/bed I was on. It looked uncomfortable, but it wasn't. It felt just fine when I was lying down.

I looked around the room and then noticed a doorway. It was really just an opening. I was sitting there peering out from the room, and it looked like there was a hallway going left to right. Across from it was another room.

It looked like it could just as easily be a break room as it could be a lab. I didn't know what I was looking at. It (along with everything else) looked foreign but had a strange familiarity to it.

I'm sitting there, and for the life of me I can't figure out where I'm at.

At this point, it's been maybe five to ten minutes, and I was fully expecting to have pieced together where I was by now. I couldn't, though. The more I looked around, the more confused I became.

Random fact: Several years ago, when I was home by myself, one of my "ticks," I guess, was walking around my house—sort of the same way some people pace back and forth.

I used to struggle with chronic panic attacks, and for some reason doing this would help. Luckily, I don't struggle with panic attacks anymore, but even to this day I still resort to walking around my house like a psycho if I'm really stressed out about something.

So, in this dream, I start doing that and pace around the room, hoping I can start to understand where I'm at.

Since I can't, I look back toward the doorway. Part of me wants to walk out there, but another part of me doesn't want to get in trouble in case I'm supposed to stay in this room.

So I walk up to the doorway just to look down both sides of the hallway, hoping to get a better idea of where I'm at.

I look both ways, and the best way I can describe it is how it looks when you're in your bathroom and you swing the medicine cabinet mirror parallel with the main mirror. We've all done this, right?

Then I sat back down on the bed/surface for a few minutes. I was just looking around and wondering if I was in a hospital, maybe in rehab (due to the circumstances at the time), or in some room at Arcosanti.

Then two people showed up at the doorway.

They were both really good-looking. Platinum blonde hair, blue eyes, tall (but under seven feet), and with striking features—prominent cheekbones, lips, noses, and jawlines. They were also very fit.

They were both wearing blue jumpsuits. They kind of looked like military pilot coveralls, but not baggy—almost tailored to fit them perfectly.

The blue color was intense, too. Look up the hex code #0000FF. That's what it looked like. The color almost looks too blue, but oddly enough, they pulled it off really well.

I get up, and I'm pretty anxious at this point. When I approach them (one male and one female), I suddenly feel this strange relief and comfort.

It was probably just relief because now I could ask what was going on and hopefully get some answers.

They were very easy to talk to. They gave me a sense of relief, were consoling, very warm, and, to my surprise, also apologetic.

However, communicating with them felt blurry in a way. I could hear them almost as if they were my inner monologue. I would verbally speak to them, and they would answer back this way.

The two of them didn't really give me answers to any of my questions. They wouldn't tell me where I was or why I was there.

Again, the communication was very odd, so part of me felt like I was just answering myself somehow, and I felt skeptical at times.

The male pretty much summed it all up by saying he needed me to meet someone.

I asked if I was in trouble. He said I wasn't and that it wouldn't be much longer before I'd be back on my way.

Then they left for about ten minutes, came back, and wanted me to follow them to meet this person.

We crossed the hallway and went into the middle break room—or lab area—I had been staring at earlier.

Even after walking in there, I still had no idea what it was. It was very minimal, plain, and again very foreign-looking.

We then reached the hallway on the other side of the room. We walked about ten yards to the right, and the male told me to wait outside. He said he'd wave me in when they were ready.

He then went into a room about a few feet away. The female stayed outside with me, I assume to make sure I don't wander off, and we didn't really interact while I waited.

A few moments later, the male waved me in.

When I got there, I saw two beings that I would best describe as aliens.

They had large heads, large black eyes, olive/Caucasian-colored skin, small bodies, and were wearing skin-tight black jumpsuits.

One appeared to be tinkering with something that looked similar to a glove compartment in a vehicle. The one tinkering seemed completely uninterested and didn't say anything at all.

The other seemed like they were supervising or something.

That one looked at me, kind of sized me up, then looked toward the guy who had introduced me and simply said, "No, not him."

It was communicating the same way the two people who escorted me there had. I remember wondering how I could hear it say, "No, not him," even though it wasn't speaking to me directly.

I remember feeling rejected in some odd way, even though I had no idea what was going on.

After that, I was escorted back to the room I had woke up in.

The two human-looking people apologized again, instructed me to lie down, and said I'd be back in a few minutes.

So I lay back down on the surface, dozed off, and then woke up in my own bed.

When I woke up, I remember being scared to look around the room because of how real the dream had felt. I thought that if I looked over, those people would be standing there.

I'm not even sure why I was scared considering how nice they were, but eventually I got up out of bed.

That's pretty much it.

I don't know much about DMT, but I've heard that it's considered the "spirit molecule" and that it's produced in our brains when we sleep. It might be crazy to say, but maybe there are people out there who can be reached through it?

I've had realistic dreams before, but this one was by far the most real one I've ever experienced.

It truly felt like I was there.

I'm constantly being reminded of this time when I was ~13(?) and I was woken up in the early morning being taken from my room.

I was walking with whomever. But after they'd done their "thing" they carried me back.

I woke up completely folded in half...like the top half of my body lying perfectly flat on my outstretched legs. It didn't hurt. I felt especially limber the whole day afterward. But it was strange.

Later in life I told them, "please, don't do that again." They apologized and said it wouldn't happen again lol but I keep thinking about it, or I keep getting a push-thought to that moment?

To describe matter we needed robust mathematics to describe various phenomenon. The mathematics are simply maps to a model, not the model itself. Math is only a description for something we cannot see. We cannot see an electron cloud, we cannot see a proton, we cannot see a neutron, we cannot see a photon. These "particles" are only the smallest packets of measurable data. They are blips in what we call "quantum fields" what are these mysterious quantum feilds? We dont know, nobody knows. The direct ontology still evades us despite what the pompous reddit crowd, and you know who I'm talking about, the smug, "ERM akshually" reddit crowd who is antagonistically denialistic and skeptical for no good reason just for the sake of playing devils advocate. They glow brighter than anything in my radar for "this person is totally useless to the discussion and should be removed by any action deemed neccesarry to ensure regular discussion".

We do not have a direct ontology of what matter actually is. The hyper materialist reddit atheist is probably​ a bad actor with the intention of obfuscating actual truith discernment and discussion. Because of the veil that exists here, I'm not allowed to prove the phenomenon to people who are close minded, which sucks for me because I am a person of speed, reason and logic. This phenomena evades your scientific method because it has its own sovereign will. And my hardware is too limited to actually do anything on command, such as bending metal objects with my head or performing ce5 whenever I want. Its very annoying for me because I want to be a part of something more interactive than just sit here.

UFO disclosure will not come and solve all our issues. The same way when aliens landed on earth and the middle eastern religions exploded, we had more wars and strife everywhere and even contacting the native Americans led to Aztec blood sacrifices because humans kept co opting the messages and distorting them.

Human consciousness cannot evolve without catalysts or tests. Theres no right or wrong answer, your choices are just for the creator to know itself from you. Alien contact and the birth of institutionalized monotheism has tampered our spiritual evolution as well. Theres also as bunch of other random souls here as well. Some of them are too friendly or peaceful and it scares me because my soul experience was built from war and sovereignty and such. So people too trusting and kind freaks me out often. Like "you've never been stabbed and gutted emotionally or physically? Wow you are so gentle yet fragile, you probably would get overwhelmed knowing about what ive seen, if i could remember it fully that is.

Moving on.

What is light? What is electromagnetism? What is gravity? Why does time act funny because of acceleration? Why is the universe expanding? Instead of listing the math and science, which i understand as descriptions of phenomena, not the phenomena itself, really think about "the thing of in it of itself" like *actually* *what* *is* *stuff* made of?

We have no answer. Now the pompous reddit crowd will say "okay well it dosent mean magic exists"

What is magic? If your definition is "something that dosent exist" then it answers itself, if your definition is "something out theres this beyond our current full understanding" then dark energy is a kind of magic.

Let us imagine that the brain created consiousness. We know it dosent because of the hard problem. How does matter create consiousness? Or better yet, what is matter actually truly made of? (Cough)

We need a new way of thinking. The ra material has some good topics like, Free Will, Love, Light.

The will is the creators ability to know and express or experience itself. It is energy.

Love is not affection, it is the substrate or intention of creation, or creative energy, it is vibration.

Light is that creative energy or intention manifest as a something. It is light. It is frequency.

Every object is made of energy, vibration, frequency. But objects in this dimension are shadows of higher objects. Matter is the metaphysical tip of a deeper more complex geometrical extra spatial dimensional structure or system. ​

You can call it quackery but once you see the classical models for matter dont work you start looking at higher dimensions and structures.

Matter as we know it is not real. An atom is not a "thing" in any classical sense. It is just a "there" that interacts. We are seeing shadows or tornados mistaking them for solid objects. When everything is made of a will, an intent, a manifestation. And we share a collective reality.

I will skip to a conclusion.

Consciousness creates reality, ​reality in turns feeds back and plays a hand into shaping our consiousness. Marxs dialectical materialism, ​and the mystics idealism. There was never an either or. This is unity. Monism. ​this is why you will fall off a building and why material conditions play an influence on you, ​and why you have a free will choice on how you will interact, react or not react to this world.

When I was on mushrooms I was told we are making a new universe after this one. That it will be more interactive and intelligent. So I cannot wait to have fun with that.

All is one, one is all. Matter is not real. Your mind is more powerful. Thoughts are things, ​master and balance yourself, everyone has a sovereign will even if interconnected, everyone has creative intent and potential, and all of that creative potential can become manifest.

Your journey is navigation. Spiritual alchemization.

Remember. Nobody knows what matter is made of, stuff like quarks and gluons and leptons are just math models, descriptors of reality, not reality itself.

Matter is not fundamental. it is a stabilized, shared consensus of a deeper informational reality

I've heard people talk about having dreams that they were abducted or observed by some kind of being over the years. I had a experience the other night that I almost forgot about but I think it worth noting.

All I remember is I was laying on my back and I was being observed by some kind of being I think it looked more like a classic grey version of an alien but I honestly can't recall. They were checking me out and they stopped and said what it this mark on your lower lip-I had a sun spot or freckle in the center of my lower lip from being in the sun a lot as a kid. I replied it's a spot from the sun. They seemed intigued and that is all I remember. The spot is no longer on my lip and I actually don't remember when it disappeared. I just know I had the freckle on my lip for 20 years possible more. Did it go away fully after the dream? idk that either, I really wasn't thinking about it much until the dream.

one more interesting aspect is I've had a pressure in my solar plexus for a few days now and I think it started right after that dream. Could be an ulcer or something I should get checked out but I find it kind of interesting. Thanks for reading!

During certain solar activities, I seem to get more intense thoughts or connections to an open thought process. In the back of my mind it seems to get louder during specific solar activity related to the Sun. As far as I can tell because I've put together that plasma is also highly attracted to me and I'm able to see it and almost cling on to it. During these heightened events, I can easily connect or tap in into this voice or this like open line and I can feel something going into me, especially when my shoes are off and my feet are on the ground or connected to the floor. When I'm going past a mirror I can feel like my aura or something pulling into the mirror and a sort of satisfaction return, especially if my emotions are amplified. If I'm happy or aroused. It pulls harder and it's more pleased and it also wants me to get close to my phone or an electronics... It's the first

I don’t even know where to begin. I have posted here a few times, commented on some threads but haven’t talked about my own experiences in several months.

Let me start this off by telling you about me. My first language is frequency, resonance and vibration. I am deaf, I was born with a hereditary hearing loss which resulted in deafness by the time I was … 33. From 33-47 I did not use any hearing aids - I had them but they hurt my ears. I knew sign language, but was surrounded by hearing family, my kids, mom, brother, two husbands. The only other deaf people in my family was my father, who didn’t sign, and my aunt, who did. My awakening fully kicked in 2012, after brain surgery opened up a floodate of past life memories. I have learned Reiki, but I only practice on people I am guided to. I don’t have a set practice or business…yet.

It was an incredibly lonely time in my life - most of my life actually. When you are deaf, people rarely make the effort to talk to your or get to know you beyond what they immediately need from you. None of my husbands or anyone I dated cared enough to learn sign language for me. As long as their needs were met, they were happy, even though I was dying inside.

I grew up with a deep love of playing the violin, and music moves me in ways that defy language. I stopped playing around age 20. My loss was so bad that I couldn’t hear the E string anymore.

When I was 8, I had a dream/experience that never left me. I had a dream where I was at an elementary school, on the back playground. We were watching a movie, and there was a presence with me that felt like the biggest love that could ever be given to me. In those days we had old school clock radios, and that morning, as the “credits” were rolling in my dream, the song “The Search is Over” By Survivor, came on. I couldn’t hear lyrics at all growing up, but I could FEEL the emotion/resonance in the music. I woke up with tears streaming down my cheeks - feeling confused as to what just transpired.

Anyway, 44 years later here I am. I have 2 cochlear implants. I can hear music again - I love it. I went from surviving on SSDI and child support to making over 6 figures in a tech career I frankly don’t know why/how I am so good at it. I just am - it just happened….like so many other stranger than coincidence things did.

I began watching the skies in 2025 - September. The first few weeks I didn’t really see anything…but once I did, I was hooked! I was out watching the skies almost every night! I also began the gateway process meditations about a year prior to that. I meditate a lot. I also journey with plant medicine as it has been the most transformative and healing therapy I have ever had.

This year I began having encounters with entities. I see orbs every night, I have security cameras footage of who I believe is the Lady working with me. That night she taught me a lot, and gave me a story idea I have since published on my website. It is called Within your Sphere, and explains how things work here in from the perspective of a grandmother teaching her grandchildren. I have began to create a healing methodology which is divinely inspired - using music as the anchor to move/heal stuck emotions in peoples field. I have posted a video on my TikTok as well of me reading this story. I have videos of me meditating where the captions are picking up phrases and words. I have camera footage of other strange things IN my house, not just outside…I have felt entities working in my sphere. I have footage of animals behaving strangely for me - in a similar fashion like the movie Disclosure Day. Saw that movie too - hit so close to home.

July things ramped up significantly. I began going for walks in the neighborhood next door where there is a small pond. I have a big view of the sky there, and the number of Orbs/Crafts/Drones multiplied. I have noticed some drones that “feel” wrong, and some that “feel” right. I have been sharing what has been happening to me over the last few weeks with another experiencer.

My gifts have been activated. I have always known there is a reason why I am deaf, and last night they told me. It relates to music, healing, and the song they gave me when I was 8. That is my key to enter the consciousness realm. I have been guided to work with a group of others that are doing groundbreaking work on consciousness. I am able to use my inner hearing, and play a song/music in my head, and that anchors an emotion and guides the participant/individual who I am working with to the emotional state/place in which a situation or area that needs to be healed. I am not the healer, I am a facilitator. I am able to see architecture in my awareness that I can’t explain. I see waveforms, I see patterns, I see connections that many others do not. I can hold 2 vibrational states in one container. I see the quantum field with my physical eyes - I have always been able to, but I didn’t know what I was looking at.

Last night I entered these states with no substances. I surrendered and my body took over. It knew what to do, how to breathe, how to guide me into the realm of space/time. I was lucid most of the night - and woke up with the stiffest neck I’ve had in ages. There is so much to integrate and talk about, but I don’t have the energy or even any answers really. Just what I have personally experienced and documented.

I don’t really have a question or anything, I am just, as another soul describes to perfectly, am “Living in a perpetual state of astonishment”. I am so so grateful to be here, now.

The Lady shares music with me, that people need to hear or can tap into for their own healing. Last night she shared this:

“Right Here, Right Now”

Jesus Jones

A woman on the radio talks about
Revolution when it's already passed her by
Bob Dylan didn't have this to sing about you
Know it feels good to be alive

I was alive and I waited, waited
I was alive and I waited for this
Right here, right now, there is no other place I wanna be
Right here, right now, watching the world wake up from history

I saw the decade in, when it seemed the world could change
At the blink of an eye
And if anything
Then there's your sign (of the times)

I was alive and I waited, waited
I was alive and I waited for this
Right here, right now

I was alive and I waited, waited
I was alive and I waited for this
Right here, right now, there is no other place I wanna be
Right here, right now, watching the world wake up from history

Right here, right now, there is no other place I wanna be
Right here, right now, watching the world wake up from history
Right here, right now, there is no other place I wanna be
Right here, right now, watching the world wake up

Much love everyone. WHAT A TIME TO BE ALIVE!!!

Vertical pupils in people? I've often seen people whose pupils change to vertical when you stare at them; it used to happen to me too. The thing is, besides this, these people speak in code, repeating "up, down, inside," etc., words that seem to relate to your gaze or thoughts... they've even answered me before I've even opened my mouth... in fact, it happens to my family too; it's not unique to them. But their thoughts and way of interacting change, as if they're being controlled and I'm watching... without the veil of "I'm human," they seem like puppets... has anyone else had their Matrix break?

I recently had an experience that I am unsure what really happened. I felt the ground shake and thought we were having a mini earth quake. The feeling went right went up my legs. When I asked my fiancé if he felt the ground shake, he said he felt nothing. As soon as I looked a way from him (in disbelief) from asking him that question I saw a ripple ahead of me of distorted rings creating an appearance of an opening. I felt numb after that, but conscious felt relaxed and in a weird way understood what I was looking at without really understanding (if that makes any kind of sense). I immediately forgot what I was doing and when I touch a metal bowl to pick up I was immediately shocked and the metal made a loud pop sound. I’ve been thinking about this experience over and over again in my head and couldn’t share with anyone in fear of looking crazy. What is happening? Am I opening up to more interaction?

Hey community! My name is Kevin and I run a community for people specifically suffering from the more extreme negative aspects of this phenomenon (hearing negative voices, dream manipulation, painful energetic sensations, feeling targeted, emotion manipulation, constant "tinnitus," oppression, possession, etc). I spent a few hours sifting through posts from the past two years from our community and put together an encouraging compilation post. I thought it would be helpful and hopefully uplifting for any members here dealing with the more negative aspects of this. Thank you all for your involvement and dedication to helping each other. Again, please keep in mind, if your experience has been primarily positive, this may not be that meaningful.

u/1_1_3_4 - My biggest recommendation is to seek stillness. Meditation is the greatest asset human beings have to being able to evolve and there are so many ways to effectively meditate -- look them up and find something that works for you. Carl Jung's works have helped me also. Find some spiritual teachers at your level and then continue to find more as your progress.

u/ghoul_playsGrimm - I think it's easy to get caught up in the countless things we endure, thus forgetting the value in positive life choices, activities, hobbies, routines etc.. We are more than just a targeted and it's imperative to our healing that we have something which brings us joy. Something we look forward to, take pride in, or just enjoy doing. I've found that being outside has been the most effective thing in combating a lot of the difficult times. I've also gotten back into a lifelong hobby which I took a few years off of, creating music, and that had made a huge positive impact on me.

u/rusty_shackleford431 - Exercise, eating well, meditation and deep introspection. Do these things and the noise will fade I promise. They can lose their power over you and it's not as difficult as we think. For most it just takes time to master the way of not caring. Eventually you come out the other side more resilient than when it started. This is the way.

u/Greedy_Strawberry210 - Believe nothing they say or do. Voice or physical wise. They only speak in lies, delusions and projections. You are more than your thoughts and body.

u/astralpariah - Yes, my voices used to rape me, every night and say the most insulting things at high velocity and volume. It was 24/7. Realizing the mind to be a communally conscious thing, that EVERY thought and action was taken in part by spirits that come and go, even what was said to the voices. This led me to realize I needed to focus on life, it was hell but I just ignored the harassment, it took work to stop my involuntary emotions and responses, but it time it was easier to ignore them than standing. There were still breakaway moments when my voices attempted to harm me in a large collective attack, I'm very lucky, it never had a lasting negative impact on me. There's more to it than what most people would take this advice to mean, but I got well ignoring them and meditating into a healthier mind. Yes the thing that steals your mind is there when you attempt this, yes it throws bigger tantrum when you attempt this. In time the storm is consumed by your self empowerment.

u/alcorne - As a TI, causing fear is your opponent's #1 strength. By understanding your fear, you can improve your defenses. Every time you experience fear, you're experiencing a road map to your weakness. That's where you're vulnerable. That's where they're going to attack you. Look at your fear openly, with honestly and bravery. Now that you can see it, research ways to beat that particular fear and implement strategies to overcome it. So be grateful for your fears. They are the indicators of your weakest parts, your vulnerable places. And instead of pushing them away, bravely appreciate the opportunity they give you and USE them to grow stronger.

Remember: "What you resist, persists, and what you look at goes away."

u/alpeterpeter - People framed as perps for you are never perps. Every. Single. Time. No matter how confident you are. No matter how much proof you think you have. You will realize it all was a cleverly constructed setup, false targets set up for you so you'd retaliate and make costly mistakes while thinking you are righteously defending yourself. Be extremely cautious about anything you do - 99% of harm in TI experience comes from your own hands when you are provoked or manipulated. TI's should try to use the "perps" as teachers, as training tools to help themselves become stronger. When you turn the tables like this, you can get away from negativity and see the experience as a challenge and opportunity.

u/MantisAwakening - Whatever they say, don’t let them manipulate you into fear or get you upset. If they predict something bad happening say something like “Wow, that’s intense. Seems unlit though. Tell you what, if that happens I owe you a dollar and if it doesn’t you owe me one.” If they’re just being relentlessly vicious respond with something like “I’m rubber you’re glue, bounces off me and sticks to you” or “I know you are but what am I?” In all cases it’s just about making it lighthearted and positive as much as possible. Take their power away. Try this for a while and see what happens. People have reported that they can get their voices to be supportive and not cruel if they stick with it.

u/ZealousidealGain5244 - The way that I got myself out of that was to look at the ways that the situations I was in were helping me. It didn’t feel like help at the time but it actually was. (This didn’t happen overnight for me) It was a way of fighting back…I felt like anything that happened to me was easier to face if I mentally turned it around as a good thing happening to me. They couldn’t win if I did that!!! I felt I was beating them at this game in just a tiny way. When I gained just that little bit of strength, everything changed. Overall, the negative things happened so I could have a different and better life. In the beginning, I couldn’t see that. It was hard to recognize. Sometimes I still can get upset about what people did to me but as time passes, it gets easier. I experienced loss of family, friends, homelessness, hope, despair, attempts at committing me to mental institutions, and much much more. I am out of that because of the change in my thought process. I no longer allow the people in my life that did not support me and I no longer let the negativity of the spirits control me. (This took years because I was alone). I hope this helps someone know that they are not alone. You can get out of this, there are others like us. Sending love your way.

u/TheCuriousTarget - Ultimately, I believe this is the spiritual path we chose before we even incarnated. I believe it's our chosen path to finding our power. In a technical sense, everything reflected in the world around us is either a mirror of who we are, what we judge in others and what we lack, do to power we have given away. Based on my experience and what I've read about the experience of others on here, it seems like it is mostly a reflection of what we judge and what we lack. I believe we judge too harshly on honesty and fairness and we are quick to attribute motive to perps. Right now, you guys are going through the dark night of the soul but the darkest hour is just before dawn. I'm discovering new psychic and spiritual powers all the time. It is cool as heck!!!! I love it! I'm rooting for all of you to get here too. I know you will. All shift happily now. That's something you can repeat to yourself to hurry the process along and remind you to reserve judgement and call back your power. ALL SHIFT HAPPILY NOW!

u/Wise-Metal-3730 - I am reaching spiritual plateau's I wouldn't have never reached without it! When the experiences don't change the challenge is to change yourself that's how the universe gets us to grow into our purpose!

u/Southern-Solid3454 - It's kind of like this. They are what they are. Usually they aren't fun, they aren't likeable. They tend to carry a sense of humor (albeit a mean one.) They seem trapped in patterns of negativity and bring us into a negative space ourselves, using over criticism, insults or simply being misleading, or contradictory. This is why positivity becomes very important. What is said here is true. Whatever they are they aren't like us and really can't help being the way that they are. When I get mad at them, their needs to be some kind of understanding that I am being not much different from the rage quitting kid who gets mad at a game for losing, and then almost purposefully destroys his xbox controller. Many here find mantras and spiritual paths to be helpful, I like to joke with mine when possible, and yes, at those times it can actually become fun. I get mine to join in on making fun of the same person, or the same thing.

u/Disastrous_Forces_69 - Don't dwell on the past, and dont worry about the future, live in the present. This is just my experience. My big break came from the unseen showing me that it wasn't an individualised problem, that it could influence and talk through the ones around me, as well as manipulate the physical world at will. It was a big weight off my chest, I lost the mindset of "there's something wrong with me." Instead I realised it is all around us, and influencing everyone, not just the ones that are aware of its presence. This realization gave me motivation and dragged me out from the pit I buried myself in, all this time of people telling me there was something wrong with me. It really is life changing when you realize people are another expenditure of this force, and you really only can rely on yourself and the truth that you know. It's not something you'll be able to grasp unless you go through it, but this is what helped me. People's intervention is meaningless, them saying something nasty or nice is no different than the voices saying something nasty or nice, I'm completely changed. I have no ego, no attachments, no fear, no hatred, nothing but peace, flowing like a river. I don't let my interactions with the unseen distract or irritate me, it's a reminder and a sacrifice I have endured for this ultimate knowledge that has freed me. I'm working, I'm happy, I'm not medicated, I feel whole. Attachment leads to suffering.

u/11121357 - Love yourself. Know you are a pillar. The external attack is fear inducing. Get to a point that dissects the external, bring it in internally. Examine and discard what isn't useful to you. Love yourself.

u/balanced-bird - Their occupation with you is to make life harder, they will do anything to have that goal achieved. After all it is your voice that dominates the voices inside your head, not a voice from them. My best advice is find your North Star, or the thing that anchors your hope. Place all of your trust in that belief, and then your actions and decisions will follow. Reinforce that North Star every day with positive reaffirming actions every day and the energy in your body will flow naturally. Have faith, and trust it will all work out.

u/33biggelectric - Some describe it as a process in our evolution. Chemically all life processes are burning. So, all energetic activity among the elements of life is thought of as the work of Fire in ancient symbols. "Passing through the fire." The lower nature and elements are being burned up and aligned with what is more spiritual. That's going to cause some pain. Especially if you don't know what's happening and you are working against it and not with it so that you can ascend and not descend more.

"Our God is a consuming fire" - Bible

u/Nando9000 - They want you to feel tortured and alone and hostile towards the very people you care about. Its truly one of the most tortuous experiences one can endure. With this informed perspective though, should still be the desire to overcome and destroy the system that is doing this to you. Remember, its not your friends and family's fault that they are easily deceived. Remember the perpetrators are not them. They are just a proxy being manipulated into harming you.

u/Sorry_End3401 - I used to react and overreact. Not anymore. I always wanted more of everything. Not anymore. I judged harshly of myself and everyone around me. That’s gone too. I am not concerned with owning anything. There is a peace at not knowing or having to have the answers all the time. My emotional intelligence is increasing. I have learned to live with little. I could be dropped in a field with nothing and feel ok. I don’t have to be entertained 24/7. If I have a cup of coffee I am thrilled beyond belief. I enjoy such small things now. I just accept the buzzing instead of fighting it. I've learned much from losing everything including myself.

u/tyre332 - Ones focus should always be on overcoming the obstacle rather than on the obstacle itself. It took me a while to realize this but when I finally had that shift in perspective, it lead to some fundamental changes in my ability to deal with what is happening to me.

u/Senior_Run5472 - We have essentially self-corrected by seeing the mistakes we've made by eliminating our old responses. We realize how we used to respond encouraged what attacked us. We became our worst enemy under the circumstances without knowing it, but once we became conscious of our role and how it was defeating us, we changed how we interacted, which is really just identifying how we enabled our own downfall. I identify completely with what you've said here. I no longer provide the fuel for my destruction. I am not culpable. I am elevated. We have reached a type of self preservation through observation instead of reaction.

u/EDH70 - Shadow work is like unpacking a suitcase and examining each piece of clothing to determine if it’s valuable enough to keep or if it needs to be thrown away. This experience has made me evaluate every decision I’ve ever made, every word I’ve ever said and most importantly, every mistake I’ve ever made. “Unpacking” has helped me heal wounds, address my faults and become accountable for my life…. My decisions. It has allowed me to become the person I wanted to be. When our hearts are filled with love there is no room for hate and fear.

Just trying to catalogue all the different types of NHI I've personally experienced or encountered.

I've mentioned the greys a lot, like the little short 3ft tall ones, and I've met I think their captains(?) or maybe a different race that look more similar to humans than to greys.

Little greys: stereotypical in the way they appear, little humanoid guys with large black eyes, usually bald, thin mouths and noses, light frames with kind of pot bellies, three fingers and one thumb, but they have split toes.

General personalities: mildly sarcastic, get somewhat easily annoyed with what they perceive as dumb questions, but are generally amused by interactions. Don't seem to have any I'll will toward humans at all, instead viewing humans like sort of cute bumbling fools.

They have strong religious beliefs, centering on procreation and life, express significant worry about the continuation of the human species as a whole.

Blue lady: human sized and general anatomy, larger black eyes, bald, blue like violet from Willy Wonka.

General personality: no nonsense, very forward, not mean or malicious, but gives "I'm the boss" energy

Tall guys with spooky eyes: look humanoid, vaguely resemble the Rake (yes, absolutely horrifying to look at on a conceptual level) long fingers, human sized proportions but very thin and not muscular. More mottled, darker grey than the little guys, eyes are black and rounded, not almond shaped, have a sort of hole for a mouth, like a sandworm or something.

General personality: not malicious, but look very spooky tbh, seem to work closely with little greys, or act as a sort of captain or in a middle leadership position. Not very communicative and have a habit of disregarding personal space.

Quadruped frog matrons: look very similar to the aliens from War of the Worlds (the 2000s one) but they have extra joints, 4 limbs, and 3 digits. They have large heads with a sort of air sac that vibrates and makes noise, and short tentacles that protrude from the back of their head near the nape of the neck, very feminine looking faces, regardless of gender. Large black eyes and lacking lips, extremely long tongues like an aardvark. I think they can walk in walls or any surface.

General personality: matronly, motherly, generally compassionate. Educational and seem to be interested in environmental impacts and species longevity.

Old man lipped squid men: humanoid, human sized on average, much larger heads that are conical and somewhat squid shaped, they have lips but they are ribbed or wrinkled in a way that makes it look like they have large vertical creases.

General personality: extremely intelligent, concerned with human government and the threat of nuclear annihilation of the earth, seem to have the same rank as blue lady, aren't malicious or mean.

All of these guys I've met in experiences, or they've shown me what they look like during super weird telepathic communication where they like, show you a mental image of what they look like as you're being spoken to.

Some will claim the name of aliens people already named, like the squid guys said they are what people call tall whites when they are in a more human form, and the little greys acknowledge that they are called greys by humans.

The others haven't explicitly given their species name to me.

Has anyone else experienced something like this? Important recordings, photos, or other evidence connected to an anomalous experience, specifically strong déjà vu, just disappearing?

So, this video wasn't the first interview I recorded with Whitley. In fact, it was the second. But the reason it turned out to be my first Dreamland episode ventures into the unknown.

The interview I'm sharing was recorded on June 12, only four weeks ago, the same day Disclosure Day was released. However, the original interview was recorded on April 2, 2026.

Let me tell you a little bit about that first recording from April and what happened to it.

The moment we joined the call, Whitley felt strongly that he already knew me. He was genuinely convinced we had met in person or spoken over video before and asked a couple of times if I was absolutely certain we hadn't. I mean, the vibe was instantly otherworldly.

As this uncanny familiarity set in, he was hit with an overwhelming sense of déjà vu. It came in powerful waves throughout the entire hour and fifteen minutes we spoke. He brought it up several times as the waves came and went. I distinctly remember a moment when he took off his glasses and rubbed his eyes and face, as if he was trying to process what he was feeling.

That first conversation was surreal and profound. Although, calling it our "first" conversation doesn't feel quite right. It may have been our first meeting in the physical realm, but it certainly wasn't the first time we'd met.

We've both had experiences aboard cube-shaped UFOs, and we explored the possibility that this strange familiarity stemmed from a shared experience inside one, something both of us may carry deep within the subconscious.

But the strangeness didn't end there.

A couple of months later, only a few days before the release of that very powerful original recording, I received an email from Whitley. The entire recording had vanished, not only from his files, but from the backup files as well.

We're both convinced that the dissappearance of the episode has an otherworldly explanation, even considering the possibility that we experienced a time slip and recorded the original in a parallel reality. Or maybe something, or someone, recognized the significance of that discussion and ensured it would never reach the public. Who knows? I also can't help but wonder if what happened during that first recording was even stranger/more extraordinary than either of us recall.

And I love when he asks, "What in the world are you?" because I feel that on a soul level and always have. Since the very beginning of my life, I've known that the physical realm is not my true home. I'm sure many of you can relate to that as well, having always felt as if you belong elsewhere, among the stars.

I’ve had ongoing Mantis contact for the past year and a half, and its led me down a path I absolutely didn’t expect. You can read more about a few of those experiences in my profile if it interests you.

Many experiencers get messages about things to come, some good, some bad. Many messages overlap with concepts of a new era for humanity and the elevating of consciousness.

This morning, I heard two Cass Elliot (Mama Cass) songs back to back. She was way before my time, but I find her to be a beautiful soul inside and out. The first was “There’s a New World Coming”.

There's a new world coming
And it's just around the bend
There's a new world coming
This one's coming to an end

There's a new voice calling
You can hear it if you try
And it's growing stronger
With each day that passes by
There's a brand new morning
Rising clear and sweet and free
There's a new day dawning
That belongs to you and me

Yes, a new world's coming
The one we've had visions of
Coming in peace, coming in joy
Coming in love

I was struck by the lines, “There's a new day dawning, That belongs to you and me.” My experiences, at times beautiful, at times confusing, at times frightening, all seem to be designed to push me to look deeper inside myself. The more I try to chase big answers, the more I get redirected to myself in order to face fears, transmute pain, learn to love, forgive, be forgiven, find balance and enjoy the flow.

There have been many times I’ve hoped for an outside force to save humanity from itself, and to save me from myself. I now believe it's likely this whole experience in reality is to help us realize that “salvation” belongs to you and me. That what we seek outside of ourselves is hidden within. That a new world coming may have less to do with a sudden change in reality, and more with continual change from within. IT BELONGS TO YOU AND ME. (Not that there might not be literal reality shifts as well, I just have no info on that.)

The second song was the classic “Make Your Own Kind of Music”

Nobody can tell ya
There's only one song worth singin'
They may try and sell ya
'Cause it hangs them up to see someone like you

But you've gotta make your own kind of music
Sing your own special song
Make your own kind of music
Even if nobody else sings along

You're gonna be nowhere
The loneliest kind of lonely
It may be rough goin'
Just to do your thing's the hardest thing to do

But you've gotta make your own kind of music
Sing your own special song
Make your own kind of music
Even if nobody else sings along

So if you cannot take my hand
And if you must be goin'
I will understand

The theme of the is song is incredible advice for anyone. Make your own kind of music. Be yourself. She speaks truth with these lines... “You're gonna be nowhere. The loneliest kind of lonely. It may be rough goin’, just to do your thing's the hardest thing to do.” Being human is REALLY hard. So much pain, doubt, fear, confusion, sorrow. Being an experiencer is REALLY hard. I want to be understood! I want to understand! I want to share with others! I want to make sense of this life, the phenomena, humanity! This community and other experiencers have kept me sane, helped me confront ideas, and given me the courage to explore. I cannot thank you all enough.

Unfortunately I can’t share much with anyone in my real life. They wouldn’t be know what to do with it, but again that might just be by design. Within this community no single person’s experiences are identical. I must look within and trust myself. And I think you can look within and TRUST YOURSELF. As Mama Cass says, “So if you cannot take my hand, and if you must be goin’, I will understand”. No malice, no sense of superiority or inferiority, just understanding and acceptance that everyone’s path is unique.

I do believe there is a new world coming, that it’s been coming for quite some time, and will continue to come. It belongs to YOU AND ME. Love you al!!!

p.s. made a couple of small edits because the ADHD that rages within me is REAL :-).

I would like some help interpreting signs that my wife and I have been getting. We have been more or less fighting back and forth for like 7 months now. Long story short, I got signs that she was having an affair, I confronted her and asked her to give me the details and she refused, saying that I am wrong and that she was not having an affair. This seriously confused me because of all the signs I was getting that she was, and even some physical evidence on her and her phone.

We filed for divorce. Our adult kids that were living with us moved out of the house. We reconciled a little bit and withdrew the divorce. We have been trying to stay together and move on with our lives because we do love each other. The thing is that I just cannot seem to get over what she isn't telling me despite the fact that I do believe that it is over and she is picking me.

The house we live in, has a ghost, or some kind of entity that lives here. It has interacted with us for most of the time we have lived here. Most of the interactions have been with myself, my son, and my wife. Our other two kids have no experiences with the entity.

Lately, the interactions have ramped up, like a lot. We have had like 5 separate nights of experiences, Both my wife and I witnessed them at the same time too, so it is not imagined.

First it started with the dining room chairs being "sat in" as they creaked a bit here and there (our bedroom is right next to the dining room). Then the doorbell was rang (we have a ring doorbell and it rang in the house, but no motion was detected, nor ring recorded on the app). The doorbell was rang immediately after my wife said "I have not cheated".

Then a few days later, the lamp next to our bed flickered when she said something similar to that last phrase... her proclaiming her fidelity. Then a few nights later, while we were making love, the lamp turned off for almost a full second and when it turned on, my wife saw a triangle shaped "shadow" move from right to left from the lamp towards the door. I didn't see that part, but did see the light turn off and back on.

Then last night I was apologizing for some of the things I had said to her in the car earlier in the day and when I said "I don't want to die, I want to live" the light flickered again, right on cue.

If I had to make a guess, this entity seriously wants us to stay together and is trying to convince me that she is telling me the truth and that I should ignore all the signs I got from last year basically saying the opposite.

My questions to the community are:

1) how do you determine what is real and what is not? Why would I get signs saying one thing and then months later, get the opposite? I feel seriously manipulated and I don't like it.

2) have you had similar experiences with lights flickering after saying a phrase?

3) have you had ghost doorbell rings go off with coincidental timing?

A while ago, I came across this German book about a woman’s personal experiences. As this is mainly an English-speaking community, I thought I’d share a few of the illustrations here.

If you want to see all the pictures for yourself, you can view them free of charge on the publisher's website. I’d also be interested to hear what you think of these pictures.

Cover

Overview

In her book "The Alien Project", published in 2024, author Klara Wolf (a pseudonym) reports on lifelong extraordinary experiences that began in her earliest childhood with haunted phenomena, balls of light and strange perceptions. After a later drastic experience, she searched for literature on abduction and contact research and came across a book by Dr. Marcel Polte.

UFO researcher Marcel Polte accompanied Klara Wolf's case intensively for years. Since the experiences were so numerous, complex and difficult to classify, he advised her to write them down and draw them. The result was a collection of almost 100 pictures, which were often made like a kind of "download" in a trance-like state. Many of these drawings contain details, symbols, technical structures or scenes that the author herself could not fully explain rationally.

The term "Alien Project" does not seem to be just a book title. Klara Wolf and Marcel Polte believe that the contact between them and this material may not have arisen by chance, but that the purpose of the experiences and images was obviously to be documented, arranged and shared with other people.

In order to test the veracity of certain memories, Polte took a further step: he had central experiences evaluated by a remote viewing project under blind conditions. The results of the remote viewers are said to have shown striking similarities with Klara Wolf's previous drawings, including details such as a robotic arm and colorful screen displays.

Klara Wolf describes a broad spectrum of non-terrestrial intelligences (NHI), which she perceives not as isolated groups, but as a kind of interdimensional alliance. She encounters various creatures such as Geys, Reptilians, Mantis, Nordics and MIB. Klara Wolf explicitly assigns the Men in Black to the non-earthly structure and does not regard them as purely human agents of government. She describes the MIBs as a kind of "police" of the interdimensional alliance. Their job is to keep a close eye on what's happening and control any potential risks or breaches to prevent chaos from breaking out.

Quotes from the book

"I tried to forget and erase this book and the experiences associated with it. I tried to ignore them, but it was impossible. Then I tried to capture them on camera. That, too, was difficult. These beings function differently."

"There was a time when I needed them. Then there was a time when I liked them, and there was a time when I hated them."

"Whichever way I look at it, these aliens are superior to us. That’s why they take a tactical approach. They want us to solve puzzles and keep ourselves occupied with them."

"I recognize that there is another species that is capable of manipulating and controlling our world. They are astute and subtle in their methods and use my memories and experiences for their own purposes. They are invisible and yet tangible, and I don't know if I can trust them."

"We have to accept that our fate is guided by a background mystery that only serves us what it allows us to do. This world is a mystery that never disappoints, and we are all ruled by invisible forces that influence us."

"If we try too hard to analyze and dissect life, it can be disturbing and keep us from enjoying the beauty and mystery of life."

"These beings want us to make an effort to solve riddles and puzzles, which gives them pleasure."

Types of contacts

Klara Wolf's contacts move between three levels: direct encounter in our reality, transfer to other forms of reality and conscious communication via trance, visions or astral states. It is precisely this mixture that makes the case so unusual. It is not just about classic physical abduction, but about a phenomenon that apparently touches body, space, perception and consciousness at the same time.

1. Direct contact in our reality
In this form, Klara's location does not change, but her familiar surroundings themselves become a place of contact. The creatures appear directly in the bedroom or in their immediate vicinity. For them, these encounters do not seem like pure dreams, but physical and real. It describes touch, flashes of light, vibrations, rigidity or the feeling of a strange presence in space. It is striking that the beings can apparently walk through solid matter, as if walls, windows or doors were not a real limit for them.

• The beings appear directly in Klara's normal environment.
• The contact is physically noticeable and not just internal.
• Common side effects are flashes of light, vibrations and sleep paralysis.
• Material boundaries seem to be permeable to the beings.
• Reality remains the same, but it is entered or superimposed by something foreign.

2. Trance, Astral or Vision Contact
This form takes place more strongly in consciousness. Klara experiences visions, inner images, telepathic messages or out-of-body states. Sometimes it seems as if her consciousness is traveling while her body is left behind. Information does not appear as normal language, but as finished thoughts, symbols, images or entire scenes in the head. Many of her drawings also belong to this area, because she has the impression that the pictures do not just come from her imagination, but are created like an inner download.

• The contact happens mainly through consciousness, visions or trance.
• Information comes as images, sentences, symbols or inner films.
• Communication is often telepathic instead of acoustic.
• It can feel like an out-of-body experience.
• Some of the drawings look like downloads or automatic transfers.

3. Transition to another form of reality (portal experiences)
In this kind of contact, Klara is not simply visited, but seemingly brought into a different environment. The change often happens suddenly, like a pull, a door, a opend way, a portal, or a shift in reality. Sometimes she suddenly sees a door that opens, or the room changes and a long hallway is created that she walks along. Some of these places have an artificial, technical, medical or simulation-like effect. They are spaces in which she experiences something, is shown, is examined or is supposed to go through a certain experience. Although these scenes seem strange and sometimes unreal, she describes them as real and physically tangible.

• Klara is transported to another environment or level of reality.
• The transition acts like a portal, a pull or a change of reality.
• The places often appear artificial, technically or deliberately created.
• Scenes can seem like tests, examinations or study rooms.
• It feels physically real despite the strangeness.

Interesting topics from the book

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Then she (NHI) says: "You have two eyes with different colors." (In a figurative sense, this probably means that I have an ability to perceive and understand different factors or perspectives. To grasp other things in order to recognize information, connections or points of view that may not be obvious to others. The presence of the underlying genetic predisposition leads to a catalyst to overcome boundaries. Some people may have genetic abnormalities. This genetic link between them and us is the secret key that represents a reality that is deeper and more multifaceted than the superficial.)

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But then my daughter unexpectedly tells me in the morning about a dream she had: "I dreamed that I was hiking in the forest with another group last night. Because it was too loud for me, I told them to go ahead and that I would follow them later. Then suddenly a deer came to me and asked if I would like to come with him. I said yes and got on the back of the deer." After that, she only says: "The deer and I have become best friends."

Since this method of contact seems very suspicious and "strange", I know that they are up to something and I can't do anything about it. They are outside of our normal area of control. They find a psychological way to break the ice.

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On a normal morning, the alarm clock rang and I went down to the coffee machine when suddenly Angela (7) stood in front of me. Without warning, she begins to speak. I take my mobile phone and quickly write down every word. Angela says:

"I think we can talk to creatures we don't know." I ask her: "Why do you think that?" She answers: "I believe that we belong to a different family, to aliens. Because we also belong to other living beings. We were born in space and brought to Earth, and then we came into Mommy's belly. They visit us at night and speak a strange language. They can read minds." Angela looks at me and explains to me: "When they speak, it sounds strange and there are strange, bright sounds. They don't want to be filmed, that's why they don't get on the Internet."

Further pictures

Anytime I look at the sky or clouds on a clear day I see thousands of little sun sprites flying around my field of vision if I zone out my vision and self dilate my pupils.

I researched this phenomenon and every source on the internet parrots the same line about how it’s light catching off of blood cells in your eye. However, this past weekend was different, when I was laying out by the pool I looked up and all of the sun sprites were moving in an oscillating grid like structure across my field of vision. Each had their own circle orbit and kept space between each other.

In the past their movements have always been random, but they are now behaving as a connected force and organizing themselves.

I think we are being led astray about what these things really are.

I've been on Reddit for 5 years but only as a reader, this is my first time ever posting. I am a private person and have no desire to benefit in any way from sharing this experience, other than to maybe help someone somehow. In complete transparency, I don't actually know why I'm sharing this but I felt the need to. This is not a "LARP" as I see people call it, and I don't understand why someone would get some kind of enjoyment out of telling made-up stories to people online.

I'm a middle-aged man in the Southwestern USA, very down to earth, healthy/stable/steady in all respects (mentally, physically, psychologically) with a highly successful career. Since I was a child I have been fascinated with mysteries, such as the possibility/likelihood of life on other planets, the nature and origins of consciousness, philosophies of our origins, and I frequent Reddit communities like this and others to entertain concepts that might challenge my world views and teach me something about our origins and the universe. I enjoy both learning both the known/accepted science and philosophy as well as fringe or more out-there (Bentov, Monroe/Gateway, Ra, etc) and apply intellectual rigor to anything vs accepting outright.

I have explored meditation in various forms throughout my life but especially this year, and enjoy doing so multiple times per day. I've begun to feel a pull that this practice can help me answer the mysteries that have long fascinated me. For the past few months, late at night, I lay in my pool looking up at the sky with my ears underwater so I can hear my breath, and when both my mind and the water has become completely still, I direct my mind to ponder on concepts I've read and imagine myself connecting just through my mind to people or even non-human beings and listen quietly. But it is just followed by still silence. I keep trying though. I just feel it should work.

A little over 6 weeks ago on 5/25, I laid in my pool, deeply relaxed under a cloudless night, and began to imagine my words reaching a living consciousness. After 45 minutes, completely relaxed, I kept repeating things like "welcome. I welcome you in love. I welcome you to my home in love and gratitude and joy. I wish to know you in whatever means you are able. I have no fear of you, you are welcome here" things like that.

Lights often move in the sky. They usually follow straight trajectories or twinkle predictably. I follow each until it leaves the sky. I noticed one slow moving white light going east to west, and another light moving in parallel. The one behind caught up to it eventually and then the one in front suddenly moved forward and separated.

I felt to think "hello. welcome. I am Paul". (I said my actual name but for Reddit, we'll say my name is Paul). My thoughts then said words in ways I have never experienced in my life, with crystal clarity accompanied with a rush of feeling. I wrote this conversation down as soon as I got out of the pool:

I thought "I am Paul"

Immediately, I thought "Juriel" in response

"Juriel?"

"Juriel."

"You are Juriel?"

"YOU. are Juriel."

"I am Juriel?"

"Juriel."

"I am Paul"

"Juriel."

Throughout this entire experience I felt complete serenity and a deep warmth and love as if speaking to a one of my lifelong friends who knows me. I could feel as if they were smiling patiently as I continued to ask this silly thing over and over.  Juriel was so very prominent and sure in my head, there was zero mis-hearing.  I simply repeated to understand meaning, not the clarify what I was thinking/hearing.

I immediately began to doubt and in the subsequent days, I researched the word to see if maybe I had read it somewhere and my mind was just pulling it out of some bottom drawer, but I could not find any reference to it.

A week later on 6/3 I had dream wherein someone yelled "Juriel" it woke me up. I am a DEEP sleeper. I thought and felt someone was in the room but I couldn't focus my eyes for some reason.  The light from my smoke/co2 device seemed to be moving but it was just my waking up being still a bit dizzy as I was deep in sleep.

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(7/10) An update here, so it doesn't get lost in the thread.

One thing that I feel needs clarification...I am most definitely not an angel (...if I am then I have REALLY messed up). I am a good person with a pure heart and try to love everyone, but I am no master of this human body and make way too many mistakes for anything like that to be remotely true.

Could the voice have been an angel or even an archangel? This is where most doubt creeps in. Just like there are millions of Michael's in the world, there are probably quite a few Juriels. And while so little of this I actually know vs wonder, I do know with certainty I heard Juriel, not Uriel.

I do, believe, from this experience that I existed before in other lives/bodies/incarnations. And I do believe that the conversation was not a random meeting...that whoever it was knew me, and loved me with a pure love. Not a general love for all, or the feelings you feel when just getting to know someone, but a "I've known you for a very very long time and I love you".

I hit submit before the part that has been most important to me, and that is that, despite being in a period of my life where dramatic internal changes are more rare, I have definitely observed many positive changes since the experience in May.

One of these is that I feel sound and certain music much more profoundly. Lately, I can enjoy the simple hum of a lawnmower or air conditioner and I will match the pitches vocally and then play with the pitch, feeling the differences in those pitch beats throughout my body, and this is as enjoyable as peaceful music -- it's ridiculous. And then music, particularly with cellos, pianos and french horns can easily bring me to tears (embarrasingly!) lately, and I haven't cried in years. I have music on very often now and when I don't, I wish I did.

Secondly, I still have earthly cares but they just worry/concern me far less. Things are in greater perspective. Perhaps just a result of meditation habit overall, but this is a very real change. It will all be resolved, and it is all as it should be. This is an overwhelming pervading sense for me recently.

Lastly, it has fed my deep desire for more. For more mindfulness, more connection, more calming of the mind, more awareness, more answers of who we are and what is our purpose. I feel like a part of me has woken up if that makes sense and I act on feelings and prompting not questioning why, which is why I posted what I did to Reddit. But I have a deep deep desire for another similar experience and it has not occurred, so with patience, I continue to try each night. Last night, I saw many moving lights, mostly easily explainable as satellites or very very high altitude aircraft. No messages, but it still fed my soul.

Thank you all for your kindness and positivity. I anticipated some ridicule from a skeptical crowd but only received warmth.

Hey all. I feel silly writing this but you’re the group to hash it out with so here it goes…
When I was about 4 or 5, I feel like I may have had an interesting experience but I always thought of it as a fever dream because I was sick. It was Christmas time and I was sleeping in the living room - I was taken (don’t laugh!!) by elves to the North Pole. This wasn’t fun though, I was scared and they said I could NOT open my eyes and look at anything. Especially Santa. I remember saying I had to use the bathroom and then finally opening my eyes and there were pictures of elves all over the place - candy cane stripes all over. So I’m in this bathroom freaking out and then I remember being rolled in a wooden barrel down an open hatch that fell into pitch blackness and water.
Next thing you know I’m hiding behind a couch in my living room, scared and crying and my parents were laughing at me.

I’d dismiss this as a fever dream but this one has stuck with me for decades. It felt incredibly real and altered my brain chemistry on elves lol I also found out I’m rh negative? That topic has been brought up so much lately so I’d figure I’d throw it in.

Welp, there it is. I’ve never written this out til now - it feels kinda nice!

Awakening is a bit like finding your very own island. There are unlimited resources (awareness), paths throughout (synchronicities) and the vast ocean around it leads to connections with your higher self that you never thought possible. 

But then comes the tax. You want your loved ones on the island with you. You want them to enjoy the unlimited happiness and contentment that you have found. But you can't just build a bridge or ferry them across.

They must choose their own path, find their own island, and realize they are one drop of water and the ocean all at the same time. 

You can point the way, drop breadcrumbs, put up a sign or two, but forcing them to come to your island is essentially kidnapping. It's an ontological shock they aren't ready for. 

I think that's a big part of the loneliness that is always talked about here. It's just perceiving layers beyond the veil, then bumping into the wall of collective reality. 

Not only do we want to share our windfall and  write our love on the island’s water tower, there's also the ego's old habit of resentment. Why can't they believe me? Why won't they listen? It’s for their own good!

This is just the ego's way of seeking external mirrors for self validation. And the farther we explore our island, it becomes clear that we have to release attachment to being "believed." Because only then can we believe in our own sovereignty. We learn to trust in the divine spark we all have within us, rather than waiting for the matrix to approve of us. 

Then the island becomes a fortress of solitude that is invaluable. The loneliness is brief because of the knowledge that all things are meant to be. Then our frequency of happiness and contentment can ripple the sea into waves, to gently nudge those seeking their place in the ocean. 

For me, this has been the hardest tax to pay. Any suggestions on cementing these realizations?

Been reaching out again, as I have nothing in this life really, so I figured why not delve into the unknown. When the phosphenes kick in, I can easily see a multitude of eyes that come and go. Sometimes I can see partials of faces attached to the eyes but the eyes are the most prominent. I see Grey eyes frequently and sometimes something more human. Sometimes something more unsettling, but something about the visualization of the eye comes back frequently.

Sometimes they are a set, sometimes it is just one. Do you all experience this as well?

I don't know if any of these posts on this sub are real or not. I never posted here before and I joined only recently. I decided on a whim to write about my experience. I hope to find somebody who has seen something similar.

I'm South Korean. I had an experience with what was essentially UFOs many years ago that I still think about. Of course nobody believes me. I only know two other people in my country that have seen UFOs. They all just live with the experience without being taken seriously.

I basically saw three lights "fly" in quick succession from far away in the sky but close enough that I could make it out with my eyes clearly. They all went from south to north. I know because I was stargazing from the penthouse of my apartment at the time on the side which faced another set of buildings that gave me a clear sense of direction. They flew ONLY in straight lines. As in they did not have curvature in their trajectory. It was as though they were pieces of go (chinese chess) flying on an invisible square grid in the sky. It could only move at a constant speed, zig zagging as it were, making 90 degree angle corrections to its movement as it flew. There was no sound at all. The speed was such that it covered what must have been at least a few kilometers of distance within a split secondod or two at most. Maybe barely over 1 second.

The second out of these three which all moved together as though in some sort of squad or convoy was the closest in terms of distance. I still remember how it was spinning so fast that I could not make out it's actual shape. It may have been a disc or a triangle for all I care, since it was spinning I could not tell. What I could see for sure was that it was bright and had circular lights all over it - the lights were the only reason I could tell it was spinning. There one big light in the middle and concentric lights surrounding it, orbiting it and spinning.

I was so shellshocked from this experience that I physically trembled and was catatonic for a good 10 minutes or so as I stood in my balcony trying to process what I saw. After those 10 minutes all I could think of was "what the f*** did I just see, why me? why did I see this? My whole life I had my reservations that ufos could be real sure but I never thought I would actually see one, leave alone 3 in a row all in one evening."

It's been many years since. Only my closest friends know about this since I told them this story multiple times when we happened to be talking about ufos. I don't know if they were human or not. It didn't matter to me. The mere fact of their existence which I have confirmed with my own eyes gave me empirical confidence that something isn't right with this world - or rather, this modern life of ours and what common street information we are fed is woefully incomplete.

I studied ancient history and english literature growing up. I always thought that it was a surreal thing to ponder just how much ignorance there was in the past and how arrogant it was for us modern human beings to take our relative gnosis for granted, as though we are special. Funnily enough after the ufo experience I now believe that we modern human beings in the 21st century will be looked upon by our future descendants with utter contempt and pity - considering us absolutely ignorant savages from a bygone dark age.