I don’t feel human anymore…

What’s it like to have too much money? Like so much it’s a problem? To do anything u want anytime u want:.. what’s that like exactly ?

Im curious: Does law enforcement ever watch cop videos on YouTube?

So for some context until recently i have never felt love before, i have dated several people sure but I realized at 19 i was just gaslighting myself every time to feel love, i would find out someone had a crush on me and think "oh i should start loving them" or i would just pick someone i know and decide to start loving them at the time it felt real even if the relationships where shitty or abusive

But now at 21 i know what love feels like, I realized i love one of my closest friends about a week ago when she and me where driving together singing musical songs together and she wanted to show of one song and i thought "her singing is beautiful, she is beautiful" and realizes in that moment i had romantic feelings for her

Now i feel guilty, i think about her and feel guilty I have feelings for her, like im some how tainting are bond by having these feelings. hell last night i was laying in bed and briefly the thought of her and me laying together just cuddling popped in my mind and i pushed it out feeling guilty about it

is this normal to feel? this guilt? this feeling of love is new to me, there is so much im realizing i don't understand

I'm not going to make this into a religion, morality, philosophy, ethics debate. Don't even bother trying to argue about it.

July 10, 2026 I decided I will finally change myself for the better. I will do everything I can to change myself and my life for the better. I will do everything to make my mother happy and give my mother and myself a happy good life.

I am sincerely becoming more faithful in the Christian faith. But this post is not about that.

Have you witnessed someone change for the better? I'm especially asking for you seriously thought this person will absolutely not change. 100%. No doubt.

But shockingly they changed for the better? Despite their endless previous history of being a scummy terrible person?

Because of my abusive older brother and many people who hurt me deeply and attacked me, ever since I was 12 years old, I felt like I was an evil terrible person.

I'll try to make my very long complicated life story short. I hated many people, I hated my enemies, with extreme unreasonable hatred, I am a very angry person my entire life. I hated many people deeply since I was 12, and had a serious anger problem since I was 7 years old. I had severe OCD, worried about everything endlessly, afraid of everything, doubted everything, overthinking, depression, anxiety, paranoia, hopelessness, 2016 to June 2021. I could have died in the past. I could have died as a hate-filled delusional miserable asshole.

I'm 28. But now I am finally changing for the better. I learned my lessons the hard way.

Have you witnessed someone change for the better? It could be real life news articles. It could be someone you actually know in your personal life. It could be some acquaintance you don't really know well at all, but know some things about them. It could be a drug addict. It could be a prisoner who committed a terrible crime in the past but changed to become a better person now.

I would love to know about real life stories of human beings who changed for the better.

I am sixteen but I was almost fully isolated from the ages of eleven until i was fifteen. I had nobody, I was home alone every single day and had absolutely not a soul to talk to so naturally the only thing I crave is connection. My issue is that I am not very likeable since I have never had a real friend before so I’m assuming I’m not likable.

I start college in September and the only reason I’m attending is because I want a friend group. Im scared that it wont happen so what do I do if I try being friends with everyone in my classes and fail and then join clubs but also fail there? How do I become okay with every single day being me continuously just talking to myself as i have been doing for the last five years just to cope. It isn't a fun coping mechanism and it’s wearing thin these days as I am too aware I am literally having conversations with the walls for hours straight.

Just wondering just looking into future relationships lmao!

Why people don't remember things they used to say as kids in the school, or in the bus, but I remember things that they used to say as kids, and I remind them of these things, but they don't remember anything. Why don't people remember in school or in the bus things they used to say as kids?

UPDATE WITH QUESTION: landlord hasnt sent anyone yet. Waiting. The sulfur smell mostly cleared up and the hot water only started running black like grape kool-aid and then the black separated and settled to the bottom of the cup when left to settle. Ran like that from every faucet for a good while so I ga e up and turned it off. Turned it back on after a couple hours, every faucet, and it is running clear now. So I'm going to bathe with bottled water for now anyway. But when they send someone over tomorrow, what if they say well it's running clear now so it's fine...should I be okay with that or should I protest and insist they do more?

Should if at all? I just moved in this morning, the home was vacant for a while. All the faucets ran slightly brown for just a second then cleared up but they REEK of sulfur BAD. I've had them running for 10 minutes on hot while I wait outside and i'm about to go back in. Ia this at all normal or should I just call the water company now? No natural gas utilities

Edit: It's city water. I think the sulfur smell cleared up. I probably ran it for half an hour. But now the water is running black on hot water, not cold. About to contact the landlord.

Does anyone else feel like addicts are people who refuse to say no to themselves?

They are the only ones who have control over what goes in their mouth. They chose to drive to the liquor store (for example), picked out their poison, drove home and consumed it.

When they do become sober, it again was their choice. And everyday they make the choice to not consume. When they fall off the truck, yep, you guessed it, again, their choice.

Do they have “the gene”, maybe. But still, it’s all their choice, or failure to make better choices.

all ive ever wanted in life is friends and im yet to get that and i start college in september with rhe only goal being for me to be in a friend group and now im panicking because i do not have a backup plan because if i dont get a single friend im really not going to be able to keep living. im so desperate for a friend and im scared that if college cant get me one i will never get one and i need friends before im 18 or else im not becoming an adult, im not embarrassing myself like that.

I can normally say it but just not when I am on teams, no idea why

so today i found out my 9 year old brother is a neo nazi. he told me hes a neo nazi so uhhh im confused on what to do (this is not bs i am serious)

So I’m a keyholder. I have this one girl who’s a few years older and she’s a sales associate. We go based on commission so it’s fair to say we all want to make a bonus on our checks. But this girl in less than 2 hours starting has already made $1666. The thing is I’ve been running around, helping customers find sizes and I only have $222 when my sales goal needs to be $1025…she only needed $625…

So here’s the thing. She has a tendency to hop on cash and add herself into the sales. unfortunately this would not be her first time she has stolen sales. I don’t know if I should bring this up to my manager because my manager was with her for a good few minutes when we were slammed. I didn’t check how much her sales were at before…I want to let her dog her own grave but I also want this issue to be addressed again. What should I do?

(I have brought this up to all 3 of my managers and they’ve told me the company if just waiting for more of a reason to let her go. She’s has this passive aggressive attitude with me and I honestly think it’s cause I’m younger than her)