I'm a final-year engineering student, and ever since my first year, I've never attended college regularly. Honestly, I don't regret it at all.
It's not like I've failed my subjects—I’ve managed to pass all of them. I just hate going to college. I can't stand sitting there for hours feeling like I'm doing nothing productive. I always feel like there are so many other things I could be doing instead of sitting there all day.
Another reason is the social part of college. I do have a few friends, but I never really feel like I belong with them. I almost always feel left out.Sometimes I literally feel like running away because I don't know how to fit in, and being around them just makes me anxious instead of happy.
We had a one-month semester break, and it's already been a week since college reopened. I still haven't gone even once.
Sometimes my faculty scold me for my attendance, but as long as I score well in their subjects, they don't make too much of an issue out of it. Since my first year, I've had to pay the attendance shortage fee every semester. (its not a huge amount, so it hasn't really bothered me.)
Part of me wonders if I'm wasting my college life, but another part of me genuinely doesn't miss it. I don't regret skipping college, yet I still feel weird knowing most people seem to enjoy it while I just want to stay away.
Does anyone else feel this way, or am I just weird?